| RECALL |
By Kiyono Onose, Dorious's friend
This is LS's fanfic mainly focuses on SugixRyu
Memory 1
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Recall...... back to the genesis of mind.....
some day in 1989.......
"Damn ....where is that fxxking red head?" J yelled "It's time to practice now"
"Waa please calm down Jun Jun" Ino said softly" Sugi-chan must be on the way"
"But.. "
"JUN JUN" Ino said in louder voice (with his piggy mouth ^__^)
"Ok Ino we'll wait for him " J said "But just 30minutes ..ONLY 30 MINUTES"
J slammed on the sofa and take the cigarette into his mouth " Shinya ,do you know where your fxxking best friend is?"
in silence ...
"HEY SHINYA STOP EATING AND ANSWER ME"
Shinya raised his head from the instant ramen and shake his head quickly
"We will have the next live on Friday. How he dare to miss it?" J turned to the one who stayed quiet at the corner of the room "Ryu ,do you think so?"
Ryu didn't answer but keep his eyes out off the window. Since the first day he joined Lunacy ,Sugizo was the one who never talk to him. He just stayed there and played his guitar...never care about Ryu's existence.
"Sugi is a cold-blooded ..give him some more time ne" Shinya used to tell him like that... but...
"Tadaima......." a familiar voice appeared at the door
"%$*&^Q*&*$&(*#Sugi" J yelled "Where the heck have you been? It's so damn late to practice"
Sugi stared at J emotionlessly "It's none of your business."
"SUGI!!!!! YOU" J grabbed Sugi's shirt harshly and pushed Sugi against the wall.
"Jun Jun no fighting please.. let's go practicing NOW " Ino begged .So J released Sugi to be free and 5 of them went out to practice.
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The practice that afternoon was fulfil by depressive atmosphere. Although Shinya tried to make some joke but nobody laughed at all. Ryu felt like his singing wasn't get along with Sugizo's guitar ...it was ..
"SUGI what are you doing?" J shouted "Why don't you listen to Ryu at all?"
" Why I have to listen to THAT kind of singing.....he never do his best "Sugi replied coldly " Do you think the next live will be successful if this guy still sings like this?,NO"
Ryu felt like the whole world collasped in front of him. Sugizo still didn't accept him to be the member of Lunacy.... the pain grew up inside his heart so that he couldn't stand it anymore.
"RYU!!!!" Ino's calling was too late...Ryu ran out off the room already.
"Sugi why you speak to Ryu like that?" Shinya asked "I think he sings very well "
"I just tell the truth..." The red head answered with wicked smile .
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"knock knock"
Sugi raised his head from his guitar and looked at the clock on the wall...2.00 am already.
"Who the hell is it?" He asked
"It's me..Ryuichi"
"Ehh? What do you want?"
"Just open the door please I wanna talk to you"
"I have nothing to talk to you .Go back to your home"
"BUT I HAVE ,OPEN THE DOOR NOW" the voice from the other side of the door was louder and louder so that Sugi had to open the door .Then he found out that Ryu was totally drunk.
" Ha ha finally I can talk to you Sugi-chan " Ryu said while he hugged Sugi tightly.
Sugi tried to pushed Ryu away but stop it when he felt Ryu's shoulders shaking
"Ryu.. you are crying?"
"Why..Sugi ..why you always deny me? Why don't you accept me to be the member of Lunacy. You.. do you.." the voice change into a hitching sob. "Do you hate me?"
Tears fell down throught the reddish face. Sugi looked at that innocent eyes ....he didn't know that Ryu was so sensitive. He just realized that he had hurt Ryu by his words.
Ryu was still sobbing while Sugi embraced him. The smooth fingers brushed softly through the curly long hair.
"I'm sorry Ryu... I'm sorry" Sugi whispered
Because of the alcohol in his veins, Ryu fell asleep before he could hear what Sugi said.....
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Sugi was very confused about his own feeling along the way he drove to Ryu's house. He couldn't take his eyes off the sleeping body beside him.
"Why are you so innocent huh ?" Sugi whispered as if Ryu could hear him
"You know ...I pretend to ignore you because I'm afraid of my true feeling...Ryu... I .." Instead of saying it out,Sugi kept the forbidden word inside his heart......
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Ryu felt his back reached the softness of his bed ."Sugi?" he opened his eyes and turned around....the red head was gone. He tried to follow but a terrible headache forced him to fall down to the bed.........
"Ryu ..Ryu" the familiar voice called his name softly "Are you OK?"
"I.. I have a headache"Ryu replied ,wondering if it was only a dream..”Am I dreaming?’
"You drank too much, Ryu.Take this medicine ,you’ll feel better tomorrow." Sugi said and looked at his watch. “I think it’s time to go home now.”
“…" Ryu grabbed Sugi's wrist tightly
"ehh?"
"Stay with me, don't leave me alone." Tears welled up his beautiful eyes "I don't wanna be left alone again.” Ryu began to sob. ”Oh sh*t why I have to care about you so much”
Then Ryu founded that he was embraced tightly. Sugi leant his head on Ryu's shoulder .
Ryu was stunned. "Ehh? what are you doi..." the last word was gone when Sugi pressed his lips onto Ryu's own.
"Sugi???? You.."Ryu tried to protest but.. Sugi closed his mouth on Ryu's again, entered his tongue to taste the sweetness inside.
"You know? I kept this forbidden emotion for too long "Sugi murmur while he pinned Ryu's body into the bed "and I don't know when I won't be able to keep it anymore"
Ryu tried to speak but couldn't say anything because of his headache .
"Forget all what I said tonight" Sugi whispered as he kissed Ryu's forhead gently "It was only a dream...remember.... it was only a dream."
That was the last sentence that Ryu heard before he fell asleep again
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The next morning.....
"RRRR RRRR" The telephone sound waked the curly long haired guy up from his dream. He still got some headaches but much better than the previous night.
"Moshi Moshi"
"Ryu?? WAKE UP NOW!!!!"
"Ehh?'
"It's time to practice already..." J's voice was very serious. "The next live won't be successful if you and Sugi still can't get along with each other,so we need to practice more often."
"Ok I'll go immediately ..yes ..yes I'll be there soon ok bye" Ryu hung the phone up and prepare himself to go to the studio....
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"Oh god I'm so damn late" Ryu cursed while he was running to the studio. "J must be angry .... arghhhhhhh"
As he reached the door , he could hear the sound inside clearly. Is wasn't like the first time he went to see Lunacy's live....much greater....so perfect although there was no vocal.
"Why you come here Ryuichi?" He whispered to himself. "In fact they can do it very well without you"
"NO!!!! I'M LUNACY'S VOCALIST.I must make him accept me as a member." He thought while pushing the door...
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By Kiyono Onose : buu_chan@hotmail.com