"i realize we won't be able to talk for
some time and i understand that
as i do you"
-alanis morissette
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dear evelyn,
    you were the highlight of my senior year. you really meant the world to me. i'm not sure if you felt the same way i did, or if you even knew how i felt about you. i wish i would have tried to find out, but i wasn't able to and wasn't ready for anything even if it would have happened. i've wondered quite a few times whatever happened to you and how you are doing, but i've never seriously pursued it. i want to thank you for making me smile for the first time in a long while back then. you'll always have a place in my memories.

dear amy,
    i have very little to say to you. i love who you were when i first met you....she's been dead for a long time though. while i was with you, you changed so much you weren't the same person i met at all. i wouldn't have minded that too much if you hadn't started abusing me emotionally and alienating me from people. you pushed me to the point were i would have either had to kill you, me, or both of us if i hadn't found the strength to leave. i'm still afraid of a lot of things (like being able to get close to people or getting into a stable relationship) because of you. i don't feel conceited saying i was the best thing you ever had. i hope you learn someday how to treat people right and find someone who's good for you. ....i'll never think of being with you again nor would i ever want to if given the opportunity, but i'm not nearly as angry about what you did to me as i used to be. when i think of you i tend to  remember the first three months of our time together the most.... like i said though, you killed the person you were back then.
    i promised myself i wouldn't get vengeful when i wrote this and i think it's time i cut this short before i do. the last thing i want to say is thank you. you taught me never to follow my heart blindly again and to recognize when i'm being taken advantage of.

dear  mitz,
    it's been quite a while since we were together. i think if we hadn't been so far apart we could have lasted longer. i was in a bad place in my life when you found me, and i'm sorry i didn't treat you like the angel you were.... when we met, i had already left amy and you burned the last of the bridges back to her for me before i could make the mistake of crossing them again. i know i've thanked you for it before, but i don't know if you'll ever know how much it meant to me. i know life hasn't been kind to you over the last year and i hope it never gets that bad for you again... i'd be willing to be with you again in the future but this time i would be different. i'm at a place where i can treat people much better then i could at that time in my life.

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