To my only true love, 

I woke up at 5:30 overjoyed and could not sleep.  This is a feeble attempt to express my love for you and my thankfulness to God. 

I am so richly blessed to have had just the opportunity to meet you.  You exceed all my hopes and dreams. 

I used to pray to God sometimes in a jealous manner asking him for my "break."  What I mean by "break" is something that was just given to me without a struggle.  I just wanted one.  I would watch others around me receive "break" after "break."  I could not understand.  I had been faithful.  I had picked up my cross and followed Jesus in every way that I knew how to the best of my ability.  I had struggled with so many challenges in my life and each time that I would take a new step in his direction I would be met with another hindrance, so I thought.  I wanted to be given just one thing that I didn't have to suffer for. 

I eventually learned these crosses were necessary for me to grow.  I eventually realized they were blessings teaching me wisdom, compassion, patience, love and so many more things.  But I also began to expect less and less from God that I was only entitled to small amounts of joy because that was what God wanted for me in order to keep me humble.  Somewhere in there I twisted what God was capable of giving me.  In my tiny mind I limited God and didn't dare ask for anything more than just enough.  I misconceived God.  I forgot how Splendidly Exquisite he is. 

Then one day I woke up!  And my long awaited and feverishly prayed for "break" had arrived.  Only it wasn't a tiny "break" like I had asked for.  It was "THE BREAK."  It was YOU!  You wrote to me even though we seemed incompatible.  I responded anyway without a thought.  Then I realized God had been preparing me for my "break" MY MIRACLE!  You are my MIRACLE, Sean.  You are my "break." 

You weren't anything I expected or imagined.  You are this amazingly glorious soul that fit me like no other ever could or would.  This miracle came in the form of LOVE incarnate.  You are love personified.  You restored my Trust in humans that I had longed lost as a child.  Your love has transformed me into something more genuine than I would have ever dreamt.  And if I died today I would die happy and peaceful knowing you truly loved ME as I am.  Thank you, Blessed Sean Winfield Messenger for giving me the greatest gift of all True Unconditional Love.  Praise be to God for giving me my "break."  You were worth the wait, the pain and suffering.  I will revel in each second of my life knowing that you are part of it.  And someday soon We will be Husband and Wife.  Joined together by God forever.  I love you from the depths of my soul, the inner recesses of my heart and the complexities of my mind.  I know the love we have for each other will only continue to grow.  Thank You for never giving up on your dream and always daring to believe in Love. 


Love your fiancee and soulmate Jessica 
xo xo xo