I took a box filled with photographs
out of the closet, as I looked at your face
I realized life goes on, in slow motion.
That is until you find love once again.
Searching in all the wrong places
may be what's wrong with your life.
Then again, what is the correct place to search--
Love comes out of nowhere, like magic,
unexpected heaven to soothe your broken heart.
Maybe I was but a salve upon you're own.
To again feel the embrace of desire,
kisses upon your aching lips savored nightly.
Sweet, sweet memories that linger in your soul,
reminding you there was a love of a lifetime.
Just waiting for you to take hold,
finding that way back through you're heart to him.
If only you learned to trust in you
instead of falter in the flaws of others.
To sit and dwell upon all the what ifs
or the may have beens or could still bes.
But love is only as good as the heart
that opens to see and believe.
Then the photographs can be stored away
like memories of the past 20 some years of life.
Waiting upon a tomorrow's dream
of what may become remains to be seen.
Our Cake
There was a time in our distant past
This man gave himself to complete you at last
He offered himself and all that he had
Forever you accepted as he placed that ring bought to last
Two hearts it seemed so true and sure
Our cake was served and so life begun
For a chance at forever only comes along
When two hearts feel their need to belong
With time to figure out what was to be done
We set off together into our sun
Like any dessert there is always a price
But so sweet it seemed so we both threw the dice
When things were great you and I could relate
Our relationship grew as did the love so true
Until one day a terrible mistake was made
Something sinful thing that would make your love fade
The first time we were tested with trouble between
You ended your love as if it never had been
You quit in a moment without a thought
You said how could he and began then to plot
You convinced yourself pure
With out blemish to be found
You allowed hate to enter your mind
fear took control without given him time
Rather then tell him goodbye because you were weak
You then crucified that man tortured him complete
But it was still not enough to hurt his heart so
You planned then to leave break free without letting go
You left what you once had promised you were
Lying over and over to hurt even more
Forsaking his attempts at every turn
You did not care your heart was already burned
Then looking for others you found a man
That fed you with lies that were sweet too in your eyes
He said all the right words and you flirted for sure
But the icing was thin and blurred
But rather then move on from this first
You could not let go of the cake you still held in your hand
You kept up a charade that something
In your heart yet yearned for him
Then confusion and anger set in
You saw that you possibly even still loved him
To admit that you were wrong would never do
But something was working still inside of you
A power much greater then you could control
Shining down inside your own ugly hearted soul
How could you have tortured, lied to, and hurt
The one that sought nothing but regaining your worth
The man that had been humilited by unknowing sin
Learned rather then left when easier it would have been
To jump for another less heart broken road
He stayed true still on this path humbled and broke
Reaching and searching for our love
Alone hurt and frozen alone in they’re once bright suns
Rather then face this pain you had done
Lost in doubt so fearsome
You pulled back complete left in retreat
To escapee what was right to stand up and fight
You instead went to ground
Hoping not to be found
But when asked to go you still said to him no
You kept up the game knowing his pain
But it would not do for you to be true
You still wanted this cake to eat it too
But no longer for him do you hold at your whim
For once love pulsed strong in him
You turned off the sun frozen no longer by light
You showed him that night
You truly were done but unable to end
So he gave you away no longer to play
In the game that once was our love.
And ya wonder why it is that I am the way I am.... It's because I have lived
long enough to see that all the little things in this world are really what
God put us here to see... And if ya wondered why I stared at you the way I
did.... Well to put it simply... I never am to busy to stop and smell a
rose. Especially one as beautiful as the person I saw before me that night.
Just thought I would tell ya that I am the type of person that was such a
deep thinker (and still am today. tehe...) that I out thought myself. I quit
looking at what was important in life and paid mind only to the things I
thought were really important. So wrapped up in life did I get that I quit
seeing the beauty of the world that God put me in. I only paid attention to
the bad the hurts the wrongs the petty... Well everyone gets a wake up call
in life and mine I was lucky enough I heard at this age. So I
did the only thing I could with a life spiraling outta control.
I stopped. I listened.
What I found was nothing matters in this life really other then the little
things. Money comes and goes. Work and jobs and careers change all the time.
