The woman stood gazing into the antique mirror with its burnished gold
braid frame. The reflection that met her eyes, however, was not the same
as the stark reality that the hard, polished glass projected back into
the lonely room. The image her mind had conjured was that of a younger
version of herself, a self who had never existed. This image was
adorned in a lovely evening gown, her elegant neck decorated by
glittering gems. The hand that she lovingly brushed across her cheek in
a slow, reverent motion was held snugly inside a long, snow-white glove
that ended at her elbow. The gloved hand stroked her cheek over and
over, extending down under her chin. With a dreamy smile, she watched
the elegant glove caress her face as only a lover would and remembered
the events of the evening.
He had held this hand, HER hand, tonight. He had touched it and held
it, and she would never forget the feel of his smooth, manicured hand on
hers. She frowned slightly at her image, and the hand's journey halted
for a moment. She wasn't given to exaggeration or telling stories. He
hadn't "held" her hand exactly, but he had touched it, put his own over
hers if only for a moment. And it had been no accident. He had done it
purposely; she wasn't imagining that. Her hand resumed its stroking, her
smile restored.
The hand clothed in the imaginary glove showed signs of age and hard
work, but it was a strong, competent hand that could still do what was
required of it. She kept the nails clipped short, but they were always
clean and unpolished as befit her station. The knuckles were gnarled and
rough, sometimes even raw, in spite of the lotion she religiously rubbed
into them every time she removed them from water. She saw none of this
in her magic mirror, however; she saw only her dreams as her hand
continued its loving worship of her face.
Roger Collins was dining alone this evening. The rest of his family was
engaged in activities hither and yon, and so he was left to enjoy only
his own company. Sarah Johnson watched him surreptitiously from the
doorway as he slowly ate his meal while studying the stock pages. She
studied the line of his aristocratic nose and the furrow in his brow as
he concentrated on the numbers before him. Sarah's heart ached for him
and the loneliness that he hid behind the arrogant façade that he
presented to the world. She had watched him from afar for years, and she
knew that he was really a sensitive man who desperately needed to be
loved. So many times, Sarah had wanted to hold him in her arms and tell
him that she understood, but it was impossible. He was lord of the manor
and she only the housekeeper.
So Sarah Johnson found other ways to silently proclaim her love for
Roger Collins. She was often appalled at the way his family treated him,
and tonight was no exception - leaving him all alone for the evening!
She took the opportunity to prepare his favorite meal, Lobster Newburgh,
and had served it to him with all the flourishes. He had been pleasantly
surprised and had smiled his gentle smile up at her when she had place
the fragrant plate before him. His smile softened and lit up his face,
and it unnerved Sarah to the point the she was afraid she would drop the
dish right into his lap. She managed to regain her composure and quickly
exited the dining room to calm herself in the familiar confines of the
kitchen.
It had happened when she had brought him his dessert - another favorite-
coconut bread pudding. He had looked up when she entered the room and
exclaimed, "Why, Mrs. Johnson, you are positively spoiling me! All of my
favorites in one evening? Whatever is the occasion, my dear woman?"
Sarah had blushed a deep crimson at his words and had stumbled for a
plausible explanation. "Well, uh, Mr. Roger, I just thought that, with
all of the family away, you might need a little cheering up, is all."
"Mrs. Johnson, that is very thoughtful of you." She had set his dessert
on the table in front of him, and he had lightly placed one of his hands
on top of hers as she was drawing away. "Thank you, Mrs. Johnson. You
practically are one of the family, you know," he had intoned in his low
velvet voice, the voice that made Sarah's knees turn to jelly.
Searching for her voice, she had mumbled, "Thank you, Mr. Roger," before
all but flying out of the room. Back in the kitchen, she had stared at
her hand for an endless moment. It tingled still from his touch, and she
brushed it over her cheek ever so slowly. His touch transferred from her
hand to her face. His touch
.
