A dull rumble sent a flock of forest birds flapping out from the treeline to take flight across the red, sunscorched sky. Their cries alerted other birds quickly soon joined them, and soon a mass exodus took place, with birds scattering to far corners of the forest to escape the source of the loud noise. The rumble moved through the forest, zigging and zagging left and right seemingly at random, advancing inexorably through the trees. Where it passed, trees splintered and fell, each adding to the din. This continued for some time; the rumbling noise moving, trees falling, birds scattering away as their safe places were threatened. After a time, the advance of the noise seemed to slow, and then stop; as it did, silence fell upon the forest. Had there been any observers to this event, they would have been surprised to discover that, at the end of the trail of fallen trees stood a man. A boy. His eyes locked on the ground, his chest heaving from the effort of his exertions, a thin sheen of sweat upon his skin. He could feel his heart beat in a dull throb around his head, beneath his bandana. His eyes hardened as they stared at his shadow, stretched far in front of him by the reddish light of the setting sun. Hands tightening into fists, he spun and punched powerfully at the nearest tree; the wood disintegrated beneath his fist and with a loud creak, the lofty tree tipped away from him and fell to the earth below, accompanied by a mighty crash. He had, that day, demolished no less than four hundred and sixty-three trees. Not that he had kept count; nor had he cared in the slightest about the destruction he had caused. It did not matter to him. What did matter to him was the intense fire that burned within him, a sum of all the rage and hate he felt for the world and everything upon it. He had marched on a rampage for a week since hearing the news. The very moment that Ranma awoke Akane had taken her into her arms and held her, tears cascading from both of their faces. Akane had sobbed her thanks that Ranma had awoken; Ranma sobbed hers that the ordeal was over. It was over. The rage had taken him then. He stormed out of the clinic; out of Nerima, out of Tokyo. Away, far away, destroying as he went. Buildings, trees, moutains, it did not matter. All that mattered was that he inflict as much pain on the world as it had on him. As he stood alone in the forest he felt the anger again welling up inside him. A thousand hatreds burned in his heart; he cursed the fates for what they had done to him, he cursed the earth for bearing witness to the torment he suffered, he cursed the sky for mocking his grief by looking exactly as it had on the days he had spent with Ranko, he cursed Akane and Ranma for taking her from him. Most violently of all, he cursed Ranko for betraying her promise to him. It was that betrayal that burned so hotly in his heart, like a blade of fire stabbing him in the very soul. Throwing his head back, he cast his fists into the air and let loose an anguished cry of despair, the full fury of the anger which so thoroughly enveloped him exploding out between his lips in one moment. "Damn this world! DAMN THIS WORLD!" And when the sound finally faded, Ryouga still stood, alone, within the circle of fallen trees. His anger and desire for destruction temporarily sated, he dropped to his knees and fell forward, sobbing bitter tears of grief into the soft earth below him, his face buried in the dirt of the clearing. Not even the white-hot rage of the hell he had seen could keep him from his grief forever. * * * Ranma knelt quietly in his room, his backpack open before him. He worked quickly, folding a sleeping bag in half lengthwise before rolling it tightly. He briefly considered packing a blanket as well, but decided against it. The material of the sleeping bag was thick. He would be warm enough to sleep. Next, he neatly folded two pairs of boxer shorts, two pairs of pants and two long-sleeved shirts, a wool sweater, and a scarf. He wasn't sure how long he would be gone, or exactly where he would be going, but he knew it sometimes got extremely cold out in the wilderness. Next came a canteen, and a thermal flask. Kasumi had cheerily obliged him when he asked if she had a flask he could use; she seemed pleased at the prospect of the trip he was planning. He sighed quietly as he unscrewed the cap and screwed it shut again, twisting it tightly to ensure it was properly sealed. If only the other members of the household had been as positive about the whole trip idea as Kasumi, he would have felt better. Soun had, of course, immediately burst into tears at the thought of his future son-in-law running off to