Social events happen without your ability to control any of it. Wars happen
and will happen. Peace comes and goes. Countries are conquered and
re-conquered. Empires crumble and are rebuilt. Places change the people
change. Earthquakes and tornados and hurricanes displace things like
homes that you thought at one time were precious and irreplaceable. Not one
thing from a political thought or idea to a renascence movement means a
thing because they all will eventually shift and change.
What I heard though was this. The tiny voice of a child saying Daddy I love
you, the gentle brush of soft hair rumpled under your fingers as you are
given the wonder of singing a lullaby to that little girl or boy. Seeing a
mess for what it really is and to remember how much fun it was to make one
just like as a kid. To feel those words inside of you the first time someone
you love says they love you. To listen to a favorite song over and over all
day long. Take the time to sit for a day and watch the tapestry above you
paint it's self out. Hear the sounds that God intended, the crash of the
waves, that soft rustling sound through the trees all around, the voices of
the animals and insects all too, make up the chorus of things meant for you.
To pay attention to and never forget. Life is so beautiful if you take only
the time to stop and think. To wait and listen. This is what I have found
for me to be true... The best things in this life are standing in front of
you.
So I learned to stops and smell the roses.
If that makes you feel special like no one else has, then clearly no man
took the time to see what a perfect creation you are currently. I can say
this and know these words are so true cause there is no one that was made to
be just like you. You are unique and special you see. Just like Cole is in
your mind the way you see, more special then anything else could ever be.
You may never have had anyone that made you understand. Your more then a
woman your more then a friend. Your more then a mother, your more then a
sis, your more then a daughter, your more then a kiss. You're never going to
be duplicated at all. You’re what God intended perfection so small.
Just like I am, at times I have to remember. We all are to God, single
perfect creations each special for sure, it's left up to us how we view, how
we hear.
So when I forget at times to tell you all this. Remember those moments. I've
just forgotten to hear, to stop, and to listen to what I am intended to see.
Cause sometimes I start thinking too much about me, or the circumstances
that are affecting my life. And I need a swift kick to ground me again.
Which I know I get all too often from him. Be patient and sure and steady for
me, and when it's your turn I will be there you see, to hold your hand and
listen as well. Because the music is sweeter when being held by someone that
cares and wants to be, everything.
When tossed away like unpleasant trash
How could you say why did my love not last
You mocked all attempts my hearts reconcile
You forget so quickly you’re actions of bile
The filth that you heaped upon my sore soul
To expect yet to reap a harvest from your toil
For certain you shall for the rest of your days
Never look back at the hurts your actions have laid
To wonder aloud how come I’m not there?
Shows even further how little truly you care
Away in a moment one sinful mistake
You pulled away loves soft glowing embrace
No winter as cold as the ice you spoke
That frosted the heart of this man now so broke
You taunted and teased and played without mirth
Upon his tortured soul no place found his worth
Trampled and battered alone and cold
Cut out from your love left only to mold
How is it now you’re minds so blind to not know
This man held you’re everything even after the cold snows
Nothing but hurt hate cruelty sweet
Cut off his life pulled out his once strong feet
To fall along the wayside of your life
Broken shattered crushed in your strife
Everything to be given everything to be had
You gave up in a moment for bitterness so sad
Nothing to find comfort in nothing to secure
Tossed upon the waves of your hate insecure
No love longer shown how you could not have known
That alone in tormented desperation he’d drown
Under you’re crushing seas of twisted reality
Succumbed to deaths blow of your own practicality
Found lifeless and still in his watery tomb
Love from another reached out like the womb
Pulling him in to protection above
Surrounding his heart with unconditional love
Peace once taken and crushed upon by you
Restored in an instant helped him to see through
No anger did he hold for the life you gave way
Only sorrow and sympathy for how it did play
Instead of forgiveness you killed him with grief
But no anger does he hold while you broke him upon your reef
Though you tore his soul into separate pieces
A love like no other welded back him new leases
New contracts were signed all in his design
To cover in blood the sins of all time
To carry those burdens for this worthless life certain
Paid with such a price his death on the final curtain
Be not upset in what you now see
For Gods only son finally set me free
Your own life I pray will be touched in some way
From the man up above made that re-molded me from clay
I wish you to know only joyful sweet bliss
Like once our promise that was sealed with that kiss
To fully understand how you gave up this man
Look to yourself but see not the plan
That meant to crush him and break his heart true
His brokenness brought life to him to
Thankful I will be for what happened between thee
Never to forget the hate hurt filled plea
That came from my soul when finally I broke
Jesus please forgive her so lost as I wrote
Like the time after the storm when calmness restores
I listened and learned love lasts searches to explore
For eternity forgiveness that purpose above
Even when another still refuses my love.
