CHAPTER 1

Amanda was now four months pregnant. She was sitting on the couch with Cameron actually lying in her lap watching a movie. They where still not allowed to make love because of their situation so they try to be close in many other ways possible. Cameron really misses her making love to him she was so beautiful at it and satisfied him in so many ways. He loves satisfying her though. All of a sudden Amanda jump and said "Oh my gosh." "What is wrong?" Cameron sounded alarm." "The babies I think I felt a slight movement, my tummy kind of felt funny." She takes Cameron's hand to see if he could feel the movement but there was nothing he could feel but she felt it again. Maybe it was too early for him to feel it. She shared to Cameron what it felt like and Cameron was just happy that he was there with Amanda for the first movements of their babies.

After the movie Cameron and Amanda took a nice walk on the favorite hill top. It was night time now and they where both looking out at the stars. Cameron said to her "There is a star up there for each of the babies. Amanda smiled and told him "I can't wait till the babies are with us I wish I knew them now. I bet they will be as cute as you Cameron." "No Amanda you got that wrong they will look like you because I don't think we need another Sinclair around, Cameron said. Amanda just smiles at him "I wouldn't mind if we had another Sinclair around. After their walk Cameron and Amanda went over to Cameron brother's house. Gary opened the door he seemed worried about something. Cameron asks him "What up Gary." "Josi's been sick with the flu all week." "That is awful." Amanda said. "Is there anything we could do?" Cameron asked. "Yes there is, Bro can you go to the store and pick up some ginger ale and chicken soup for her because I haven't been able to get any." So they both agree that they would and they left.

Meanwhile in the bathroom Josi was taking a pregnancy test, her period was late for the last four weeks. Gary was knocking on the bathroom door asking her "Everything was all right?" That was when she finally found out the results of the test that she was pregnant. She opens up the door of the bathroom and goes into Gary arms and says to him. "Yes I am Daddy." Gary's a bit confused and says "What do you mean Daddy." She smiles up to him and says "Gary I am pregnant we are going to have a baby." Gary picks her up and says "I am going to be a father." "Yes you are" Josi says. And swings Josi around with the happiest smile on his face that he hasn't had there was edges. "That is wonderful dear I thought we couldn't have babies." "Josi smiled to "I guess the doctors where wrong.'Josi smiled and said.

Meanwhile Cameron and Amanda came back with confusing faces to see Josi up and well. "You're feeling better they both said. Gary smiles down at Josi "Can I tell them?'" "Yes" Josi said. "Cameron and Amanda we are going to be parents, Josi is pregnant." Cameron and Amanda where so happy that they said "Congratulations." They both give them a hug. Gary and Cameron went to celebrate in the living room with some pop since Gary couldn't drink. Josi got all pale again and held her stomach "This Morning sickness is for the birds." "I know I am glad I am past that now. Come on you lie down and I will bring you some crackers and ginger ale it will help, said Amanda. So that's what Josi did, she took Amanda advice and she was feeling much better after that. "She thanked Amanda for the help. Amanda said "Your welcome and you should make an appointment to see your doctor about this." "I will do that " Josi said.

In the living room Cameron and Gary where talking about Josi being pregnant. Gary says to Cameron "I can't believe I am going to be a dad when doctors told me I never could be a father. Cameron looks at him and said "The doctors never said never they said there was a 5% chance that you could." Gary told him "It's still a miracle Cameron, we been trying to have this baby for a very long time now." "Yes it is a miracle Gary and there was another miracle that happened today." Cameron said smiling. "What was that bro" Gary said. "Amanda felt the babies move for the first time. I haven't felt it yet. I guess the little guys are too small for me to feel it." "That is great Man we are all getting what we deserve now, no more hard life right bro" Gary said." Well I wouldn't say that, we will still go through hard times but it will be well worth it" Cameron said. And that left the guys laughing and full of cheer. That night there homes where filled with lots of love and happy times.

CHAPTER 2

After a couple months Amanda was now six months pregnant and by now Cameron was able to feel the baby kick. Cameron was at a loss for words when he could feel this little child inside Amanda's stomach. At times Cameron would put his head up to Amanda's stomach and listen and talk to his little baby that was developing. Amanda would watch and laugh and told him he will be the most wonderful father in the world. Cameron looked at her "And you will be most wonderful mom" he said. Cameron says. "the rate we are going we are not getting any work done. They were working on their invitations and the reception stuff for their wedding in a couple of months after the babies were born. Cameron said "Your right" so they start working on their invitations and the reception. They book the hall that day and finished all the invitations and called the flower shop to make an appointment to choose the flowers.

