PROLOGUE

This story continues from the story Looking Through Cameron Eyes they all have to find peace in each other and work on their trust in one another again. This won't be easy for them all went through so much already. Cameron and Gary will get help from a counselor trying to get them back as a family. But this also won't be easy because of what they have been through with their dad. Since Gary shot Cameron he has been losing faith in himself and he was pulling away from Josi so their love is like a roller coaster not knowing if they are going to make it or not. So with a depressed Josi this leaves pressure more on her so she leans on Cameron for strength. The way Cameron is his loving ways he helps Josi but this leads to a jealous Amanda who won't let anybody get in the way of Cameron and her love. Now we begin with the story Where Gary and Cameron or with the counselor.

CHAPTER 1

The counselor tells Cameron and Gary to explain their childhood and what they went through in their lives. So they do this and tell the counselor everything. The counselor is going to start their therapy with something that they both have to work with. He tells them "what they both like to do." They both mention "camping." So the counselor tells them "That they should go camping and work together on this trip and to share their feelings and try to trust one another." After this trip he tells them he wants to see them again. They both agree that this was a good idea so they go home and tell Amanda and Josi what they have to do. Josi wanting to be with her husband says "she will be going on this trip." Gary says " that's fine."

Amanda never being on this kind of rough trip because of her luxury life. She still wants to go because she doesn't want to give Josi the chance to be alone with her man. So Amanda says, "I want to go with you guys too." Cameron laughs so does Gary. Cameron says "You can't go on a camping trip in expensive clothing and high heals your princess you belong home at your family mansion." Amanda blew up at Cameron and at Gary who was laughing hard now and she says "I am not going to take no as an answer I am going on this trip if you like it or not I could do this" Cameron looks her up and down "You might break a nail. Amanda was furious with him "I will show you I could do this. Cameron still looks at her up and down and tells her "she is not going camping in those cloths." "Fine she says, "Lets go shopping so I could go with you. So that what Cameron and Amanda do. They get camping clothes and hiking boots and a backpack.

The next morning they have to get up at five to go on their trip. Amanda wasn't happy that she had to get up early actually she was cranky. But Cameron was prepared for her he got her coffee and a donut. They went up to the rookies and they had to hike up where there camping place was. Amanda was sore time they got there. Her back pack was so heavy her muscles in her back were really sore and tense and her legs felt like jelly. They were hiking all day to get to their camp site. She was finally glad that she can take her Back Pack off and sit down and rest. When she was about to sit down Cameron tells her. "You can't rest yet we have to put the tents up before it gets dark." Amanda was wondering now if Cameron was right where she belongs was not here but her family mansion. But she was not going to give him the satisfaction he was right and she helped them with the tents. After that they make supper over a fire and have supper and they do dishes. Amanda was so sore her back was killing her she had to rest so she didn't join everybody at the camp fire she went to bed instead she hate lying on the hard ground. She was homesick already but she wouldn't let Cameron think that she was a wimp. She wouldn't give him the satisfaction she has to prove to him that she could be tough if she wanted to be.

Meanwhile, at the campfire Gary was going to hit the sack also he was quite tired so he left Josi and Cameron on their own. Josi was upset and Cameron can tell so he asks her "what wrong." "Everything" she tells him and she starts crying. Cameron takes her in his arms and says "Come on it can't be that bad" She disagrees with him "Your wrong there, Cameron, my life is just following a part I think Gary is going to leave me." Cameron tries to settle her down and tells her "Everything is going to be all right. Gary is just having a hard time accepting everything he's been through and what he has done in the past you got to let him heal." Josi looks at him and cries harder "I don't know if I could take it anymore Cameron I don't like distance between us sometimes. I just want to give up and move on." Before he could answer Josi, they hear a scream it was Amanda. Cameron takes one look at Josi and says "All my God it is Amanda." By the time he gets to the tent it was all pulled down from Amanda fighting with something. Cameron moves quickly he thought some kind of wild animal got in the tent. He had a hard time trying to open up the tent and Amanda screams where getting high pitch and more panic now. Cameron moves faster and he finally finds the zipper of the tents and unzips it and throws the flash light on Amanda and sees it was nothing just a spider on her and he hits the spider ofF her and takes her in his arms and tells her " it was all right now the spider is gone." Josi runs to the tent "is she all right?" Cameron looks at Josi and says "It was just a spider" Josi freaks out and yells at Amanda "What are you trying to do scare us all? We thought something was after you." She was furious with her. Cameron turns around and tells "Josi that enough she is not used to this don't give her hard time." "Ya" says Josi "All she is a spoiled brat." Cameron was angry now and tells Josi "That enough now I don't want you to talk to her that way." So Josi leaves and she goes to her's and Gary tent very annoyed she couldn't believe the way Amanda was acting just over a spider. Cameron holds Amanda till she is okay. Then he fixes the tent and crawls in next to her and takes her in his arms and says to her "You gave us such a scare this is no place for a princess." Amanda tells him "She is feeling better now that she was in his arms now." Cameron looks at her and says "Really well that makes two of us I feel better to." And he kisses her everywhere and makes love to her beautifully. And after the love making, they lie in each other arms and they fall asleep.

