bonjour

Sunday March 10, 2002 12:24am

I just got back home awhile ago, today’s Sister’s Day was such an AWESOME day. There are so many little thoughtful ways that God just blessed today, and It’s just so amazing, exciting, encouraging and uplifting that I just HAD to write it all down and show the world WHAT HE HAS DONE!! :) I think that SOMEone is discouraging me from sharing this great testament to God’s love though, since as I type, our internet keeps working for a second, and then not working, which therefore makes me unable to get on to geocities to update this, but I’ve gotten around his not-so-crafty plan by typing this all out on Microsoft WORD!!! Ha, (now watch my computer suddenly will crash on me :P ) Yeah, it’s so weird how when you have SOOO much to write about that you’re about to burst, you gotta write it all down at THAT very moment, or else if you wait a few hours or even a few minutes, that zeal is somehow diminished.

SO yeah, here is HOW GOOD GOD is and what he provided for us today for our women’s retreat/ sister’s day.(In list form to make it easy to read! ;) ):

Worried about weather – at memorial glade, and it might be raining, or it would be muddy for our outside lunch
Even though the forecast predicted rain for both friday and Sat afternoons, IT DID NOT RAIN! :) even during the whole daytime of Sat., it didn’t rain! And guess when it DID begin to rain? When we were inside at North Westminster and we were about to go home at the end of the day. Praise God for his wonderful timing and for giving us a nice, not-too-cold day! :) And since it didn’t rain Friday at all either, the grass we sat on wasn’t too wet! :) Yay God!

Rides – Not enough drivers for all the 30 girls
We only had 3 people with cars out of like 30 girls coming, so rides was a big issue and headache. Originally it was going to be that the drivers would take two trips, but once again, God provided! Just this morning, while we were making the lunches, Marilyn and Jen Seto mentioned that they could use their friend’s cars, and we were saved! There were just enough seats and like 1 more, for all the girls. And what’s even more amazing, one of our drivers had to leave midday, so at the end of our retreat, we were short one car, but then another nice girl came for the night thing, who had a car to drive people. Man, it’s just mind-boggling, how God provides to us little people who don’t deserve any of it. His love reaches to the heavens.

Sharing – at first, it seemed like people didn’t really wanna share and stuff, so we sat around in a silent circle for a few minutes
But after we divided into two smaller circles, people were really moved to share everuything, their praises, their prayer requests, and many of the things were really really personal and emotional and deep to them and I’m sure hard to share about, so it was such a blessing that we were able to confide and trust our problems with each other and there was such a feeling of unity in Christ and also at the end when we ALL linked up in a big circle with our secret sisters. It was really moving and I really felt the Holy Spirit working around and through everyone. It was really a way better night than I could have imagined.

And not only did provide for us in our areas of need, he blessed us even MORE in just all the activities that we did today. Like at the elderly home, it really really broke my heart to see all the elderly people, seeing the expressions on their faces of solitude, being lost and a sort of sadness. :( Yeah, it was really something, since I’d never been to a care center before. But just seeing everyone just showing and pouring out so much love towards everyone, really touched my heart and especially seeing many of the people there smile some and seem to be enjoying their day. This one lady was so sweet, she asked us to pray for her for certain things, and to pray for her there right then so that we could go to other people and pray for them. And the talk Christine gave about priorities really helped a lot of people (esp. me, hehe :P). Yeah, and there’s so much more, but I have to close this up soon to sleep. Yeah, it was a great day of fellowship, worship, learning and sharing and I’m so glad all the girls who came came. ? It was SOO WORTH taking up one whole day of my studying time for my CS midterm on Wed that I am soo not ready for. It’s catch up time! :P Yeah, so I guess to sum this all up, God and his love for us is awesomer than we can even comprehend! He is SOOOO good to us :)

Wednesday, February 27th, 2002 1:14am

Man, my stat MT today was so much worse than any of our hws or quizzes or review problems! But thankfully believe God really helped me, hehe. Like, all the hws and quizzes seemed super easy to me, and I'd been getting almost 100%on everything, so I wasn't too worried about this first midterm,
but the actual test was actually kinda tricky! I had to skip many problems and stuff, but when I went back to them, I actually started to understand and stuff. For this last problem, it was the hardest, and I remember trying to do it for so long, and I sitll didn't get it and I was all confusing myself, and so I prayed a quick prayer right there asking God for wisdom on how to understand it and do it, and about 10-15 mins later, I actually did start to understand more! And i think I got most of it right! :) Praise God! It's funny too, because the same thing happened for my CS midterm last week. This one problem, I kept going through it over and over and over and my mind just coudln't think straight about it, and I prayed for that, and within the last 10 minutes of the test, a light suddenly went off in my head and I saw clearly how to do it (and I got 7 out of 8 poss. points for that one, yay!). Yeah, and it's really weird too, becuase I remember that happened too, for one of my CS3 tests. I was all stuck on this one problem, and after so long, it still made no sense to me, but I remember at like the last 10 minutes, i
understood it!! SO i was writing so fast to get in done in time, hehe. Yeah, God is so faithful and helps us so much more than we deserve. He's too good to us, it's crazy! Yeah, crazy crazy. Crazy love :)

Friday, February 22nd, 2002 4:25am

Wow, have I been neglecting this page or WHAT?! whoo hoo a new record :P
Lots going on now, dunno where to start.... so i don't think I am going to. Except I'll leave you (whoever "you" may be) with this:

I am having a great start to this semester :) I feel close (relationship-wise) to God :) and I just feel peacful and happy. What more could a girl want?

