It all started when I went once to see a clairvoyante in Westfield, Chatswood, (a suburb in Sydney) in a shop called Living Energies. It’s a nice shop where they sell all kind of crystals, smelly candles, oil, books…It’s there that I met Penny. She’s a very nice lady, so open-minded and I really enjoyed our conversation. After doing the reading of the cards, I was curious to know if she have been doing this job for a long time.
-"When did you start to be interested in these things", I asked.
-"Since a long time", she replied, "if not millenaries".
I remember in the next few days, I had a strange feeling. Suddenly I kept on thinking about past lives. I wanted to know who I was, what I was. Not that I normally like to think about these things…But the feeling was there.
I finally went back to see Penny. Yes she can do the reading of past lives. She though mentioned that for half an hour or 45mn she couldn’t go real deep.

Here is her side of the story

• "I see a Middle Eastern lady, that looks a lot like you. She just has been initiated to a sort of ritual. I see her sailing in roughing boat. She has oars in her hands."
• Of course in my past lives I was male and female. (Many already know that our spirit holds the two principles: male and female.)
• The most recent life that I lived was back in the 30s. Chicago, I was on a market, selling bottles of whisky. "In this life you didn’t think about a spiritual improvement. You were here just to be here". It is interesting to note that this was during the prohibition of alcohol in the States. Penny said that I didn’t live for long in that life, so I presume I died shot by the police!!
• "You have been very spiritual in lots of your lives. You have been mostly a person who worked in this domain. Your job consisted to be inspired, to receive information and then to use this information to help others to understand".
• To my question: "why do I find myself working in an environment that belongs more to males? Is it true that my male side dominate my female side?"
  Penny responded: "No. You are very feminine and sensitive. Actually like in this life, you went through many lifetimes where you were a woman, you wanted to show that women also are strong and smart, and you used some of what they call the "male side of things" (like logical thinking, interest in Maths, strength and willpower of mind? to prove that, and to stand for their rights". Then she stopped and looked deep. She said: "I feel a strong tension on your neck. In one life you have been strangled (sentenced) for being an aspect of this person."
  
• In the roman period I have been a person who knew how to use the sculpting tools to write scripts.
• Back in the Atlantean or Murien period I have been a person who knew how to work with crystals (where these people actually used the power of crystals to create sounds, light and all kind of things like even transmitting thoughts..).
• To my question: "why do I feel so happy, so "taken" by the Spanish dancing music,
  and their dresses and bright colors?"

(This is interesting). Penny said: "You were a nun in one of your lives. In this life, for being a spiritual person, you thought that this would lead you to a higher spiritual stage. But it’s not what happened. You lived in a monastery. You spent this life in anger, so much anger and rage, fighting with yourself for what you did and wanting more than ever to belong to the external world, to all the colors and music and joy".
(Oh yeah! I sought of something more glamourous. A spanish dancer for example!)

This was mostly our conversation, that I found very interesting. It was the opening of a whole new world, not strange to me because I’m familiar with these things since a long time. But very interesting (if that would be the world). Very very interesting!

My Story

It was the Wednesday 29^th of September.

That day early in the morning, a current situation with Sean, my husband, increased my anger. An anger that I started to feel since the Saturday before that day. It was of course silly the way it was going but I just couldn’t help it. I thought it was finished between us.

I still remember the date and everything because the day before (the 28^th) it was my birthday.

The poor guy wanted to make me happy?I was responding with anger. It is true that we don’t like everything that the other person is, especially if it’s something that we hate, completely. But we normally forget about it or we just don’t think about these things that make us angry. A way to escape anger and none useful fights. Of course I’m not perfect.

For some reason everything then that was happening was not right, on the opposite it was exactly what was required to make me very angry.

It was then that R.J. saw me in such a bad way in the parking ready to leave for work. (R.J. is my neighbor and friend. She’s a hypnotherapist. I admire the work that she’s trying to do at the moment with helping people with cancer or with other problems in their life). And of course at work they noticed that too. Tried to help me, which is very nice of them. R.J. called during the day, she was very worried and proposed to come to see her that afternoon to talk and a possible therapy.

Sean was there when I went back home and of course I didn’t like him. So I just went to see R.J.. I had a Viennetta in my hands and said that I wanted to celebrate my birthday with her. She listened to me and understood. She would have felt the same way too. I was feeling so bad and asked her if she knows a therapy that would calm my anger. She said that maybe she can do something for me.

-"Lets ask your subconscient to suggest ideas. You will be very surprised of what sometimes your subconscient can propose!"

The therapy consisted to go to a nice garden. I must admit that first I was still "conscious" but doing efforts to let go.

Please read that with an open mind. You don’t have to believe it or to laugh at it. Your comments are most welcome.
Also I have to remind you that what I saw is when I was under hypnose.And then what I believe in.It doesn't mean it's true or not.I repeat it is under Hypnose and they're My believes.Also that I trust R.J. who is my friend.
We all have to be carefull sometimes and always remember that God is with us and protect us.