CHAPTER 2

The following morning Amanda wakes up with a stiff and very sore back lying on the ground all night. Cameron has his arms wrapped around her. Amanda slowly and quietly gets out of his grip and climbs out of the sleeping bag. She doesn't want to wake Cameron because he was sleeping so soundly. Once she gets out of the tent it felt good to stretch and flex her muscles in her back she was so sore. But stretching sure helped taking away the pain she was having in her back. She wished she had her nice soft bed with her. But she sure likes the view of where they were staying.

It was in the fall so the leaves where changing color beautifully. While Amanda was looking around, she heard another tent opening, it was Josi. Josi wasn't very pleased with Amanda's outburst last night. So she went up to her and told her off. She said to her "If she was in real danger that one day no one would hear her cry." She also told her "To grow up next time." Amanda snapped back up at her "leave me alone you are use to camping, this is my first time. I am trying to get the hand of things." Josi screams at her more "Why don't you go home, princess you don't belong here, go home Amanda." Amanda couldn't take it anymore and she pushes Josi into some poison ivy not knowing what it is. Josi gets up and starts getting this rash all over her skin and she was itchy all over. Josi could help it but she was scratching all over and yells at Amanda "Look what you have done now you pushed me in poison ivy." Amanda tried to put on a serious face but she couldn't help laughing she felt that she deserves it for her to yell at her like that and says "Sorry" to her. Cameron and Gary hear the girls screaming at one another and they come out of their tents to stop them. Gary was upset with Josi and told her "To grow up all she wanted was Cameron for herself and that she was making his life miserable." And he walks off. Cameron watches his brother leave and Amanda says, "Go after him I will take care of Josi." Cameron looks at Amanda then to Josi. Are you sure I can leave you two alone without you guys tearing each others heads off." Amanda looks at Cameron and said "It's under control now." Cameron kisses her then goes after Gary.

Amanda looks for the Calamine Lotion and finds it and is about to help Josi. Josi grabs the bottle and tells her that "She will do it herself and that she is not a baby and told her if she touches her she could get it." Amanda looks at Josi and told her "Okay but she also told her the way she was acting she was like a baby" Josi wasn't happy with Amanda's choice of words and tone. Josi yelled at her some more but Amanda didn't want to listen to her so she walks away, goes in her tent and reads awhile till the guys come back. Josi sat where she was and felt sorry for herself and whined when the guys came back to get attention. But she didn't get much because the guys where busy making breakfast. They ate and told Josi to rest while the guys and Amanda went fishing.

Once they got to the fishing hole Cameron was showing Amanda how to put a worm on her hook. Amanda was grossed out and said "No way I am holding a worm and their yuckie guts coming out ooooh yuk no way." Cameron said with a big grin on his face, "You wanted to camp, this is what you have to do to catch a meal now come on." Amanda knowing if she didn't do this, Cameron would win and she didn't want to give him that kind of satisfaction. She wanted to show him how tough she was and even though she was rich and had a mansion, she could camp like any other person could. She finally did get the worm on but she was squirming a lot because she didn't like doing it much. Cameron got a big kick out of it and he had to laugh and he said to himself "She was so cute under this condition. She was trying to do a pretty good job improving herself. Cameron was trying to teach Amanda how to cast and a few times Amanda almost cast Gary in the lake because she hooked him a few times on his coat while she was casting. The guys got a big laugh out of that and Amanda laughed too, it was kind of funny.

Amanda was fishing a long time without getting any bites. She complained this was a boring sport. She wasn't paying attention to her rod and a fish went on it and pulled her in the lake. The guys were howling with laughter and help her out. But Amanda didn't think it was funny at all and she ignores them. They all went back to the camp. Gary caught a couple of fish. So Cameron started cleaning them. Amanda took one look at him cleaning the fish and she made a funny face . Cameron look up at her and said "What! Do you want to help" he asks her sarcastically. Amanda wrinkles up her nose and said "No way I am not going to touch those smelly things." The guys and Josi started to laugh. Once lunch was served, Amanda was staring at her disgusting fish and Cameron tells her "You better eat up and put some meat on those lovely bones now.' "Yuk she says "I hate fish." Josi looks up to her and says " if you don't eat you will starve. Amanda says under her breath "I hate her." And starts eating her food like a good girl.