chase some boy around instead of spending time with his youngest daughter. Nabiki had responded with relative indifference to the news. Genma reacted with a stoic silence, although the faint signs of a smile had appeared on his face. The old man might have been completely irresponsible for a lot of the time in the past, but he *did* understand what it meant to fulfil a promise and keep your honour. He had backed away from Ranma while Ranko was around - Ranma suspected he was ashamed of what had happened to his son - but in the past couple of days their relationship had begun to resurface. That left Akane. She had taken it surprisingly well; there was no anger, no shouting of words. Instead there was a quiet admission of surprise, and concern. He knew she didn't want him to go. He knew she was worried about him, and he hated to make her feel that way, but he had no choice in the matter. This trip was something he simply had to do. "All packed?" The words came over his shoulder as he placed the flask into his backpack. He turned his head and looked over his shoulder at the door. "Akane..." he said, watching her pull the door open and lean agains the frame. He turned back to face the pack and pulled it closed, then reached down for the umbrella that lay beside it and tucked the heavy object under the straps atop the pack. "I, uh... yeah. All packed." "So this is it? You're leaving right now?" He stood, and turned to face her. He nodded. "Yeah." Stepping into the room, Akane pulled the door closed behind her. "Are you sure you won't reconsider, Ranma?" she asked, clasping her hands together in front of her, "I mean, it's only been a couple of days. He might come back. And you don't know if you're fully recovered yet." "We already talked 'bout this," he replied, turning to pick up his backpack. "I can't wait." "Please?" He sighed, and slung his backpack up over his shoulder, and looked back at her. He stopped, however, when he saw tears in her eyes. Placing the backpack on the ground, he stepped over to her and put his hands on her shoulders. "Hey, c'mon, there's no need to cry..." "I don't want you to leave me," she said, softly, looking down at the ground between them. "It's only for a little while, Akane. I'll be back." "What if you don't come back? I nearly lost you the other night, I don't want--" "Hey, hey, hey," he interrupted, "we both know I'll be fine. I'll be back before you know it. I promise." "But..." "But nothing, Akane. I keep my promises. That's exactly why I gotta do this. I made a promise to Ryouga, and he thinks I broke it. I gotta talk to him, tell him I didn't." "What was the promise?" "That ain't important. He needs my help. He stood by Ranko the whole time an' helped her when she needed it. Now it's my turn to help him." "But why *now*? You don't even know if you're okay yet!" "Ryouga's out there with a broken heart an' I gotta go talk to him before he does something really stupid." Akane sighed, and closed her eyes. "And it's Ryouga. If he does somethin' really stupid he could wind up hurting a lot of other folks. He's got a habit of blowing stuff up when he's mad." "And who do you think he's going to be mad *at*? He might try to hurt you!" "No, he won't." "How do you know?" "Listen," he replied, and reached up to stroke Akane's hair gently, "I know him better than you think. Trust me, okay? I'll be back before you even know I'm gone." "Why don't you let me come with you?" "I can't. This is something I gotta do alone." "I..." "I know you're afraid I won't come back. You're worried I'm just gonna vanish and leave you on your own. It's not gonna happen, okay? There's something here that'll always make me come back." "What?" "You," came the reply, with a smile. He gently squeezed her shoulders, "I've never actually *said* it before, but... well..." "But... what?" Akane asked, her eyes glimmering with both the tears she had shed and the sudden hope she felt. "I, uh... love... you," he managed, eventually. His face flushed a bright red with the last word, and his eyes flicked down to the floor, before slowly creeping back up to Akane's face to see her reaction. Akane took a moment to register the words. He'd actually *said* it. Even on the night when they had shared their first kiss, he hadn't actually told her he loved her. But now, he had. There was no romantic buildup, no angels flying on scented wings across a starlit sky, no soft shared moment spent together basking in the golden glow of their mutual love. Just three words, spoken simply by the person before her, the person who loved her. The person who was watching her daydream, with a mixture of concern and amusement. She realized