-"You see stairs in front of you in a triangle form. You’re going down to a nice garden. What do you see?"

-"A very beautiful bunch of flowers."

-"What color?"

-"Fuchsia". Then I described the incredible beauty of this garden and the great brightness of the flowers that were there.

Then she tried to propose to me to say "yes" to positive things and "no" to anger (by lifting the finger). I was still doing efforts. Then she proposed to go to a nice beach in Australia. I went to Terrigal first but then I said I prefer Umina. I saw at Terrigal the image of what I call "his nest" and I didn’t like it. At Umina I was lying on the beach. Sean was standing looking at me, ready to jump into the water.

Suddenly I got scared. Cause the image that I saw was a black thing and I was focusing to see his face. I was scared and I asked: Who is he? Then I described his face as being so gray, incredibly sad.

This was the step that got me out of the therapy, what R.J. later on called "you kept on jumping into your past lives". I saw images of the life of this man. I say a monk because he was wearing a long black cape with the top on his head. So sad, black and scary. R.J. asked what year and which country, it’s 1891 and it’s Espa?, Spain. I saw a big piece of roc, inside a room, I saw him lying on a bed, I said he must be sick, very sick. I saw a light. It was just so scary. Afterward I saw him walking along a hall, to a gate. I wanted to open the gate I said to R.J. i but I saw an explosion out, so I had to close it back. It was dark. I felt very bad in the chest. What is his name? R.J. asked, I responded Emma or Elma. Can you look what he’s wearing in his feet? She said and I looked and saw black socks. Then she said to go back in time 40 years ago and describe the scene. It was pretty hard to guess, I started to see lights, things like lights, Christmas lights, I saw a priest doing like a church ceremony. I was still scared and feeling bad. It was so dark. A kind of grotto, I saw water too.

Then I went back to the garden. It’s like the presence of the old man didn’t leave me. He was still there. But I was preoccupied by the magnificent temple that I saw in the middle of the garden. I saw myself going down the steps again. The walls of the temple were fuchsia and gold, God so beautiful! R.J. wanted to know what year was that, I was surprised because I wouldn’t know the year, but I saw it clearly coming to me on the screen of my mind." 14? 14 222", I said. (I’m sure it’s before, in the past but I don’t know if it’s referring to our timing or theirs). Then R.J. asked which country? I saw the scripts on the wall of the temple and said," It looks like Egyptian", then I looked around and saw the Sphinx, so I said:" yes, it’s Egypt".

Then I came back to the temple and I saw "myself" again with two other girls. They were beautiful, long black hair, tanned skin. "They’re laughing", I said. R.J. wanted to know their age. I said 20. I was feeling very happy. What’s your name? R.J. asked, I said Betha. I was trying to guess why they were happy?#060;/P>

In that time I kept on seeing different images. I saw crystals, so bright and so colorful, so beautiful, so many of them. I found myself in a sort of room, where the walls were constituted of crystals, of prismatic forms, blue and pink. Then I saw myself in front of a big …computer?, color blue transparent (very nice), and I was manipulating a sort of machine. I was working with crystals and it was producing light. I couldn’t tell what kind of work it was. I believe it was involving the energy that radiates from crystals or the splitting of their atoms to create light or energy in the form of light. I saw also behind another big crystal, radiating lots of light in a kind of cage. I also saw myself releasing a kind of egg. I was holding a big egg in my hands, that was opened from the top, and had light coming from inside. Then the egg went up toward the ceiling and disappeared. The procedure was weird because it’s like the ceiling was a kind of "jelly" that absorbed the egg and went back to normal. I could see myself from behind releasing the egg. I was wearing a long white robe that reached my feet, very simple, no special design, and had long black hair. I saw another big black egg coming toward me. The more it was approaching the more it was getting bigger. It had an opening where light was coming from. Then it stopped on the floor and I saw "babies" coming out from the opening. They were big and very angry. I thought they had more conscience than babies. Actually seeing them close I could see that their bodies only by form looked like baby’s body with a big head. Their faces expressed lots of anger. It wasn’t the innocence of a baby’s face. These faces were men’s faces when they get angry.

I kept on coming back to the old monk, so sad and I had to open my eyes often because I felt bad. R.J. wanted to know if it’s the same one so she asked: "Who is he?, I said Elma". R.J. said not to worry:" you’re safe here, nobody can hurt you".

I even said that he makes me remember one of the pictures of a Saint in Lebanon (Saint Charbel). While Saint Charbel’s picture is shining as a Saint’s picture (with serenity). This man’s face was gray, scary and so sad.

I saw elephants. So many of them. They were running making lots of noise and lots of dust. I don’t know which place is that.