The woman in the mirror stopped to regard her hand with awe once more.
She lightly kissed it and doing so, it seemed she was able to inhale his
very essence. Her eyes returned to the vision of the might-have-been
young woman before her, the woman Roger Collins might have wanted.
Abruptly, the image in the looking glass began to waver and dissolve, and
she found herself face-to-face with Sarah Johnson, the good housekeeper,
once again.
Her hand stopped its journey in mid-air, and its mate came up to meet it
as she buried her head in them. Her thin body was wracked by sobs as the
practical woman that she was forced her to face the truth: Despite his
words, despite his actions, he would never think of her as more than a
servant.
Turning from the mirror, she shook her fist at the unfairness of it. He
had been married to those two good-for-nothings, and she had had to watch
as they both had broken his heart. Oh sure, they were both beautiful,
but she knew that inside both of them had beat hearts as cold as ice.
First that Laura, and then that Cassandra. She had really been a wicked
one. Why was he so taken in by these she-devils, these monsters whose
innocent blue eyes spit fire the minute his back was turned?
Just the thought of Cassandra sent a shiver through Sarah. She had a
suspicion that there had been much more to that one than had met the
naked eye. Sarah was sure that if the surface veneer of Cassandra Blair
Collins had been scratched off that her true face would have been
revealed, and it would have shown a rotted mask of evil. Sarah Johnson
was afraid that the second Mrs. Roger Collins might have even been a bona
fide witch. She had heard things, she had, coming from Mrs. Collins'
room. Unnatural sounds, evil voices, cruel laughter, even what had
sounded like - incantations. Sarah hugged herself tightly at the memory.
She tried to banish these unbidden thoughts, but they flooded her mind
until a hidden truth revealed itself to her: Cassandra Collins had used
witchcraft to get and keep her husband! She had put spells on him,
spells that Sarah had overheard. Spells that Sarah could repeat because
she had a photographic memory. She not only heard words, she SAW them.
Cassandra had put spells on Roger Collins, spells that Sarah now knew
.
She shook her head violently at the temptation. You will not do such a
thing! she admonished herself sternly. You are a good, God-fearing
woman, and these are words from the devil! But she made the mistake of
looking down at her hand, of remembering his thrilling touch, and she
knew then that she was lost.
Sarah had finished her bath and had just put on her prettiest dress when
the knock came at the door. She disdained perfume, but she was redolent
with the scent of lily of the valley that she liked to put in her bath.
She guiltily glanced at herself in the mirror, recalling the wicked words
she had chanted less than an hour before. Words she had heard Cassandra
whisper, words that would bewitch the man she had loved in vain. Now he
was at her door, responding to her beckoning, and she knew he was under
her power. She also knew that the spell would not last beyond morning.
The moment she had begun the incantation, she had become aware of the
limited scope of its effectiveness. But it had been too late, and she
was determined to enjoy her one evening with Roger Collins, even if she
did have to play the unwanted role of Cinderella.
"Sarah, oh, Sarah!" his cultured voice cried out as she opened the door
wide for him. "You look so beautiful tonight!"
The adoration on his face and the enthusiasm in his voice caused her to
beam even though she knew none of his feelings were genuine. It didn't
matter. He was hers tonight, and she was his.
Roger Collins' head felt as if it were full of buzzing bees. He had
felt compelled to come to Mrs. Johnson's room and seemed helpless to stop
himself. Why on earth would I want to see Mrs. Johnson at this time of
night? he wondered, knocking at her door and shaking his head in
confusion. The motion only made the bees buzz louder, and he closed his
eyes against the pain.
When he opened them again, he found himself looking into the eyes of a
gorgeous young woman. She was dressed in a long evening gown of pale
yellow, and she wore white gloves which extended halfway up her delicate
arms. She was the most exquisite creature he had ever seen, and he
seemed to know her. Her name was Sarah, and he wanted her as he had
wanted no other woman before.
