Sometimes we feel so bad that death seems inviting.  That death seems so inviting.  We don't know what to do, what to say, where to turn.  I know that I have felt this way before.  I was doing bad in school, doing things that I normally wouldn't do.  There was a girl at school that was well, a temptress, and I thought that maybe I should just see what she would do.  I didn't know where to turn and that seemed like a good place.  I was really screwed up.  I went home and thought about giving in to her the next day.  I was so low.  I started to cry as I was taking a bath.  I was so confused and sad that death would be the only escape for me.  I got out and instead of doing it then I went to bed.  Above my head, on a shelf, was a steak knife from supper.  I looked at for awhile but had this overwhealming urge to go play some basketball.  So I got dressed and went.  I was playing basketball at 12:40 at night on a wendsday.  I was so mad!  I would shoot form way too far for me to even hit the rim.  I would run top speed to get the ball and shoot again.  I did this for about twenty minutes.  I was too tired to do anything except think.  I was so mad and I didn't want to die untill I take out whatever made me so sad and suicidal.  I recently found God and salvation.  He had saved me then and had so easily overcome the power of Satan with a mere thought.  With the mere thought again I came to know Jesus.  Maybe to give these messages maybe just to be there when it seems that no one else is, I don't know.  But he saved me and I know that he has saved many others.  God loves us so much that he would give his only son to die for me, for you.  Taking our lives just says that God has less power than Satan.  So he helped me chose life, and he will always help me.  I want to do only his will.  I want you to know that if you ever have thought about getting rid of yourself that God is right behind in front of you pleading that you won't, that he loves you and has a plan for you.  I urge us all to remember that God is ALWAYS there and will ALWAYS love us.

child of God saved more than once
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