When they were all done Cameron carried his wife to the bedroom and lies her on the bed and starts kissing her everywhere. They still couldn't make love so they satisfied each other in many other ways. (I will leave this part for your imagination.") When they where done they lied and chatted in each other arms."

Meanwhile at Gary and Josi's house, Josi was almost over the morning sickness problem. She was having little movements of the baby in her stomach. Gary was so pleased he was going to be a father. He gave his wife a hug and he told her nothing this time will happen to their child. Gary was going to meet his brother Cameron later so they can talk about being a father and that. Gary always made sure that Josi was off her feet. He brought her some lunch that he made. He made sure that she had a lot of milk, some veggies to crunch down on and some fruits. Josi had to joke with him and told him that he was like a doctor, making sure she didn't do anything wrong. He told her, "I just love you and I want to make sure everything goes right. "I love you too Gary I am sorry what I did to you with Cameron and that." "Now Josi that is in the past look what we have now. I have forgiven you already for that. "I know but sometimes I feel guilty still, I am glad we took marriage counseling." Josi Said. "Yeah I have to thank my brother for that he was there no matter what I wonder why I was so hard on him when he was younger." Gary said. "Josi answers back "You have been through so much with your father and that and brothers always fight all the time." "This is true Josi now everything is going to change we are going to be a big family now and a better one too. Josi finished her lunch and Gary picks Josi up and brings her in the bedroom and they make love so beautifully before his brother comes.

Meanwhile Cameron knocks on the door, there is no answer and the door is open so he goes in. He yells out "Gary are you there!" A surprised Gary and Josi still making love jump from there beds and got something on and came out. Sorry Cameron. "Don't say it." I disturbed something you where doing. Both faces blushed "They said yes you did." Cameron says "Sorry." Josi laughs "That's okay Cameron you just got me back for all the times I disturbed you and Amanda. They all laugh and Cameron says, " How many more times do I have left to disturb you." Josi laughs "I am just kidding Josi I am sorry I disturbed you to really I did come a little bit early." Gary and Josi said it was all right. Cameron and Gary got ready to go. Gary kiss Josi and off they went.

CHAPTER 3

Gary and Cameron went for a long drive around the mountains. They look beautiful around this time of year with snow on it. Cameron looks at his brother and says "What a sight it so beautiful." Gary says,"Yeah it is it like what our lives will be like for now on." "Ya I know what you mean we haven't had the perfect life since Dad and that." Cameron says. "Ya I wouldn't want to be like our dad was like to be as a father." Gary replied. "Ya I know what you mean Seeing our mother beaten up." Cameron said. "I didn't like it when he used to put you in closed places." "I don't like thinking about those times there where terrifying for me." Cameron replies. "I know bro I am sorry but we or going to make difference we will be good dads." "Will we Gary you know what they say if you are growing up with violence you will show that to your love one to." Gary pulls to the side of the road and turns to his brother "No Cameron you are wrong there we are different that why we are working hard on being better persons with counseling and working together as family we will be different." "Sometimes Gary I feel I still get better angry especially at the time I hit Josi a cross the face when she was trying to seduce me." Gary was silence for a moment and said. "First of all Cameron Josi had you so drunk and you where trying to stop her for ruining our lives." Cameron replied, "Still I shouldn't of hit her, she is woman what happens if I get so angry at our children I do the same thing if they should do something wrong." There was silence between the two again and Gary says "Maybe your right you shouldn't of hit Josi when you are angry but I think you are being to hard on yourself you where in a tough situation at the time." "I still feel frighten." Cameron says. "I know you do it is like my drinking problem I am always scared that if things go wrong I will go to the bottle. That why Cameron we got to promise one of another that we will be there for one another during our weak times." Gary says. "You know you always can count on me bro." Cameron says. "Good that what families are there for." "Your Right Gary I will try not to worry to much but it will be hard." Cameron says. "No it won't be easy but it will be worth it because we will become a better family and our dad won't win we will show him." Gary told him..