I saw destruction, big blocks falling into the water. I said: "I think it’s Atlantis". I saw a black ship coming. R.J. asked if I was above or under. I said that I think I’m under. I saw a black ship leaving in the sky. Then I said: " I don’t want to stay here. This is no good to me. I want to go back to the garden".

And there I saw Betha again and the other two girls. They were laughing and very happy. Then she turned herself to the right and ?I could see…I had to look very good to see that she had?wings? Like eagle wings. So she turned and flew in the sky. The other two girls did the same. And I could see others, actually many of them flying in a sort of group in the sky. They all had wings like her, from a golden color. I felt incredibly happy and free. ?I believe that the reason why I couldn’t see her wings first is because I was facing her and the two others. Their wings actually don’t show up when they’re not flying. I would describe it like the wings of a bee or a fly. When they stop flying their wings roll back. -

Then I saw waves, and waves, like going in spirals. R.J. said: "Ok, now there is no need to go to somewhere else. Let’s go back to the beach". I said that I feel the presence of the monk. Always in the dark. I said that he doesn’t like me for what I did to him. He is very angry. Depression. He wants to make me feel bad, and week. So depression and headaches are the solution. WHO IS HE??? Asked R.J. ??? I was surprised that she asked this question. Didn’t she know already?

"It’s me ", I answered.

So she said:" but you what do you like?". I said: " lights, the lights, Christmas, nice colors?The beach". She said then to go back to the beach. I saw myself lying again, and it’s like a big lion on top of me. She said "A LION"?? I said "yeah but it’s from sand, so it’s already crawling. She said " ah ok he cannot hurt you!". I saw Sean looking at me, ready to jump into the water. He was laughing! I was smiling to him.

"I see the dolphins!", I said.

" Yeah swim with the dolphins", replied R.J.. And I did so. And then one of them looked at me and I looked at him?And it was as it ?#034;filled" me with joy…Suddenly I was so happy!

"It’s finish!" said R.J.. So I was getting up. She said " I’m sorry but you still in Trans!" So I lied again. Then she clicked her fingers saying you’re back in 99…and I got up. I was smiling, happy. She said, "how do you feel?" I said "very hungry".

So she went and got the viennetta. I said " Can we save a piece for Sean?" She said "well don’t you want to go and bring him here so that we eat together?" I was happy, I wasn’t anymore angry. It was all gone. So I went and got him. We ate and spoken with her …She kept on looking at me in a way??? "You should be an inventor or something!"

"God we couldn’t do the therapy with you! You kept on going back to your past lives". "Do you believe what I Saw?, I asked. "Yes I do", she said.

It wasn’t till late (after I ate) that I realized what I saw. I saw something! And if what I saw is true then the history, the past of our planet is far greater than what we think it is.

Not that I’m the first one to say that, my story is just another one among so many others that we heard or read…There are some incredible books and stories!

I am personally very interested in these matters. An interest that started since a young age. I was ten years old when I first read about Atlantis. But I never saw anything like that.

Of course as you already know, I am very "pleased" and "entertained" to discover this dark side of mine. "An old monk, in black!" . Not at all and in the following days I felt bad and scared. But now I’m interested to know the full story. His young days...

Why did he choose this life...

Atlantis, the "men" that look like babies, the eggs, the crystals, Betha, and the dolphins.

So many questions that I finally decided to go and see Penny again. After all didn’t she seem to know more than what she said?

What she told me was even greater! She also saw the people with wings, crystals and other things.. Incredible things.

I can’t anymore take these things from an external point of view saying "It could be true" and walk away. I SAW things too. After all we’re taught to believe what we can see or hear or touch.- Being the persons that we are, We deny anything that other persons say exists and we don’t see. We qualify "Legends" things that we can’t materially prove.

We’re friends now (Penny and me). And at the moment I’m borrowing her books to know more and discover more...

Are you interested too? Or maybe you too have a story to tell.

Did you ever had a spiritual experience?

I had one when I was 18. It was after a whole year of struggling and fighting against depression and negativity. ( It was tough, and stressful time for exams, I was week so on a low level, a long story).

It was Christmas time, in a library I discovered the book, The Power Of Your Subconscient Mind for Dr Joseph Murphy. In a matter of few days it was a whole new life for me that ended everything. Suddenly I was waking up in peace. I discovered for the first time the Bible.

It was then that the real progress started in my life.

Also I must admit the time difference:

One year/few days.

Being human we intend to believe that the more the level is low the more we have to struggle and work hard, the more time we need.

But it’s not true in the "Kingdom of God" (That Jesus spoken about). Time has no meaning. The change can happen instantly. We will always be welcome back.

I still have a long way to go, I know. I’m still away from perfection. But now I know:

Our History doesn’t involve only planet Earth. We’re not "just"human, we’re born, we live then we die. We’re more than that. A lot more. We do have a purpose. We do possess "a divine power"to make things happen for the good. A fragment of us is immortal.

This is my story until now. What do you think of it?
I am impatient to read yours.



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