After their meal Gary and Cameron did the dishes and did some more brother bonding. Then all of them went on a long hike. After climbing a long hill Amanda was out of breath and Cameron, her knight in shining armor comes to the rescue and gives her some water out of his water jug. Amanda complains "that it is way too hot for this" Amanda says playfully, "I will take you to nice cool spot tonight" and he kisses her. Amanda looks at him and thinks she lost her mind going on this camping trip, she was pooped. When they got to the campsite, it was time for supper. So this time the girls do the work. Josi was still pretty bad with her poison ivy so Amanda does most of the work. The men did the dishes and Cameron put Amanda in a nice hammock. Cameron laughs when Amanda tried to go in it because she kept on falling out of it. After many lessons Amanda learnt how to get in the hammock. She finally like something at camp relaxing in a hammock, it was like paradise for her. Once the guys were finished dishes they all had a campfire. Gary and Cameron got out Marshmellows for the ladies to roast and eat. Cameron gets a bag and a sleeping bag and tells Gary and Josi that he and Amanda are off for the night. Cameron makes Amanda work again towards wherever they were going. Amanda thinks they will be climbing for ever. Then, Cameron says "they are there." Amanda looks where they were. Where they could see everything. The stars in the sky were sparkling. She takes one look at Cameron and tells him this is like heaven. He turns her around toward him and says "You like it" "I love it" she tells him. He takes her in his arms and kisses her so hungrily and says, "You're like heaven" and she reaches up to him and guides his lips to her and kisses him hungrily. Cameron stops and shares with her "This is the way I like it in the open no walls just a blanket full of stars and being with you." "Oh Cameron you're so beautiful so please take me." They both fall on their knees on the sleeping bag and they rip each other cloths off they make love in the middle of nowhere.

Hearing the night sounds of the night of the wild animals, Amanda holds on to Cameron tightly. Cameron makes her look in his eyes and tells her "Don't worry you are safe with me. Amanda sighs happily and begins her adventure with Cameron making love so beautifully when they meet both of their satisfactions they both fall down in there sleeping bags catching their breaths. Cameron then takes her in his arms and tells her that "he loves her" Amanda snuggles into Cameron's chest and tells him that "She loves him too" and they both fall into a nice sleep.

In the middle of the night Cameron wakes up and hears something in the woods. Cameron then gets out of the sleeping bag carefully and puts on his jeans and goes where the noise is. He has a big stick in his hand not knowing what the sound is. Josi jumps a mile and says "Don't Cameron it's just me." Cameron wasn't that pleased that Josi followed him and says "What the hell are you doing here? I was trying to have a private night with Amanda." Josi starts crying, "It is getting worse with Gary" she says, "he won't even talk to me" Cameron then takes her in his arms and says "Sorry I snapped at you I was just enjoying a wonderful evening with Amanda." "That's okay I understand" Josi actually like the way Cameron was holding her, she wanted to make Cameron hers instead of Gary he was more appealing to her than Gary was. So she snuggles into Cameron more and at this time and Cameron starts rubbing her back telling her that everything is going to be all right. At this time Amanda was behind them and she yells at "Josi and Cameron what are you to doing?" She doesn't wait for an answer and starts running in the middle of the woods very upset. Cameron says "wait Amanda it is dark and you can't see what out there." But it was too late and Cameron hears a scream and Amanda trips over something and flies down the hill and hits her head hard on a rock. She is knocked out, lying there lifeless. Cameron was looking for her but he couldn't find her. He didn't have a flashlight and it was way too dark. He had to pray that she was all right till morning. Josi stayed with Cameron the whole night.

CHAPTER 3

Cameron thought that night was going to take forever to end. Josi tried everything to help him through the night. But Cameron was really mad at her and was screaming at her, "Why couldn't you have waited till morning time till I came back. Couldn't it wait till them?" Josi is really crying now and goes near a cliff and is about to commit suicide and says, "I can't do anything right Cameron I ruin everything so I am going to end my life and jump." Cameron sees that she really means it and says "No" and he grabs her in the nick of time and says to her, "Are you crazy this won't help anything by killing yourself." Josi remains quiet she could feel Cameron body up to her and loves the shape of muscles on his arms. How she would like to make him hers. But Josi doesn't do any kind of moves on him yet because she knows Cameron is really upset about Amanda and he won't go close to her till Amanda is found and brought safely to there camp ground. But when things are better she will seduce Cameron to make him hers. Finally the sun was coming out and they were able to see they took a while to find Amanda but when they do there was a big black bear down where she is. Cameron was very scared that the bear will eat her alive. He has a stick and goes near Amanda he hits the stick across a rock to scare the bear but the bear didn't move away. He wasn't scared of Cameron, the bear came closer. Josi rans down to where Cameron and Amanda is and tells Cameron she has an idea. And throws food at the bear. The bear likes it and eats it and them he goes away. Cameron say "that was close one and he looks to see how Amanda is. Amanda wakes up but she doesn't remember anything or who Cameron and Josi are. Cameron tells Josi "That Amanda has some kind of concussion." Josi looks at Cameron and says "What are we going to do now." Cameron answers back "We could make some kind of bed for her and bring her back to camp. Find a camping ranger and we should end or trip and take her home because she needs a doctor.