Cameron changes the subject "by the way talking about families our babies mine and Amanda is kicking up a storm. "That good Josi just started feeling our little one." Gary starts the car again and starts driving off. Them Cameron says, "The pregnancy is going so fast." "Not with us I hate the morning sickness. Where is Amanda now." Gary asks. She went to the doctor she had a physical check up that mem hate to go to she should be home now." "Oh I hope things go well there Josi is just going to relax at home." they finally got to Cameron apartment Gary drops him off.

Cameron is walking into his apartment he is very surprise there was candles every where and Amanda was in this nice sexy outfit with this beautiful smile on her face. Cameron looks her up and down and whistles and says, "How do I deserve all this and this beauty standing beside me." Amanda walks up to him in cute way and says. "Physical test went good and the doctor says it is all right to make love to you again." Cameron has the biggest smile on his face and say "Come here." he brings her into his arms and also says " I will make this night last I an not going to rush things even knowing how bad I want you. I will show you my love over and over again so you will know how much I love you." "Show me them" Amanda says sweetly and goes into his arms. they start out having the adventure that they both waiting for so long.

CHAPTER 4

After beautiful love making, Cameron and Amanda were lying in each other's arms. Cameron tells Amanda "That she looked so beautiful tonight. Amanda tell him "That you don't look bad yourself and they share a passionate kiss.

Meanwhile at Josi and Gary's house something terrible is happening. Josi wakes up and she sees blood all over the bed. She is terrified, she feels she is having miscarriage and she wakes up Gary. Gary takes one look and sees the problem , Oh My god he says you're bleeding, are you miscarrying?" "Yes" she says. "Oh my god" Gary says again and call 911 and Cameron and Amanda. Cameron answears the phone "You better come quick he tells his brother, my wife might be miscarrying. Cameron felt awful inside for his brother and sister-in-law. As soon as he gets off the phone he tells the horrible news to Amanda. Amanda drives Cameron to the hospital right away. Cameron looks for Gary and finds him, he is a wreck. Cameron tries to settle him down but all Gary could do is pace up and down the floors of the hospital it was like his world was coming to an end.

Meanwhile in the room, the doctors are working on Josi trying to save the baby but there was nothing they could do so they gave the news to Josi. Josi feels her life is caving in. It was too much to handle, she breaks down and starts crying, my baby no my baby what did I do to deserve this to happen. Doc it must be a mistake. The doctors try to tell her there was no mistake the baby is gone. That left Josi crying bitterly in her room the nurses and doctors try to help her but there is nothing they could do.

CHAPTER 5

Cameron couldn't stand to see Gary the way he is pacing up and down the hall. He went up to him and made him sit down and try to make him relax. Finally hours later the doctor came out "Gary Sinclair" the doctor ask. Gary rushes over to the doctor and askes "That me are my wife and Baby okay?" But he knew the look on the doctor face that things weren't good." The doctor said, "Sorry Gary we did everything we can but your wife lost the baby but your wife is okay. Gary fell to the floor and started crying "No this isn't happening everything is supposed to be okay." Then he gets up and runs out of the hospital. Amanda looks at Cameron, you run after him I will go see Josi." So Cameron looks all over for him he seem to not be able to find him in his regular places.

Suddenly he sees Gary's car parked in a bar where no one will be ever want to be seen. Cameron says to himself "Oh my God he is probably drinking. Cameron runs in the bar he sees Gary with a drink in his hand. "No Gary you don't want to drink that." Gary said "your to late bro I already had a little too many." Cameron realizes he is right he could smell the liquor on him "Oh my God." said Cameron "You have been drinking come on you are going home with me." Cameron demanded. Gary got angry "Leave me alone Cameron I am not going anywhere. My life is such a mess now I don't care what happens without the baby there is nothing. Cameron was angry now "What about you have Josi what do you think she is going though you both lost the baby but you have each other. And you also have me bro and Amanda remember what ever happens we can rely on family." Cameron says. Gary says "It's different now bro this is the last time we can have a kid it's over I want to be a father man. He says and it about to take another gulp of his drink. But Cameron takes it out of his hand and says I am not going to see you do this.