she was staring, and blushed. She'd always imagined the first time she shared her feelings of love for somebody would be a magical moment, infused with the wonderous feelings of happiness and contentment, a moment that would be illuminated by a perfect white light and accompanied by the voices of an angel choir singing the virtues of their love; but no, it was an ordinary moment, a moment like any other. A moment with Ranma. She fell against him and wrapped her arms tightly around him, gratefully. "I love you too, Ranma." He slid his arms around her shoulders gently and smiled. The smile grew from one of simple fondness to one of mischief. "That and Kasumi's cooking. I sure love Kasumi's cooking. The way she gets the rice juuust right, it's--" "Ranma!" she scowled, her face forming a frown. They'd finally admitted they loved each other and here he was, acting like an idiot, spoiling it as usual. But, hey, that's who he was. That's who she loved. The frown disappeared, and Akane smiled, and began to laugh. * * * Ryouga watched the droplets of rain falling in front of him, each little ball of misery splashing against the cold, stark rock of the mountain that sheltered him. It had been raining for hours, and the cold wind that rippled over the mountain range chilled him to the bone, but he was far too miserable to care. So wrapped up in his depression was he that he couldn't be bothered to heft his umbrella and move to somewhere warmer than a clump of boulders beneath a craggy outcrop of rock on a bleak mountainside. And so it was that he stayed where he was, sitting against a smooth boulder with his knees pulled up against his chest, his shoulders hunched forward, his arms resting on his knees and dangling limply before him. The icy mountain wind swept past him time and time again, ruffling his hair in and out of his eyes, the eyes that stared coldly out at the raindrops and the black sky that spawned them. His all-consuming rage - the anger that had fuelled him for a week - had deserted him, leaving him alone, weary, his heavy heart hanging over him like the black storm clouds. The bitter feelings of anger that once saturated his soul had drained away, taking his physical strength with them; he was left with nothing. A dull throb in his heart and an overwhelming feeling of abandonment were his only companions. A sigh ushered softly forward from his lips, the breath fogging quickly amidst the cold mountain air, and drifting away to be lost amongst the rain. Summoning up what little strength he had, he managed to push back the blanket of apathy that weighed so heavily on him and reach into his backpack. His hand withdrew a moment later with a small leather wallet, a wallet he had not looked at for some time. Bringing it closer to his face, he pulled it open and stared inside. A solitary tear rolled down his cheek; he wiped it away. Pulling his eyes from the pictures inside the wallet, the only source of warmth on the dark mountain, he stared out once again over the rain-filled landscape before him. With another sigh, he returned the wallet to his backpack. * * * Ranma walked on, listening to the squelching sound his shoes made as they sank into the mud with each of his steps. The rain had subsided a day ago, but the soil in the forest was still wet. It had taken him a long time to walk this far; part of him had considered turning around and heading home days ago, but no. A promise was a promise. When he stumbled across the forest he knew he'd found the right place. Not many forests have a path of shattered trees carved into them. Although a little daunting a trail, it was a trail nonetheless, and the first real clue he'd found. He'd set off into the forest, following the path of fallen trees. His suspiscions were confirmed by the oddly twisted path the trail took; it even curved back across itself on several occasions. Only Ryouga would leave a trail like that. It had been a lengthy walk, and he was well and truly sick of walking in the mud. His frustration was only compounded when he found a small circular clearing, a rather abrupt ending to the trail. Stepping into the mud, he looked around at the bent and broken tree trunks around him, then up at the mountain range in the distance. "Dammit, Ryouga, where *are* you?" Tilting his head back to look up at the mountain range, the scarf he was wearing came loose. He quickly grabbed it, before it had a chance to fall off his neck. Squinting to make out the details of the mountain, he let out a sigh, which immediately fogged in the cool air. he thought to himself, wondering whether to start climbing or settle down for the night and continue tomorrow. Either