[08.22.03 10:12pm] After not sleeping so much, I'm pretty dang awake ^_^; I still gotta clean my closet >_< Perhaps instead of sitting on my ass I should do that. Eh...maybe later hehehehe. Today was alrite, nothing much really happened after. My dad made me an omelet for dinner, basically to show me how it's done and to show me that he could actually make one. I feel kinda bad that I asked Chis and not my Dad ^_^; Eee so cute LMAO Been watching bunch of JPop music videos. I don't know if it's all the Japanese artists but BoA doesn't have horribly great dance moves ^_^; She's really pretty though ^_^ But yea and then Utada Hikaru has reallly nice videos full of effects and junk. Ayumi has weird clothes ^_^; Japanese people kick ass LoL

[08.22.03 11:36am] Ugh so for lunch, I decided that I'd make myself an omelet. Chis taught me how to make one the other nite (<3) and I made an ok one for him. Of course, that was with me questioning him at each of my steps ^_^; So I made my omelet but I think I added too much milk- like waaay too much and too much cheese (i heart cheese) and I didn't cook it long enough. I feel funny @_@;

[08.22.03 09:52am]  So I'm fully awake (without the help of Bawls, Amp, Dew, or a night's rest) and am waiting for critters to arrive. Woke up at like 7:30am, painfully I might add, to get ready for Meg's lil meet the teacher thing. Poor kid, her classroom's at BFE ^_^; Oh well sucks for her hehehehe. So tired >_< Slept late again ::sigh:: so crazy...of course tho its usually my fault =/ I wish I didn't have such a low self-esteem. I've been let down so harshly and frequently by other people that obviously I put up walls. They were damn good walls too. No one in, no info out.

[08.20.03 11:00pm]   Right now I'm feeling that everything I've done is unappreciated. What is the point of going through crap if in the end it's not appreciated? Is there any value to the end result? Be nice if someone actually *voiced* that they gave a shit. Actually voiced it before I tell them to? It always comes to that. I don't want to play mommy and say "remember to say thankyou." WTF is that? I say what I mean, mean what I say. If something needs to be said even if I had to be prompted at least I make it sound like my own. ::sigh:: Just have to deal. Do I want to deal? For now yes...So I won't bitch or anything to anyone in particular. I know what kind of advice I'd be given and I don't feel like taking it. Since I know that I won't take it, I'd rather not frustrate people by asking for it and not taking it. Although, I don't really ask for advice- it just kinda comes when you ask people to listen. I'm not sure, I don't really ask people for much of anything so yea. Thats what my journals are for....

[07.30.03 9:48pm]   Been wearing the gaff tape for 6 days. The first 4 days were his. Monday I kinda ruined it, today well I don't know. Waiting for the transpariencies (sp?) to print my cover on for my zine. Did I tell ya'll about my zine? I should put the pages up- each page is a picture I took and then corresponding lyrics from Emo songs. And yes, they are the typical "I'm sad, I'm crushed, my heart is broken" lines. Heh. I don't know what I'm feeling right now. I don't feel like thinking about it. I know it'll get better anyways just a ditch in the road....just gotta stop digging down -__-;
                 So Philly news wise- I'm going to check out of my dorm this Friday. I've got lots to pack. Yesterday I went shopping at Urban Outfitters (woot they are gonna open one at Aventura!) and went to the cpu lab to leech. Gotta use my thousands of dollars worth no? I think I'll print a manga or two...LMAO jkjk (I can't find any manga worth printing LOL) Hm. Rite now I'm working on my printmaking exchange (I <3 printmaking but I don't think I can survive as a printmaker as a profession) and it's really kewl ^_^ I'm actually quite proud of all my prints...well cept my mono prints but thats ok. I think I'll be working on more prints at home. Being here has kicked me back in the art mode. I need to work on my portfolio... 
                Yea so I just took a break and I printed out a color version of my zine and bought a Moca Malt from Starbucks. Yes, another 3 bucks down the toilet (LMAO literally, well eventually) and I figured if I didn't drink all those in a week I could buy a nice shirt but thats k! I've limited my intake to 3 cafe drinks a week so it's alrite. Lately I've been really tired...heh...I wonder why but yea so the stuffs wake me up (I ran out of Dew and since I'm checking out I don't wanna buy another 24 pack). K I'll go read some MegaTokyo cuz it kicks ass and I wish I had those mad skillz.

[07.09.03 6:28pm]   Thank you to everyone who gives a shit about where I am and how I'm doing. Who actually *really* care none of that yea how are you and thats it. I hate that. Whatever ::waves to like 2 people even tho they probably don't read this:: Yea I finally found a cpu lab with PCs. This school is run over by Macs ~_~ Oh well weird things. But my main thing was that the PCs had AIM <3 I've been in Philly since last week (if you didn't notice ::sigh::)and yep. I have 3 awesome roommates XD and a few out of dorm friends (eh....) and things are getting better in some aspects. I guess I did say I wanted to get away rite? I'm away. I dunno tho I keep trying to come back or be kinda still there. Nope I gotta try stopping that. Away is away.

[07.02.03 10:30am] Fight to Philly. Goodbye Florida, I don't think i'll miss you.