He pays for his drinks and tries to pull him out of the bar. Gary tries to fight back he has too much alcohol in him so he can't fight good but Cameron thought he was pretty strong with all the alcohol in him he hardly could get him out of there but he finally gets him to Gary car. He pulls out his keys. Gary tells him he is going to drive." "Not in your condition your not we are going to my house and I am going to give you a lot a coffee and good night rest. "Cameron just let me be I want to die now my life is over." Gary says. "Your life isn't over I know that you lost the baby I know you hurting man but you have to make it through this because Josi needs you and I am not going to see you die man your my brother and I love you. Gary just start crying hard now "I can't believe this is happening to us I shouldn't of let Josi be a cop man because we wouldn't be going though this. Cameron says, "what happen to Josi a long time a go for being shot it can happen to anybody man cop or no cop. That what she like to do Gary you can't take something a way from someone what they love to do. Look all the people she help Gary". Cameron said. "Your right man but I cant Take this pain" Gary says crying "Lean on me bro that what I am here for." Finally Cameron took Gary home. He called someone to help out with Gary drinking problem, his sponsor came and help him settle down and talk to him. Cameron was real tired after his all happened finally Amanda called him and told Cameron "That Josi was a mess she needed Gary" Cameron told him that Gary was drinking he wasn't going anywhere with the condition he was in." He also told Amanda he will call Joe and that he will come over to talk to Josi while Joe watch him. He did just that Joe came over and he went to the hospital where Josi was. Josi took one look at Cameron "Where is Gary?" Cameron was silent not knowing what to say to her with the time she had by losing the baby. Josi looked hard in his eyes and she them knew where Gary was "Oh my god he was drinking wasn't he Cameron? Cameron said "Yes he was but he got him home and he is safe now with Joe and his sponsor was there.

This left Josi in a bunch of tears. This left Cameron hopeless and not knowing what to do. He takes Josi in his arms and says "Quiet now Josi you need rest everything will be okay you will see. "The baby though is gone and Gary started drinking again. I can't take this pressure." Cameron tells her it hurt now but tit will heal and things will get to better." After many hours Josi falls asleep. Them Cameron and Amanda go home for rest. While they are lying there she feels there baby kick. She them tells Cameron "Poor Josi and Gary I know how they feel if anything happen this two babies in my stomach I don't know what I will do. Cameron says "He knows." No other words can express the hurt they where feeling for Josi and Gary. So they make love to try to comfort one another it still doesn't help so they both cry themselves to sleep while holding each other.

CHAPTER 6

Joe slept on the couch at Cameron since it was a long night. So he took Gary over to see his wife who wasn't doing well still. Gary wasn't well either he had a bad hang over. Josi and Gary both cried in the room for hours over their loss. The nurse told Josi she could go home. Josi was crying and said "Go home to what." The nurse them gave her counseling names and numbers to help them with there loss. Joe called Cameron and Amanda and asked if they could put away everything that was out for the baby for Josi and Gary so they didn't have to do it. So that what they did they put baby clothes and the crib away. Cameron said to Amanda "Gary must of been excited to have this baby he got everything out so early." Amanda said "Yes it is a terrible loss for them both and it is their second baby they lost too.

After many hours Josi and Gary came home and Amanda and Cameron had supper ready for them. They both noticed that the baby things where put away so they both thank Cameron and Amanda for that. At supper time though it was very quiet no one had anything to say because of the loss of this baby. Finally Amanda and Cameron after supper and dishes knew they should be going because they knew that Gary and Josi had to be alone and talk about there loss. So they say there goodbyes and left. Gary's sponsor was staying with them till Gary could get back on his feet. In bed after a long time of talking over there feelings Gary tries to make love to his wife but Josi is way too upset and pushes him away. So instead Gary holds her real tight and Josi lies in his arms, too hurt to sleep.