that, or turning around and walking home, which part of him wanted to do. He missed Akane. He missed Ryouga, too. A lot. He couldn't leave him out to suffer alone on some desolate rock. Swinging his scarf back around his neck, he trudged through the mud toward the rocky base of the mountain. * * * Ryouga picked up a small pebble and turned it over and over again between his thumb and forefinger. The storm had long ended; in fact, this day had been quite sunny, although the sun was now barely peeking above the red horizon. Still, even if the weather was good, Ryouga was in no mood to move from his solitary perch. The storm may have lifted, but his spirits had not. The rumblings of hunger had joined the pack of spectres that haunted him, but he did not care enough to indulge it by searching for food. As he ran his fingertips over the smooth surface of the tiny pebble, he secretly envied it. It had probably been alone on the mountain for years, untouched, undisturbed. It was solid, impervious; it weathered the frequent storms that attacked the mountain, it was not affected by summer, winter, day or night. Nothing could touch it, or change it, or break it. he thought, as he broke the pebble in two with his fingers. With a snort, he flicked his fingers out, sending the two fragments flying outward momentarily before gravity took over and sent them tumbling down the mountainside. He listened, closing his eyes as the sound of the pebble pieces falling echoed back up to him, growing quieter, and quieter, and quieter still, and louder, and louder and... louder? He opened his eyes, curious as to why the tapping noise was growing louder. It sounded odd, for rock hitting rock; almost as if... A clump of black hair appeared, suddenly poking up on the other side of a nearby boulder. Ryouga turned his head toward it, blinking in surprise. Four fingers poked up to the left of it and gripped the rock; then four more to the right. The fingers turned white as weight was applied to them, and then, a moment later, the face below the hair popped up. "You!" Ryouga's cry startled Ranma, who had been paying more attention to the cracks below him that supported his feet than anything above him. His eyes flicked up, widening as they caught sight of the lost boy sitting up against a boulder. "Ryouga!" he exclaimed, "I found you!" "What the hell are *you* doing here?!" "I came," Ranma replied, hoisting himself up until his waist was above the rock, then pulling himself fully up onto it, "to find you." "You found me. You can go now." "Geez!" Ranma exclaimed, standing and putting his hands on his hips, "I climb all the way up this mountain and that's the welcome I get?" "Just leave me alone, damn you!" "Ryouga, you can't go on livin' alone like this." "I *wouldn't* be living alone if it wasn't for you! Go to hell!" "From the looks of you, I'm already there," came the reply. "Why the heck did you run off like that? And to here?" "Why do you *think*?" Ryouga spat, his tongue dripping with venom. "But you didn't even let me talk to you! I didn't even get a chance to explain." "Explain what? 'Oh, hi, Ryouga, I'm back. Problem solved! Oh yeah, Ranko's gone, sorry about that.' Sorry if my leaving meant you couldn't brag, but I didn't expect even *you* to follow me all the way here to rub it in my face." "That's not why I'm here!" Ranma replied, with a frown. "I'm here to explain--" "Explain how Ranko died? Give me every detail?" "No! Would you just listen?" "I bet you enjoyed it. Damn you, Ranma!" Ryouga yelled, tears coming to his eyes, "You just had to take her from me! You couldn't stand to see me happy!" "Dammit, just LISTEN to me for a minute!" "She meant everything to me and you took her away!" Ryouga cried, jumping to his feet, "You've ruined my life!" "Would you just let me expla--" "Get the hell off this mountain! You've taken everything I have, leave me alone!" "Ryouga!" Ranma yelled, clutching his hands into fists in frustration, "Just let me--" "GO! LEAVE!" "Dammit," Ranma fumed. He had tried to get Ryouga to shut up and listen, so he could take his time and say what he wanted to say in the way he wanted to say it, but he couldn't get a word in edgeways. And so it was that he was forced to blurt out what he had been worrying him for the past week, without any preparation. "Ryouga! I didn't take Ranko away. She isn't gone!" "Damn you! Why can't you just leave me alone?" "She isn't gone," Ranma repeated again, quietly. He looked away from the enraged boy before him, and let out a sigh. He didn't want to admit it, but it was true. He couldn't pretend anything else; it wasn't fair, to Ryouga, to Akane, to himself, or to Ranko. "She's