This is a part warning. When I wrote my last fic, around October last year, I had never read a j-rock novel in english - they didn't exist back then. All I had read was the ones in Japanese. So, I wrote mine in the style of the Japanese ones, except in English. I thought this would be perfectly acceptable, except some people (ok, one particular person) suffered a particularly terrible reaction to some of the events in the novel.... These happen quite often in Japanese stories, but almost never in English. But I didn't know that, ok? Well anyway, onto the warning.... Japanese novels tend to contain more violence, be less happier and contain....um, 'non-consentual' stuff quite often. I don't know why there's the difference....but anyway, if this stuff offends you, then you should go back to reading the nice, happy English stories and keep away from this one, ok? Special thanks to dalamar, without whom this warning would not exist!

~forest~

 The large, white painted house filled Sakura's vision as he stepped out of the vehicle which had stopped in front of it. The other three sides of the house were surrounded by a thick grove of trees, and he found the green and white almost piercing against the clear blue sky.
 He checked the address one more time, narrowing his eyes to see it in the bright sunlight. It was correct. Receiving his suitcases from the man who had driven him, he paid him and began walking along the path through the beautiful garden, heading for the front door.
 Halfway there, he suddenly got the feeling someone was watching him.

 "This sucks." Coming to stand alongside the tall figure that was staring out the window with a small smile on his lips, the smaller one spoke.
 "Don't sulk, hyde." His hand reached out and touched hyde's hair absently. He didn't move his eyes from the window.
 "Why's he coming to stay here anyway? Is he poor?" Hyde's normally pretty face now had a sulky, arrogant expression. He didn't like him and tetsu's privacy being invaded by this stranger. And, he wasn't sure about tetsu's motives.
 Tetsu finally tore his eyes away from the window, annoyed. "I _told_ you. His wife died."
 "That doesn't explain why he has to come here."
 Tetsu looked back out the window, where Sakura had paid the driver and was now heading towards the house. "Well, she was still very young you see, and he lost his child as well, so he needed a break. And he's friends with Ken, and he recommended here."
 "But - " But tetsu had already turned from the window as he saw Sakura approaching the door, and was heading down the stairs. "Aren't you going to come to meet him?"
 Hyde shook his head and himself looked out of the window at the figure which had become more visible as it approached. He stared at him for a long time, his facial expression unreadable.

 Sakura had been getting more and more fed up with this idea on the way there, and as he stood at the front door of the mansion, he considered leaving.
 "Who does ken think he is, sending me to a f-king babysitter?" Sakura half-turned around before the door was suddenly pulled open.
A beautiful woman stood behind the door.
 Sakura turned back as he caught sight of her in the corner of his eye.  "Oh.." he said softly, before suddenly looking at the woman more closely. "Oh, it's just you, tetsu."
 "I'm glad you decided to come." was tetsu's greeting. He stepped back from the door, inviting Sakura to come in. A woman Sakura guessed was the maid came and took his suitcase.
 "I'm glad you came now because.... I was just about to go out." tetsu still hadn't even so much as smiled. He wasn't exactly looking excited about Sakura's arrival. Well, it wasn't like they were old friends or anything, Sakura thought. They'd met only once before.
 He looked in silence around the large room. It was very nice; tetsu must be very rich. The house was enormous.
 He looked to the side when he noticed tetsu's gaze. But when he looked around to meet his gaze, he looked away.
 "Well....I'm going out now. I was waiting for you to arrive before I left."
 "What? Aren't you going to - "
 "Do you remember what I said?"
 "About??"
 "You won't be a guest here. I don't want a guest. If you're living here, you're living here. You get the same treatment as anyone else."
Sakura nodded, slowly.
 Tetsu finally gave a small smile. Then he took Sakura's arm gently and led him to the stairs. He pointed upwards. "Your room's on the third floor, to the left. Get hyde to show you around." Slowly releasing his arm, tetsu left.
 "Wait - " he called. Tetsu had already disappeared.
 "Who's 'hyde'..." he said to himself.