Meanwhile at Cameron and Amanda's house they finally could get there lives back to normal. Joe has gone home and Gary and Josi were home also. So Cameron and Amanda did some more wedding plans and that evening they decorated the baby's room by putting up wallpaper. They also got Rachael's crib that they used for Amanda when she was little and put that in the room. The following day they went and got some nice baby pictures to put on the wall and a nice baby lamp. After they did all this work, Cameron got champaign and popped it open and they made a toast in the baby's room and drank champaign. They even christened the room by making love. Cameron carries Amanda to the tub and they enjoy a beautiful bath together talking about there feelings about Gary and Josi and them losing the baby. Cameron said to Amanda maybe Gary and Josi could adopt a child. "That's a thought" Amanda says. "Yeah I will probably mention the thought to Gary sometime" Cameron said. Amanda says "There will still be a lot of hurt though for the two babies they lost." "Yes" says Cameron, "But it will be a new beginning and after having a baby in there hands to call their own they can finally be the parents they want to be. "Yes" Says Amanda "Your so right Cameron." Then she feels her own little babies kick she says to Cameron "The babies are happy in this warm tub they are kicking." Cameron places his hands on Amanda's belly he could feel the little one in Amanda's tummy." and smiles at Amanda and starts kissing her on the neck moving to her lips and small butter fly kisses all over her face. Things were getting too hot in the tub. So Cameron takes Amanda out of the tub dries her off and himself off and brings her to bed and they madly make passionate love like they never made love before. After they make love, they lie in each other arms and fall asleep.

CHAPTER 7

After a couple of months that went by Amanda was eight months pregnant. Cameron and Amanda were waiting patently and very excitedly for the baby to come. The doctor tells Cameron that the babies were in place and could be coming at any time. Cameron was wondering why she might be early. The doctor explains to them sometimes when you are having twins, the babies can come early. So with that both Cameron and Amanda left happily. After sometime when Josi and Gary were healing from there loss of their baby. Cameron and Amanda mention the possibility to Gary and Josi they could try to adopt. At first they didn't take to the news that good because they wanted a child on their own. But as time went by they thought it was the best idea to adopt so they went to adopt agency and sign some papers and the agent said they where both fit to be parents so they both are put on a waiting list. So they get together with Cameron and Amanda and they tell them the news that they are on a waiting list to have a child. So they go out for lunch to a nice country restaurant and celebrate.

After celebrating Cameron and Amanda go for a long two hour drive in the country. They stop the car somewhere in the later evening and they go for a stroll. It was cold April day and it was snowing. It wasn't normal weather for that time of year. Amanda and Cameron find a hill top and they look at the stars and the moon. They where there for hours they where not cold because their love kept them warm. But it was getting late so Cameron said "They should get going." Because he knew that Amanda needed rest before the big day comes before the little babies come." Amanda was starting to feel the cold and her feet felt like ice. So she says "Yeah it getting cold let go." The weather was getting worse there was a big snow storm and the wind was strong. Cameron was trying to help Amanda along the way from the storm. All of sudden Amanda felt a contraction. She bends over in pain. Cameron looks concerned, and asks "Amanda if she was all right?" The contraction stops Amanda not thinking is nothing seriously says "I most of moved the wrong way and hurt a muscle. So they both walk on another twenty minutes again, Amanda doubles over in pain again, it was worse then the first pain she felt. Cameron even more concern them the first pain asks again "Are you all right Amanda you look as white as ghost." Amanda looks frightened at Cameron "I think I am in labour." Cameron stays calm and says calmly to Amanda "Don't worry, Amanda we are almost to the car we will get you to a hospital in no time." Amanda wasn't that calm and says "I hope so because these babies don't want to wait." Cameron helps Amanda to the car and helps her in.

Cameron wasn't still nervous the contraction where only twenty minutes a part and her water didn't break yet he thought it was false labour. Because He saw a lot of women go through false labour before the real thing happen. But Cameron was going to take it seriously just in case and take her to the hospital. He then gets in and tries to start the car but it won't start. And again twenty minutes later Amanda feels another contraction starts and this time her water breaks. Amanda in a lot of pain yells at Cameron "why aren't you starting the car?" "It won't turn over" he says. " Amanda screams "It had better start because this isn't false labour anymore my water broke." Cameron getting more nervously gets very upset when he tries several times for the car to start. And it doesn't start he hits the stirring wheel. The contractions are getting worse now fifteen minutes apart Amanda more in pain yells out "What are we going to do the contraction or getting worse?" Cameron gets out of the car and looks to see if anyone is around but with this kind of day there was no one insight. There were no houses around either. Cameron looks helpless with his girl and their babies. Where they going to die. Cameron knew that these babies wouldn't make it in the world if he didn't get Amanda to a warm place and Amanda could die.

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By Donna