Frozen

by Ishida Takeru
 
 
 

*You only see what your eyes want to see
  How can life be what you want it to be
  You're frozen
  When your heart's not open*

Why can't you tell me. I don't understand, everytime I ask you about my brother it's the same answer. You haven't been able to find him. Are you afraid, or do you not love me. If it's that, I can understand. I know what happened to you. But at least open your heart to me. That's all I want, for you to tell me.

*You're so consumed with how much you get
  You waste your time with hate and regret
  You're broken
 When your heart's not open*

It's not that I don't want to tell you. I only regret that I made the promise. It was something I had to do. I hate that I hurt you so much everytime I have to lie to you. I wish I could open up to you, tell you that I'm your brother. And that I love you, but I can't...I just can't.

*Mmmmmm, if I could melt your heart
  Mmmmmm, we'd never be apart
  Mmmmmm, give yourself to me
  Mmmmmm, you hold the key*

"Hiei-san!" I smile as you come near. My brother, you always look out for me. "Have you found my brother, yet..?" I hate to keep up this facade, but if you dont want to tell me yet I cannot force you. You look down a bit, I know it hurts you everytime I ask you.
"Yukina, I havent found anything yet" I can hear you grimace as each word comes out. "I'm very sorry"
"Alright" I say, my dissapointment is not fake. I always dream that one day, you'll just tell me. But, I know your heart is ice, and not even the fires of the Makai can melt it unless you want it to.

*Now there's no point in placing the blame
  And you should know I suffer the same
  If I lose you
 My heart will be broken*

This is all my fault. I shouldn't have made that promise. But, it was the only way I could find you. I know it hurts you every time I have to tell you that I haven't found your brother. It hurts me just as much. The dissapointment in your eyes breaks my heart. And I wonder; if I don't tell you soon, you may leave. You may look for your brother by yourself. I can keep track of you, but I rarely get time away from Mukuro. If it happens, I may loose you forever.

*Love is a bird, she needs to fly
  Let all the hurt inside of you die
  You're frozen
 When your heart's not open*

I know you're watching as I talk to the birds. Why won't you come down? I know you're hurt because of what happened to you. But, I still love you. I'll always love you, no matter what. I just want to be with you, brother. To know what's in your heart. The heart you keep behind an icey exterior.

*Mmmmmm, if I could melt your heart
  Mmmmmm, we'd never be apart
  Mmmmmm, give yourself to me
  Mmmmmm, you hold the key*

I want to come down. I want to be with you always. But, I just can't tell you. I wish you would understand. Be strong, one day....one day I'll be able to tell you. Yukina, please just be strong.

*If I could melt your heart*
 
 

Frozen by Madonna

Patrick Lorde and Madonna; copyright 1998