So that what they do they met Gary back at the camp also. Gary ran down the ranger office they got an ambulance up there. The emergency people have to hike up there to the camp with a stretcher. They finally got Amanda and took her in an ambulance and sent her to the hospital. The guys and Josi cleaned up the camp site and payed their camp bills and went home to. Amanda was okay but she did have concussion and the doctor say that she hit her head pretty badly so they didn't know when she will come out of it.

Gary had to go on a business trip so he won't be home for a bit and Amanda went with the family to the cabin a bit to see if Amanda can get her memory back. So this is when Josi can start making her moves on Cameron to make her his. She was looking forward to this for a very long time for now. She couldn't wait till she can get started. She had a plan. She knew that Cameron would be pretty lonely without Amanda around so she was going to invite Cameron for dinner. So that what she does. Cameron does accept the invitation and tells her that she will be there in a few hours. Josi starts on making a big meal for Cameron. She makes a lovely salad and some chicken with veggies and potato and some nice home made apple pie for dessert she puts on this beautiful blue dress. Some nice smelly perfume. And she hers a knock on the door when she opens it. Cameron sees Josi looking so beautiful. Cameron thought that he shouldn't be here it should be Gary. Josi speaks up to him. "Are you going to come in or are you going to let the cold air in.?" So Cameron comes in and says to her while she shuts the door. "Why are you so dress up?" She answers with a smile "To be different. "OH" he says "Well you look nice. "Well, thank you. Cameron you may sit down supper is ready." So he does, Cameron while he eating Josi keeps filling his glass with wine. He keeps telling her "No more wine please." But she doesn't listen. Cameron is really feeling the wine now and he also feels a cramp in his back. Josi runs to his side and massages his back trying to seduce him. With the amount of wine he drinks her hand's feel so good on her back and making him so much in the mood. She places some music on the cd players shoves some more wine in his hands and dances with him. Cameron is feeling more light headed by the minute the room is spinning. Josi is pleased with her work so far. She leads him in her bedroom and kisses him, Cameron doesn't know what he doing because of the wine running to his head. He grabs Josi and kisses her back. Josi pushes him down and starts taking of his cloths. Cameron closes his eyes he sees Amanda in his mind. Them he opens his eyes. Even tho' everything is blurry he sees Josi. Cameron then grabs Josi and he tells her to stop this is all wrong. But Josi fights him and tries to kiss him more but it doesn't work anymore Cameron was coming back to his senses and hit Josi a cross the face and tells her "stop now" He pushes her away. "Why did you do that for" she says. "To make you come back to your senses what in the hell did you think you where doing" Cameron says angrily. Josi looks at him "I wanted to make love to you." She says "Now come here" she tries to kiss him. Cameron took her and shook her holding her arms tightly and says, "Look Josi I am going to only say this once and you better listen." Josi cries you are hurting me please loosen your grip." He says "No I want you listen first" Josi looks up to him and tell him "I am listening." He tells her "that he would never make love to her that he only had eyes for Amanda. And that Amanda was the only person he loves and nothing would change that can you get that through your pretty heads of yours.' He asks her. "Cameron" she says, I want you I want to break things up with Gary and be with you." Cameron pushes her to her bed and gets dress and says to her, "You need help Josi and it can't be from me I am sorry but I don't love you there is only Amanda in my life." And he leaves her there crying and he gets out of there soon as possible. His head was still spinning from the wine. He was glad that he got out of there in time before he did anything crazy. There was only one woman that he loves and that was Amanda and nothing will replace her or take her away he would see to that. He was missing her so badly he should go visit her at the Cory cabin. But first he had to help Josi she really needed help. He will tell Gary the truth he had to. Maybe if he mentions a marriage counselor they both might go and seek help and that might save their marriage. He wouldn't want them to have a divorce, he cares for them that much. He feels that Josi went though too much when Gary had to go to jail. So he went home with those thoughts.

