Chapter Two



Ryan's face grew stone cold and the tear slid right off his face.  Gillian shifted uncomfortably but before she could curse herself she noticed Ryan's bandage.  "Ryan, what happened to you?" She asked running over to him "Are you ok?".

Ryan stepped back a few steps away from Gillian "I'm fine." he said.  His eyes were as cold as ice and Gillian noticed it almost right away.

Hayley turned towards Jake "Jake do you think you could show me to Physical Thearpy?  I wanted to set up a sechudle for Raquel and ask them a few questions" Hayley winked at Jake, so he knew it was really only a cover to give Ryan and Gillian a few mintues alone.

Ryan said nothing as he continued to look right past Gillian.  "Didn't mean to interrupt your date."  his voice was expressioless.

Gillian shook her head "It wasn't really a date."

"Hey it's ok, I mean it's not like were married or anything.  You can date whomever you damn well please." Ryan said his voice still filled with anger.

"Jake and I went to a hospital dinner together.  It was no big deal."

Ryan shook his head and turned his head away.

Gillian's face fell "Ryan I'm sorry."

Ryan tilted his head and faced Gillian again "For what?  Having fun?  Laughing?  Enjoying yourself?"

Gillian said nothing but only shook her head no.

"Then what?  Being with Jake?  Being with someone who makes you happy?  I don't get it Gillian, what are you sorry for?"

"Hurting you" Gillian said looking up at Ryan.

"Hurting me?  Gillian if being with Jake makes you happy then fine.  That doesn't bother me."

"Then why are you so cold to me?" Gillian fired at Ryan "Why won't you look at me?" She waited for Ryan to answer "Why did I see you cry?" Gillian said quietly so no one would hear.

Ryan looked embarassed and shrugged his shoulders "I don't know".

Gillian looked confused "Ryan I wanted to tear up the divorce papers, remember?" Ryan nodded "But you wouldn't let me.  You wanted this divorce Ryan.  You wanted it, so I gave it to you."

"I know, I thought it was the right thing for the both of us."

Gillian's face softened "And what about now?  Do you still feel the same way?"

"It's over Gillian, I'm sure of that.  It doesn't matter if I wanted the divorce or not, the divorce is finalized.  Our marriage has been terminated.  We failed."

Gillian's eyes filled with tears "Maybe that time, but what's stopping us from trying again?  Did Tad and Dixie give up after the first try?  No, they kept trying until they finally got it right.  And Ryan I know it could be right between us again if we tried.  So why can't we try again?"

But before Ryan could answer Jake and Hayley returned.  "We should go Ryan, I have to get back to the club and help Mateo close up." Hayley said reaching for her keys.

Jake turned towards Gillian "I should give you a lift home.  My shift starts in a few hours and I should probably get some rest."  Gillian nodded.

Ryan and Gillian both turned in opposite directions to head home.  Ryan told Hayley he'd catch up with her in a second and turned to face the hallway Gillian had walked down.  She had just turn the corner when he said  "I have no idea what's stopping us Princess.  NO idea at all." Ryan's face looked lost and confused and he turned and walked away.

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(A little later)

Gillian was sitting on her bed in her bedroom at Wildwind.  She slipped off her shoes and smiled.  "Could it really be possible" she thought to herself "Could there be another chance for us Ryan?"

Gillian slipped off her clothes and got into her PJ's.  Just before she got into bed she knelt beside her bed and looked up at her ceiling.  She took a few deep breaths, folded her hands and began "God, I know I'm not the best person and I sure don't deserve any of your favors, but do you think you could grant me just one?" Gillian paused "You see I'm in love with this guy named Ryan Lavery, but I'm sure you already know that." Gillian stopped to smile "Anyways, he and I could really use some of your help.  Please God, let Ryan and me find a way to be together.  Let us find our way back to one another.  God if your listening please help us.  Amen"


TO BE CONT'D


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