(well, a 2 unit class for starters, and a new art project idea, a new mink fur coat and, hehe i'm just kidding (well, i DO need those-- except the fur))

wow i really like this background, i just realized, or i guess, remembered :)

Wednesday, December 12th, 2001 1:52 am

I turned 20 on Monday. The few weeks before that, I was seriously sad and dreading turning 20 because I was never going to be a teen ever again, and because although my age somehow has reached the 20 mark, I still feel like a 16 or 17 year old.

But when the day actually came, all the well-wishing and love that I got from everyone, even from some more random people, really touched me and genuinely brightened up my day. A visit from a good old friend really refreshed me and made me so happy. That night my eyes watered happy, moved tears, one time from an e-mail from my dad and the second when my roomies and a friend suddenly whisked me off ton a surprise visit to "France."

And now, after being 20 for almost 2 days, I don't have any more traces of sadness and don't think I ever will (now when I turn 30, that'll be another story, hehe) because thinking back to the day I turned 20, one of themost special birthdays of my short life so far, there's no way I could ever be sad or regret turning 20 old.

I just want to thank each and everybody from the bottom of my full heart because your love and caring and kindess just fills me up to the point of overflowing. Actually, I'm past that point already. :) I love you all!!

Wednesday, December 5th, 2001 2:57am

God has slowly, over the course of these past few weeks, or week, been teaching me to love more, to look more on the positive side rather than the negative side, and to move forward and in a positive direction. Lately, I had realized that I held in some bitterness from various little things, and it was weird how it suddenly hit me just this past Friday that i was feeling this and it was inside me and I wasn't even aware of it before. But like they always say, the first step to recovery is admitting that there's a problem, rite? I guess I wasn't "recovering" b/c i didn't even realize that I HAD a problem, but after I pointed it out to myself, I really felt a need to learn to focus on the positive, and with that, I realized a bunch of stuff, and my attitude started to change, and it feels SO good. It's weird, it's like I was freed from a prison that I hadn't known I was in or something, but yeah, I know God's definitely been helping me out in this area of weakness.

Hehe, and what do ya know, but that I just started reading this devotional book called "Boomerang Joy." How fitting and just in time, huh? He has great timing, hehe. Yeah, the woman who wrote it (Barbara Johnson) is just so full of the joy of the Lord and so encouraging, it's been really helpful for helping me see things from a better point of view. I was especially touched by a statement I read from my devotional 2 days ago, and it was one all about mothers (as she is an experienced one, hehe) and how amazing they are, and how they seem to be "superwomen" and be perfect at handling any situation, but that they are really just humans who make mistakes and are knocked down in the mud, but always get back up again-- "Our love is tough and tender." And one statement she wrote really struck me and comforted me in a really strange, undescribable way: "We know how to mend a wounded heart, because ours has been broken several times" There was so much truth and comfort and hope to me in that one line.

Yeah, and since I haven't been updating my page lately, I've decided I'm gonna share stuff that really touches me from this book. Maybe it will impact you too, and then I will be happy (even if I am not aware that is has, in this world anyways ;) ).

From today's devotional, a really good paragraph from the book:

"Positive thinking, on the other hand, can get you only so far. When that train of thought won't get you further, jump track and keep going by the power of God's grace. After all, you know Immanuel, God who is with us. Dare to believe that He has planned greater things right around the corner for the ones you love. Hold your loved ones before the throne and count on God's answer in their lives. Don't let your ability or inability to think your way around circumstances hold you back. Pray and rest. Then pray some more.

Today make a decision to be less afraid than you were yesterday. To love more than last week. To regret less than last year. To move forward in good deeds. Be forgetful of the past. Remember to do all the good you can do in all the ways you can do, ever as long as you can. And you can!"

Saturday, November 23rd, 2001 (Sometime in the early am)

Sorry this is late! :P had lots of stuff going on, but here it is (they are):
I am thankful for
Man, I don’t even know where to start…. :/

Well, I can see all the specifics in my head, but I feel that if I write down certain thankful things, then if I accidentally forget stuff and leave it out, I won’t do them justice, but I just know that If I had an infinite number of years, a really really good computer, and an immunity to arthritis (and carpel tunnel’s syndrome), I could just keep thinking and typing and thinking and typing things for a really really really REALLY long time, and I would be spitting out pages and pages of things I’m thankful about (a few of those categories being people in my life, opportunities in my life, things I always take for granted, my life itself and so many more that I can’t think of right now) and I guess I’m thankful just for the fact that I know for a fact that I can fill pages and pages full of things I have been blessed with in this life and blessings that are to come and blessings that I maybe didn’t even! realize about, and I guess it allllll just boils down to the big fat hugest thankful thing that I can’t even put into words which is my thanks to God for being personally responsible for every single one of those things that I could type on my hypothetical thankful list and for his personal never-failing love that He has promised and for just creating me and for being personally responsible for sacrificing His own in order to save me, one dinky little measly person in His infinite and beyond-our-imagination world that He’s created. Just the immensity of it blows me away (especially since I know I can’t even really comprehend the real immensity of it all). Yeah, there’s a lot to smile and cry (happy tears, of course ) about.
I hope you’re all having a wonderful Thanksgiving weekend and I hope that you can realize all the so many blessings you have in your life too, smile, and give thanks.

Love always, aimee :a)
p.s. I am sooo stuffed! *dazed delerious happy smile*