me." "You?!" "That's what I've been tryin' to tell you. I'm Ranko. Happy now? I admitted it. I'm a girl! Now would you just shut up for a minute and let me talk to you?" Ryouga's shoulders slumped; he turned and faced the boulder behind him. "Talk. Then go." There was a dull thud behind him, then a rustling noise, then a splash as cold water hit the rocky surface they were standing upon. He turned, and saw Ranma before him, holding a now empty canteen upside down over her head. "It's easier to explain... like this," she said, shivering from the chill of the water. She shook her head back and forth, sending dozens of droplets flying from her hair, then sat crosslegged and placed the canteen down next to her backpack. "Sit down," she said, gesturing to a space in front of her. "No," Ryouga replied, shaking his head. "Say what you're going to say and then go." "Please? Just sit down. I'm gonna tell you something, and then if you want me to go away I'll leave and never bother you again. Just sit down... please." * * * Ranma talked for almost an hour, telling Ryouga exactly what had happened; the dreams, joining with Ranko. Ryouga's anger stayed, but it faded somewhat as Ranma related his story. It was a bizarre story, to be sure, but something about the way she told it seemed to ring true to him. "So Ranko *is* gone," he said, quietly, his eyes fixed on his own feet. "No," Ranma replied, shaking her head, "she's not gone. I'm Ranma, and I'm Ranko. It's kinda hard to describe, but... I'm both of us." "So... what? You remember--" "Getting hit in the head by your umbrella, I remember that very well." Ryouga said nothing. "Talking to you on the way to school, I remember that too." "I'll never forget it," Ryouga whispered, his eyes moistening as he closed them. "Sittin' with you up on the roof and talking. Walking around the lake with you, going to the fair with you, fighting you in the dojo, watchin' you stuff sushi into your face even quicker'n me." Ryouga bit his lip, opening his eyes again as tears streamed down his cheeks. Ranma smiled. "Pulling your porky behind in out of the rain that one night," she said, and giggled. His eyes shot up from his lap to her face, a sharp frown hovering menacingly over them. How dare she laugh at a time like this? She met his stare with her own, the smile gone from her face. "You know what I remember the best, Ryouga?" He said nothing; instead he continued to stare at her, his wet eyes hard still. "I remember falling in love with you. I remember that perfectly." Ryouga's frown disappeared, and his eyes again sank to his lap; a sob escaped him as he buried his chin in his chest. Ranma watched him for a moment, then looked down at her hands as she clasped them together in front of her. She twiddled her thumbs for a few moments, blushing as she tried to make a very important decision. Ryouga sobbed again, and again; Ranma returned her eyes to him, the light of the rising moon illuminating only half of his face, the other still hidden in shadow. With a sigh, she looked down again, and spoke, very quietly. "I still love you." "Wh... what?" he stammered, quickly looking up. "What did you say?" "I said, I still love you," Ranma repeated, looking up at him, her eyes locking on his, that were as wide as the full moon beside them. "Ranko fell in love with you, and now I love you. I wasn't sure if I wanted to come and find you. I mean... I don't want to love you! But I do, and I can't lie to myself and pretend I don't." "But you're not Ranko!" Ryouga exclaimed in surprise. "What did I just spend an hour explaining?" "I mean, even if she did join with you, you're not her!" "That's just the thing," Ranma replied, quietly. "I am. It took me ages to figure it out. Well... Ranko figured it out." "Figured what out?" Ryouga asked, bewildered. "That Ranko is me, and always has been." Ryouga said nothing for five full minutes; he just stared at her in wide-eyed shock. Eventually, the power of speech returned to him, and he managed to utter one word. "What...?" "Ranko was the bits of my personality that I pushed away and didn't let anyone see. Y'know? Pops took me on that training trip an' he was always saying I had to be a man among men. He made sure that any part a' me that wasn't manly was pushed away. So I had this whole side of my personality hidden away. I was unbalanced. "Then when I hit my head on that rock," she continued, "it all just split away and formed a personality of its own. I guess Jusenkyo had somethin' to do with it, but I dunno. Anyway, she split off and grew on her own, an' then I came back and grew away on my own too, an' we ended up as two people who seemed totally