 Sakura slowly lowered himself onto his bed. He felt uncomfortable and out of place. He didn't belong here. If the host had been someone else, he might have left right now. But there was something ..... interesting about tetsu.
 He sighed, and lay down on the bed. His luggage lay open on the floor in the middle of the room, but he couldn't be bothered starting to unpack. He closed his eyes.
 After a minute, he got the idea someone was watching him.
 He opened his eyes slowly.
 A small girl stood at the doorway, gazing at him. His first thought was that she was the most beautiful girl he'd ever seen; she looked simply too beautiful to be alive. The gaze she fixed on Sakura with her beautiful wide dark eyes was not the curious stare of a child but another, something grave and intelligent. He felt uncomfortable.
 "....Who are you?" he asked. He couldn't remember tetsu mentioning anything about a girlfriend or wife. Maybe she didn't live here.
 The girl didn't answer, just stepped inside the doorway, eyeing Sakura like he was some new, interesting species of bug. As she came into full view, Sakura noticed something else.
 She was wearing long, white robes instead of a dress, and around her neck were many beaded necklaces. What Sakura noticed was the way the robes and the necklaces fell straight down over the chest, and the neck which was cut low at the front and revealed it to be perfectly flat. "She" was actually a "he".
 "Damn....." The last 'interesting' part of staying here had just been removed.
 The boy - Sakura could not bring himself to think of him as a "man" even though he was obviously older - moved forward to an open suitcase and pulled out the small blue jewelry box lying on top of it. "Waah, pretty!! What's this?"
 Sakura sat up suddenly. "Hey, put that down."
 He looked up at him for a second and then, ignoring him, began to open the box. He was obviously not used to being told what to do.
 Sakura stood up. "Put that down!! It's not yours!"
 Not even looking up, he opened the box. "Ooh, a picture. Who is she?" He stepped back quickly as Sakura grabbed for it.
 "Give it to me!!" Sakura made another grab. He pulled backwards. "You stupid little brat!"
 He dodged again, but before Sakura started to get really angry he held out the box. "Here you go then. I only wanted to look at it."
 Sakura took it back angrily. "Who the hell are you anyway?"
 "I'm hyde. I live here."
 "You're.......hyde........" Sakura began to realize he'd just called one of his hosts a 'stupid little brat'.
 "And you're Sakura." He gave a sweet, almost flirtatious smile.
 Sakura nodded, letting his eyes flicker over the figure in front of him. He really was tiny. The thin robes he wore covered most of his body but he could see the skin on the hands and face was smooth and perfect.
 And the skin on the neck.... And the top of the chest......Sakura looked away, embarrassed. To take his mind away, he asked "What relation are you to tetsu? Why do you live here?"
 He shrugged. "I've known him for a very long time..."
 "His friend?"
 Hyde suddenly looked up and eyed Sakura suspiciously. "Hang on...what do you think I am?"
 "...What??"
 "Male, or female?"
 "Um..." Sakura could feel his face going hot. "Well.... male of course...."
 "How the hell did you know?"
 "Well...." Sakura coughed. "It's quite obvious isn't it.... I mean your chest......" Suddenly he felt horribly embarrassed. Was it because he had a habit of looking around _that_ area that he'd noticed more quickly than most people?
 Hyde suddenly smiled, his eyes wide with amazement. "Sugoi!! You noticed so quickly! You must be very smart..." At his smile, his whole face lit up angelically, and Sakura felt his heart melting. He'd never felt this way before. He smiled back but looked away as he did so. More than anything he wanted hyde to leave right now, just so he could be in private to get himself sorted out and recover. But now, hyde moved towards one of his suitcases, obviously finding it an extremely exciting object.
 "Do you want me to help you..." he mumbled, but hardly looked at Sakura as he said it. Obviously, it wasn't really Sakura's choice.

