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dear evelyn,
you were the highlight of my senior year. you really
meant the world to me. i'm not sure if you felt the same way i did, or
if you even knew how i felt about you. i wish i would have tried to find
out, but i wasn't able to and wasn't ready for anything even if it would
have happened. i've wondered quite a few times whatever happened to you
and how you are doing, but i've never seriously pursued it. i want to thank
you for making me smile for the first time in a long while back then. you'll
always have a place in my memories.
dear amy,
i have very little to say to you. i love who you
were when i first met you....she's been dead for a long time though. while
i was with you, you changed so much you weren't the same person i met at
all. i wouldn't have minded that too much if you hadn't started abusing
me emotionally and alienating me from people. you pushed me to the point
were i would have either had to kill you, me, or both of us if i hadn't
found the strength to leave. i'm still afraid of a lot of things (like
being able to get close to people or getting into a stable relationship)
because of you. i don't feel conceited saying i was the best thing you
ever had. i hope you learn someday how to treat people right and find someone
who's good for you. ....i'll never think of being with you again nor would
i ever want to if given the opportunity, but i'm not nearly as angry about
what you did to me as i used to be. when i think of you i tend to
remember the first three months of our time together the most.... like
i said though, you killed the person you were back then.
i promised myself i wouldn't get vengeful when i
wrote this and i think it's time i cut this short before i do. the last
thing i want to say is thank you. you taught me never to follow my heart
blindly again and to recognize when i'm being taken advantage of.
dear mitz,
it's been quite a while since we were together.
i think if we hadn't been so far apart we could have lasted longer. i was
in a bad place in my life when you found me, and i'm sorry i didn't treat
you like the angel you were.... when we met, i had already left amy and
you burned the last of the bridges back to her for me before i could make
the mistake of crossing them again. i know i've thanked you for it before,
but i don't know if you'll ever know how much it meant to me. i know life
hasn't been kind to you over the last year and i hope it never gets that
bad for you again... i'd be willing to be with you again in the future
but this time i would be different. i'm at a place where i can treat people
much better then i could at that time in my life.