different." Ryouga suddenly had immense difficulty breathing. He closed his eyes and panted, trying to clear his head. Ranko was Ranma all along? But... but... His eyes opened as he felt a familiar warmth on his hand; he was greeted by the sight of Ranma's hand closing on his. He swallowed, and cried out for his instincts to tell him what to do. His mind stayed silent, however, and after a moment he found himself reciprocating, squeezing Ranma's hand with his. "I came to tell you that I didn't break my promise," Ranma said, softly. "I survived." "Thank you," Ryouga replied, little more than a whisper. Tears dripped down from his cheeks, and gently struck Ranma's hand, and his own. "Thank you." * * * Ranma leaned back, the middle of her back pressing against Ryouga's side. He was again sitting against the boulder, and she sat sideways next to him, leaning on him, his arm around her waist and her head tilted backwards, resting on his shoulder, her face pointed at the sky. "You have to understand," she said quietly, "I can't love you like I love Akane." "I know," Ryouga replied. "I know." "I'm going to marry her one day. I love her." "So did I, once." "But that doesn't mean I don't love you. I will always love you, and I'll always be there for you. Always." "Thank you... Ranma." "You're not alone anymore." Ryouga tilted his head back a little, and allowed a smile to cross his lips. His greatest fear had always been that he would be forever alone. Only someone who knew him as well as Ranko did could know that, and understand. "Can I ask you something, Ranma?" "Of course." "I'd like... um..." "Like what?" "It's kinda hard to ask..." She turned, until she was facing the same direction as he, and turned her head to look at him, her eyebrows arched in curiosity. He looked at her, then blushed and looked away. "Just ask." "I... uh..." he tried, looking up at her again. His cheeks reddened further, and for a moment his eyes looked away; but they quickly snapped back to her face, a new look of determination behind them as he stared into her milky white eyes. "Oh, forget asking. You only live once." With that, and with no other warning, he launched his face at hers. She barely had time to blink before his lips were pressed against hers in a kiss, his eyes closed as his arm held her against him. She flailed for a moment, wide-eyed, but slowly, gradually, stopped resisting. Her eyes closed, and her arms wrapped themselves around him as she returned his kiss. They kissed for a long time, and for a brief moment, Ryouga and his beloved Ranko were together again, a young couple in love under the bright eyes of a billion stars. The kiss ended; Ryouga pulled back a fraction of an inch, and Ranma briefly tried to touch her lips to his once more. She stopped, however, and for a time they sat together, panting, their warm breath washing over each other's face, their noses and foreheads touching, their eyes closed. "Ryouga... you shouldn't..." Ranma breathed. "I know... I just had to, one more time. I'm sorry." "Don't be," she replied, squeezing him gently in her arms as her eyes opened. "I just don't know if it was the right thing to do." "Don't worry," he said, quietly. "I won't do it again. I won't make you choose between me and Akane. Just... knowing that you care is enough." A smile came to Ranma's lips. "Thank you. I can see why Ranko fell in love with you. It scared the hell out of me at first, but... I'm glad that I love you, Ryouga." "I love you too..." Ryouga began, and fell into a moment of silence. Ranma pulled back, and looked at his face. He met her with a smile. "Ranma." "Will you come back to Nerima? You don't have to stick around all the time if you don't want to, but I want you to visit from time to time." "I will. To tell the truth, I was getting fed up of this rock anyway." She laughed, then turned to her side and again rested her head on his shoulder. A moment of companionable silence was shared between them, neither speaking; neither needing to. Ranma looked up at the night sky and watched the stars twinkle, each not alone in space, but part of a magnificent galactic orchestra; the light of each, tiny as it was, adding to the spectacular symphony that illuminated even the darkest of nights. "Tell me a story, Ryouga." "A story?" Ranma smiled, and took his hand in hers again. "Yeah. A story about the stars." And so the pair stayed together that night on the mountain, keeping each other's company as Ryouga spoke and Ranma raptly listened, both bathing in the light of the moon as it made its journey across the sky. For that night, just one more night, they belonged to each other, and the night belonged to them. --- FIN