I once gave to you all that I had
Nothing held back neither hidden nor clad
Open myself I did so complete
All love into your bosom did seep
Poured everything this man did hold
Upon your life his entire soul
Embraced it all for a time so true
Protected and held warm inside of you
Then a taint from one foolish act
You tossed his love placed him up on a rack
No longer the soother the lover the friend
Now a puppet master torturing to no end
Crucified his faith and his heart
Uncaring about this love from that start
Each lashing word each heartless thought
Wrenched greater the hurt, the pain, the loss
No talent too little with a masters plan
You stole all the joy from inside of this man
Broken and humble his heart shred in bits
Proceeded till death with constant torments
Then leave you did so swift and so sure
Still holding his heart in your fist yet secure
Play 50 more days
The countless cruel ways
Till no longer was there anymore fun
To be had from crushing our once bright sun
Away you did toss his heart to the side
Alone in the ditch it bled till it died
Now broken complete
He gains his own feet
To put back together what you’ve bled
To salvage the shreds of loves lasting threads
Alone again he stands in his world
Forever transformed mind still in a whirl
Lessons never taught more surely than this
Forever is never to be sealed with a kiss
To find out so late in life what is meant
Upon a soulless heart his love now spent
Reaches levels of tragic portrayals
History learned but unable to prevail
The classic lessons forgot within love
Experience thy self wisdom from only above
To love and to lose so truly understood
When through it yourself being burned like wood
Loves soulless ashes still hot
Memories scorched and in rot
Eternal bleeding within
That soulless tomb his new prison
Fleeting travesties of darkness abound
When lovers turn tortured souls to the ground
Learn for thy own self to burry the dead
Love given freely once broken in the head
To pursue is but folly another step back
Never burden again but remain in the black
Listen rather to loves oldest words
Forgive then forget all of your hurts
Move forth into life bright over again
Forgetting pains past more enlightened
Looking back only to remember what not to do
When deciding again to give your heart true.
I am tired now of the old coming to hurt my new.
I need to look past all of the doom and the gloom.
I can see no more love there between Christina and I.
Though everything hurts still on my insides.
I will not fall back to thinking in dark.
But ahead to a life less beautiful.
At least no longer in the winter of the dead.
First it was a moment
An incredible longing stare.
Something deep inside
Felt tingling in the air
That life was about turn
Darkness began to blur
I watch as in slow motion
The life I knew begun to die
From one simple view of you
Mind saw one through two
I chose that night to make it more
I left security for unknown unsure
I chose to love and not look back
Regardless of the hurts still sore from the past
Opening my life to love once again
Giving up all that I knew comforted only with time
Knowing not when to see
Or hold once more
But a faintly vague promise
Of heaven that night shown
Months went by learning daily about
The woman that captured my soul
I made myself pure at least I had thought
I gave up the life protected from not
Not allowing inside
Anything that might hurt
Never seeing a person
For more then their worth
I then gave my self completely to you
To honor I felt and always hold true
When you moved in with us
Our lives were so sweet
I’d come home to find softly a kiss
A hug or a hand to hold in such bliss
But nothing I saw in that first night
Could compare to the joy I found in my life
Being able to have and to always to hold
The woman I dreamed I would grow with to be old
Then something came up between us both
Life’s little lessons tested then broke
Instead of so true so faithful and more
Left when first tested my heart on the floor
There is nothing worse
To lie and then hurt
The one you once loved
Because he was imperfect
Try as he would to reach back to what was
You pulled only further then brought on the end
You said just some time
To get your self straight
But broken that love for him it was
Long nights spent alone waiting on us
To find it was no longer to be
He said go with God now be happy LE
| Are you intrested in poetry? Just meet a girl, give her your entire being, let her break your heart and leave you alone. It will come to you eventually. Naturally almost even after you've wished death would only welcome you into it's silent embrace to stop the violent screaming of the heartbeat already past away.
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