[06.28.03 9:42pm]   Woke up early to clean a bit and burn more CDs. My cpu is so freaking full >_< I need more memory -_-; Afterwards went to Chis' <3 His mommy bought me Mountain Dew XD I felt special XD I never get to stay over for dinner =/ This time it was cuz my dad had to do something so it was alrite. Chilled, sat in tehe hammock <3 I love hammocks. I remember laying in one when I was lil with my Godfather ^_^ Gave Chis my turtle to turtlesit for me hehehe- I was pretty sure no one in the house would be able to take care of it (Meg wanted to..so sweet) so he had to go. I kind miss him swimming around his lagoon or bathing in his lil turtle light ^_^; Afterwards, went home helped Meg with some math practice and cooked mac & cheese XD I still have my cold =*( and I feel like I'm gonna fall asleep soon from the medicine Z_Z

[06.28.03 11:32pm]   Finally a weekend >_< Woke up cuz my lil sister was running in and out of my room -_-; Got up, ate breakfast, fixed the closet while in the bg my lil sister screamed about various things ::sigh:: Afterwards, burned stuff for Lara but then my cpu got tired I guess ::sigh:: cuz then it started just messing up CDs. Started packing ^_^ I've just got some stuff like shampoo and things to buy. Hopefully I'll be able to buy em tomorrow if I wake up early enough to ask my mom.

[06.27.03 9:32pm]   Today was a long day....babysat -___-; Went to sleep. And yes, I have been sleeping. Kinda- just lots of stuff going on. I need to pack. I need to get away.

[06.26.03 8:00pm]   Babysat -___________-; This time Aiesha came over. Jeez I hope I didn't bore her to death but I had a migraine and was very tired =/ OMG while she was trying to play DDR (she hasn't really played before so I got her to try) Jay and Josh were singing loser cuz she was dying -____-; so horribly rude =/ Went to gym. Really tired. I'll go sleep.

[06.25.03 11:00pm]   Babysat as usual @_@ Went bowling with Leo ^_^ Oh man it was horrid I lost so badly the first two games ^_^; During the 2nd game I think I went to bowl the ball and like as I swung back or whatever (picture this anime style) I sent the ball backwards towards Leo ^_^; Yea it was great ^_^; It was so embarrassing ^_^; The last game I won tho HA! LOL (Just cuz the cpu thingy didn't read when I bowled so I got to bowl like 3 times till I got a strike XD) But yea, chill out people -_____-;

[06.24.03 11:45pm]   Chis just went home <3 It was funny...everyone kept staring but they didn't say anything ^_^; Today was Meg's birthday (shes 6 although she acts 16 -___-;) He didn't really fit in I guess and it didn't help that I had to run around and do stuff...I think my sisters were nice to him ^_^ and of course my critters <3ed him as usual. Meg was kinda a bum and didn't come down from upstairs for her whole party. -____________-; Special guest appearance by Bao. It was fun, I'm glad I got to invite Chis to a family thing. More points for him ^_^

[06.21.03 10:45pm]   Wow being a girl sucks lol. So emotional. -_-; Oh well. Last night/this morning. Ugh...felt horrid =( K so today woke up kinda too early but I had to find out if we were still gonna see movie. Met Chis at Muvico for Alex & Emma XD Eeeeee 1st sappy chick flick movie I've dragged him to XD SO CUTE! (I looked around and was like OMG there are like no guys here! But there were 2 others along with a bunch of women who I must note a handful were all by themselves =/) So yea afterwards I didn't get to play DDR (dang yesterday there were some azns that kept lookin ^_~) Oh! I got to wear my fav hat today XD I finally wore my blue shorts. My mom looked at me and was like are you wearing that when you go to school....jeez I finally look "girly" enough for her and she gets all ~_~ about it. Oh well. LoL it's all short shorts and long guy shorts this summer- always from one extreme to the other with me (well they aren't that short >_<) So after the movie, Chis came home with us and he bought me a slurpee @ 7-11 <3 Went to his house to pick up something for my crazy sister ^_^; Went back home and Kit Kat and Josh were already there. Their mom had to do something so I babysat them. The usual- DDR, crazy stuffs, screaming etc. Josh broke a plate and the tile got messed up I'm surprised how my mom kept that in. If it were Meg man she would have gotten it -_-; After they left, Jay & Meg went with my mommy to Blockbuster so I took a nap with Chis <3 I love how everything just kinda goes away when he's holding me XD K I'll save ya'll from the sap ^_^; Beat him in Rival Schools XP hehehehe Jay & Meg came back and started watching Spy Kids 2 then his mommy came =(

[06.21.03 12:24am]   So I'm sitting here- on the computer and its past midnight. Why am I still on? I don't know. I guess I'll talk about my day since no one else wanted to hear about it. Ya'll can always just close the windows anyway and I wouldn't know. Got up, showered, drank my medicine but I didn't eat anything prior so I got kinda sick x_x. Went to dentist, went to see Rugrats Go Wild (cute ^_^) with the critters. Dropped them off, went to the Old Navy outlet down in Miami and bought some shorts for summer and a few shirts and 2 new visors XD I love my hats XD Went home. Yea, kinda went downhill from there. Don't know what else to type...sorry if this entry isn't as enthusiastic as my others.

[06.20.03 11:45am]   Song of the moment: Ender Will Save Us All - DC