| RECALL |
By Kiyono Onose, Dorious's friend
This is LS's fanfic mainly focuses on SugixRyu
Memory 3
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At the studio....a few days later...
"What do you mean Ryu!!?" J asked with his usual loud voice . " Leaving Lunacy???"
"I really wanna quit ,J." Ryu answered "I'm too tried to follow all of you,my voice isn't good enough for Lunacy's song....may be you'd better have a better vocalist"
"Uh... why do you underestimate yourself like that?" J narrowed his eyes." I asked you to join Lunacy because you have a very good voice. We choose you because we know you can fulfill the empty part of our band."
" But... I.." Ryu didn't know how to explain..... Since 'that night' he tried not to be alone with Sugi although Sugi tried so hard to talk to him. he still remembered the sorrow in those beautiful eyes ....
"Ryu..." Ino called him calmly.
"Yes??"
"If you really wanna quit, I won't stop you ." Ryu couldn't noticed anything from that flat voice but there was something strange in those sparkling brown eyes." I think you should think about it again that you really wanna do that or you just wanna escape something...or someone."
"I'll think about it." The curly haired said before he left the room.
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As he closed the door . He found someone was waiting for him.
"I have to talk to you, Ryu." the red head said as he dragged Ryu to the dark corner of the corridor.
"I.... I.." Ryu blushed ,tried to avoid the shiny beautiful eyes.
"You said you'll leave Lunacy...it's because of me, right?" Sugi pushed Ryu against the wall.. made Ryu felt very uneasy but he didn't do anything because he could feel the pain in Sugi's eyes .
"I'm sorry Ryu, I'm so sorry for what I'd done to you." Sugi murmured as he hugged Ryu tightly. "I just don't know how to express my own feeling. I'm sorry that I'd hurt you for so long."
"Sugi...I.."Ryu tried to protest ...but
"I love you Ryu" Sugi whispered ."I love you"
"WHAT" Ryu was shocked. "What are you saying ?"
"I love you ,I love you ,I love you" Sugi repeated those three words again and again.
"I pretended to ignore you because I'm afraid of my true feeling." He cupped Ryu's face up. " But now ..." He bent down and kissed Ryu softly. Sugi's soft lips build up the strange emotion inside his body. He closed his eyes when the red head gave him one more kiss ,a much more passionate one ,and then allowed Sugi's tongue to touch his own.
Ryu's conciousness came back when Sugi began to move his kisses downward to his neck. The horrible experience suddenly appeared in his mind ,he felt himself was shivering and Sugi had to know that ,too.
“ Don’t worry, Ryu” Sugi released Ryu from his embrace. “I won’t do this again” He said before he walk away to the studio.
Ryu was very confused ,millions things came up to his brain so that he didn’t know what to do.
“What should I do from now on?” He just asked to himself like that.
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He walked along the beach directionlessly. The cold sea breeze made him felt better than staying in that crowded studio. He loved the sea, since he was very little, he came to this area every time he had a problem.
He sat down on the sand, looked at the clear sky. “Can you tell me what should I do?” He whispered to the shining stars.
“ Think about it” Ino’s voice popped up to his mind. “You really wanna do that or you just wanna escape something...or someone."
“Escape…yes first I just wanna escape from Sugizo and that expirence..”. Ryuichi sighed. “ But now I know it’s because I’m too afraid of my own feeling towards that guy.” Since the first time he saw Sugi he felt like that guy had something ‘special’ to him. Although that guy was so cold , never care about him, but he didn’t know why he had to care about that guy so much.
"I love you" Sugi’s voice echoed in his mind again…love… can it be possible..?
With realization, Ryu ran back to where he had left.
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The studio…..
Ryu sighed hopelessly when he entered the dark studio. The room was empty because it was not the band’s practice time. He smile to himself ” Are you stupid Ryuichi…what did you expect? ”
But as he decided to leave, the acoustic guitar sound appeared at the corner of the room. He turned back immediately..Sugizo!!????
Although the room was dark but the dim light from outside made Ryu could see the guitarist’s clearly.
The red head was concentrated in his guitar, running his fingers through the strings. Ryu didn’t know when he began to sing along the song . Sugi raised hid head up and noticed Ryu but he still kept playing. Ryu was very surprised that he could sing very well this time…may be because he had realized his true feeling.
After the song was finished. Ryu turned to Sugi embarassingly. ”Sugi..”
“Yes”
“ I…err…I…” before he spoke out his feeling , he felt the smooth finger touched lightly at his lips.
“Don’t say anything, Ryu.” Sugi smiled, a warm and_full_with_ love smile,” Your eyes tell me everything already.”
Ryu returned the smile when Sugi kissed his forehead softly and then press his lips gently on Ryu’s own…Ryu closed his eyes , reached his hands to Sugi’s slim neck and pull the red head even closer to himself…..
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“Ryu…Ryu…” Someone called him softly. “What are you thinking, my love?”
“I just think about our old days…”he smiled .”It’s almost 10 year since then.”
“ Yes..almost 10 year” Sugi murmured as he ambraced Ryu’s slim waist. ”And we’ll be like this forever.”
He lent his head on his lover’s shoulder. “ Yes..forever..and..ever”
Wanna let you know from my heart…
Can I see your smile forever…
Love you from my heart…
Wanna collect all the light to fall upon you..
I for You…
Recall~~ finished
By Kiyono Onose : buu_chan@hotmail.com
9.15 am. 15 April 1999