CHAPTER 4

Cameron was sleeping in his apartment when the phone rang. He tried to answer it but his head was still very dizzy and he had a headache. "Hello" He said pretty tired. "Cameron this is Josi" She said. Cameron check his watch it was only five in the morning. "Why are you calling so early" he says. "It is important I have to see you." "No" Says Cameron "I can't get involved any more Josi I told you I love Amanda and not you." Josi seemed tensed and upset on the phone and she tells him. "If you don't come over, I am gonna commit suicide." Cameron could tell she wasn't fooling. He was very confused as to what to do but he didn't want Josi to kill herself or do anything crazy. "Josi, don't try anything stupid I will be there soon." Josi voice wasn't sure and tells Cameron "I think it will be better if I end it here." "No!" says Cameron "I will be there in minute." Josi just hangs up. Cameron knows that he doesn't have long to get to her or no time at all. He doesn't want to go through another night like last night so he calls the cops to be there when he does. When they are all at the door Cameron knocks and yells. "Josi open the door it is Cameron please open the door now." Josi does what he says and sees the police with him. "You called the police" She says angrily. The police came charging in to get the gun out of her hand. "If you come near me I will shoot myself I mean it." She had the gun up to her head. The policemen stay back. Cameron tries to use his loving and soothing voice "Josi you don't want to do that to yourself you have too many people who care for you I care for you to." Josi says "You do" and she drops the gun and goes to his arms. Cameron motion the police to take her away and they do. Josi yells out "Where are you taking me?" "You need help Mrs. Sinclair where bring you to the hospital." The policeman said. "No I just want to die, please this life is so painful." The policeman takes her Cameron looks for a number where Gary could be reach.

He finally finds a number after looking for an hour for it. He calls "Hello" Gary says. "Gary, this is Cameron, your brother." Gary seemed worried he didn't like the tone of Cameron voice. "What wrong" Gary asks. Cameron tells him that Josi was in the hospital he better come quick he will explain when he comes. Gary told him "He be there as soon as possible." Cameron goes to the hospital and waits for hours for Gary. Gary comes to see Cameron and runs up to him and asks "What is going on" Cameron explains everything Josi was doing to him and how down she was today and how she was going to shoot herself this morning and he even tell him how she tries to seduce him last night. "You are not mad at me are you Bro' I was only there to help her not to do anything she had planned" Gary has his head in his hands and look up to Cameron "I did this. It not your fault Bro' thank goodness nothing happened, though I don't know if I could take my brother and my wife sleeping together that would be too much for me to handle. Cameron hugs his brother "You know I wouldn't do anything to you bro'. But it was close, she made me so drunk I couldn't control myself but something snap a picture of Amanda in my mind. It made me come to my senses." "Thank goodness" Gary said "I don't blame you, Cameron or Josi it just that I been pushing her away ever since I shot you. I didn't think she would do this though Oh my God Cameron what did I do." Gary was crying so hard now and he also said "I think I ruin my marriage." Cameron tells him in a loving brotherly way, "You could still get help Gary maybe you two need counseling and you need to be close to her no more pushing her away. She still loves you but she also scared like you she needs you there." "Your right bro I do need to be there more starting today I am not going to look back but look forward to our future."

A doctor came and told them that she had a nervous break down and she was very depressed they put her on new pills to help she was asking to speak to Cameron. Gary and Cameron said that one of them will see her soon. So the doctor walks off. Gary looks at his brother and said, "I will go bro this is my responsibility." Cameron says, "It is, but be easy on her she's been through a lot." Gary says "I will and you go home you need some sleep you look like hell." Cameron laughs, "I feel like hell to." He gives his brother a hug and goes home to get some rest. Before Gary goes sees his wife, he gets roses for her at the flower shop. He has to wait till a doctor opens her room because they lock her in there because she was suicide. Josi heard the door open she saw Gary come in. "OOOh it's you." Josi said. Gary went up to her and said "That the way it should be me and not my brother." And he kisses her lips. "You know" she said. "I know everything, Josi and even you are trying to seduce my brother. Gary says. "I am sorry " she says. "No I am sorry. I started this I was too worried of what I was feeling I forgot about you by the way this for you. He hands her the flowers. Josi cries and says "They're beautiful but I don't deserve this." Gary says, "We both did terrible things the last little while lets just forget about the past and concentrate on the future. "Yes" she says. "I also want to see a marriage counselor when you're better. Because I feel we have things to deal with that we need professional help. "I agree" Josi says. "Now you get rest we will talk later." He kisses her and leaves the room to CONTINUE By Donna