She invited him in, and they sat together for a very long time, talking,
laughing, flirting. Roger, enamored of the beautiful young Sarah his
mind saw, flattered her shamelessly. Her face flushed furiously at his
endless compliments, and it did not take much effort to forget that this
was all an illusion. He regaled her with endless stories and funny
little jokes. Before long, she found her hand held tightly between both
of his, and she made no effort to resist this familiarity.
Roger ached to hold Sarah in his arms and to feel her lithe body pressed
close to his. But she was a proper young lady, and he dared not insult
her by taking these liberties. He spied a small record player in the
corner and asked if she would honor him with a dance. Her eyes lit up at
the prospect of being twirled around the room in his strong arms, and she
gladly agreed. Roger pushed the heavy, dark furniture in the middle of
the room against the wall while Sarah put a record on to play. Bowing to
her, he took her in his arms for the first of the endless waltzes they
would enjoy throughout the night. Drinking in her scent, he knew that he
would never again be able to smell lily of the valley without thinking of
his beloved Sarah.
Sarah felt entirely at home in Roger's arms. As waltz followed waltz,
he had gradually pulled her closer to him, and she found her head nestled
comfortably against his shoulder. Whirling her gracefully across the
floor, he drew back to look into her sparkling eyes and to gently kiss
her lips.
"I love you, Sarah," he whispered to her. She blinked at him in
surprise. She had never expected to hear these words from him except in
her dreams.
"Oh, Mist-" she caught herself, "Oh, Roger!" she said and melted deeply
into his embrace. He kissed her slowly, reverently, and she knew that he
wanted her. Sarah returned his kiss but drew her body back from his.
She was still a proper woman, afterall, and she was not going to have
carnal relations with a man who was not her husband.
Roger understood her gesture, and respecting it, resumed their dancing.
He hoped to enjoy many more evenings with young Sarah and to wait for
better things to come. She smiled to herself at his gentlemanly conduct.
Relaxing in his arms once again, she glanced over his shoulder and
sighed deeply to see the beginnings of dawn teasing the horizon. The
ball was about to end in Sarah's fantasy, and she knew she must send her
prince on his way.
Sarah bid Roger a fond goodnight and thanked him for the lovely evening.
He raised her hand to his lips and pressed a sweet kiss against it.
Closing the door silently behind him, Sarah leaned against the ornate
wood and raised her hand to her face, caressing her cheek for a moment
with the kiss he had left there. And then she began to prepare herself
for another day of housekeeping at Collinwood.
Roger Collins sat at the dining room table with his head in his hands.
He had retired early but felt as if he had only slept for a few hours.
"Good morning, Mr. Roger," he heard Mrs. Johnson say in an unusually
cheery voice.
"Thank you, Mrs. Johnson," he managed to grumble as she placed his
breakfast in front of him. He noticed that she had again made one of his
favorites, this time French toast stuffed with bananas and bacon.
Glancing at her hand, he stared for a moment and then shook his head as
if to clear it. He could have sworn she had been wearing long white
gloves but looking again saw only her workwoman's hands.
"Is there something wrong, Rog- uh, Mr. Roger?" she asked, hastily
correcting herself.
"Huh? Oh, no, nothing at all, Mrs. Johnson. I guess I just didn't sleep
very well. But you seem as if you had a pleasant evening last night."
She smiled shyly at him and agreed that she had indeed had a pleasant
evening. She turned to leave, and Roger Collins thought that he smelled
lily of the valley in her wake. He stopped with fork in mid-air with a
frown on his face. Why did this scent evoke such a peculiar feeling
inside him? Unable to re-capture the memory, he shrugged slightly and
returned his attention to his breakfast.
Sarah Johnson's face was lit by a secret smile as she returned to the
kitchen. Her prince had not placed the glass slipper on her foot this
morning, but she smiled because she would always have the memory of their
enchanted evening.
And because she remembered more than one of Cassandra Collins' spells.
THE END?