 "Hello?"
 "Hey, ken-chan?" He needed an escape from this suffocating atmosphere.
It was too weird. He didn't know what to think. His head was totally in a blur. The last three weeks had been spent adapting to what was not like a new home, but a new world...
 This house seemed so isolated, and not just physically. Sakura would have left straight away, had it not been for the strange fascination he had with the inhabitants. He didn't know why, but Sakura couldn't stop thinking about them.
 The enigmatic, rarely seen tetsu.... At first he'd thought he was pretty rude - the lacks of words, the way he never smiled - but when he looked at him more closely, saw the kindness in his face and eyes, he blamed it more on shyness. Whatever it was about tetsu, it compelled Sakura to stay.
 And then there was the other one, hyde. Who seemed to ignore Sakura except when it was personally convenient to him. Who'd basically not spoken to him since the first day he came. Always looking at him in a kind of bored, disinterested way, the way a cat might look at someone it doesn't particularly like.
 In fact, most of the things hyde did seemed to be quite cat-like, Sakura had noticed. He was like a pet that just sat around waiting for his master. Always curled up in the sun sleeping, always disappearing for long periods of time. And in response tetsu seemed to treat him like a cat as well, spending time with him only when it was convenient to him, talking to him almost like a child. And when they were together, he'd always pat and stroke hyde, who would curl up to him, like a cat.
 But it didn't seem like they were actually 'together' in that way - to Sakura's relief. Sakura had noticed they had separate rooms, which made it pretty obvious.
 Hyde disappeared a lot, which Sakura didn't mind at first...but after a while he felt he wanted some company. I mean, he was meant to be here to relax and get away from everyone, but he could only bear so much....
 He decided to contact ken. He'd wanted to before but was scared that that bitchy girl ken lived with, Tomiko, would answer - the very reason he hadn't been able to just go and stay with ken in the first place.
 Luckily, ken had answered.
 "So how's life going for you?"
 "Naa, it's weird man!"
 "So what do you think of hyde and tetsu?"
 "Hmmm....."
 "Well?"
 "Tetsu's nice but too shy..... hyde's really pretty and seems to know it, he's so arrogant man.... he won't even talk to me.."
 "Really? haido? Hmm I guess so, I don't know tetsu myself that well but I've known hyde for ages..."
 Sakura lay down on his bed. The bright sunlight streaming in from the windows annoyed him, and he shut the thick curtains. The darkness was comforting.
 Suddenly, he had an urge to talk about these two people. After all, there wasn't much else in his life right now.
 "Ne, you've known hyde for a long time then...... so tell me why he's......I mean why they're......"
 "Why he's what? Hey, why are you so interested?"
 Sakura grinned. "No reason. Ne, just tell me why he acts so weird......"
 "Hmm...... hyde, hyde, let me think....you know about his and tetsu's mothers, don't you?"
 "No...."
 "Hyde is tetsu's second cousin, I think. I _think_ their mothers were cousins. Tetsu's family is really powerful, and hyde's wasn't, so before hyde was born, hyde's mother wanted her daughter to marry tetsu, who was just a baby..."
 "Sounds interesting....."
 "It is. Hyde's told me all about it. Everyone predicted the baby would be a girl, and then hyde's mother has hyde, everyone's expecting a girl ne, including tetsu's mother..."
 "So..."
 "So hyde got raised as tetsu's wife, cos his mother's too chicken to admit she has no daughter yet. And she tried and tried as hyde got older, to have a daughter before hyde got too old, but she had like three sons......"
 "Wow..."
 "And hyde got raised with tetsu, thinking he's a girl....."
 "So that explains it... wow, that's really weird! So ne, what happened?"
 "Well, that's the funny thing.... Tetsu's mother always had all these mental problems, she got sicker and sicker, and then died, when hyde was only about fourteen...."
 Sakura began to laugh. "Really?"
 Ken laughed as well. "Sakura! Don't laugh, you're crazy man! You're meant to be in mourning........Anyway, hyde's mother decided it wasn't worth it. They moved, I think, and left hyde there. Poor hyde, really. It's not his fault."
 "Mm.....so what's - "
 His question was interrupted by a voice in the background and Ken's subsequent apology. "Just a minute... oh hang on.... I gotta go......"
 "Ken!" Sakura's face creased in annoyance. "She's your girlfriend, not your damn mother! Just tell her - "
 "I'm sorry, but it's really an emergency... really, I'll see you sometime, ok?"
 Sakura sighed as he hung up. That damn bitch...... ken always seemed to have the worst taste in women. Sure this one was attractive, but she treated him like shit...
 Well, it was more luck than he'd ever had. At least she was _breathing_. Sighing, Sakura turned face-down into the pillow, trying to block out the memories along with his vision.
 His love for her hadn't even been that strong... Sakura always told himself he'd never really loved a woman. And never would. He didn't know why. Maybe he was just a loner by nature. But he had felt something.....not deep, true love that everyone seemed to talk about. Maybe a sort of affectionate love. Deep friendship. But nothing else.
 But still, he missed her like hell.....at least he hadn't been alone....
 Sighing again, he reached for the container of anti-depressants on the bedside table. The label carefully prescribed "One to two a day". He grabbed four and stuffed them into his mouth, wincing at the powerful taste. Doing this all the time, no wonder the days passed so quickly...

 A knock at the door.
 Sakura sat up blinking in the semi-darkness, pulled out of his semi-fantasy by the sharp sound. "Yeah.....what?"
 To his surprise, hyde entered.
 "Hyde...what is it?" He lay back down on the bed, eyeing the small, white-clad figure.
 Hyde smiled. "Well.. I made some food, I was wondering if you want some?"
 Sakura blinked in surprise. It was no wonder that even with such a big house, they only had one maid - hyde seemed to do heaps of this stuff by himself. But, could this be happening, hyde was being nice to him? The last nice words he'd given were on the day Sakura had came.
 He nodded, observing hyde's slight smile. It changed his face so much - the angelic image was gone, replaced with an almost wicked one. He's so pretty....thought Sakura. Especially with his hair tied back like that.... he had to stop that thought right now. He stood up, and allowed hyde to take him into the kitchen.

 "Hey, this is actually pretty good hyde! You're a good cook." Sakura exclaimed.
 Hyde smiled. "Thank you."
 "So what made you suddenly decide to let me eat your cooking?"
 "What do you mean?" Hyde tilted his head to one side and looked at him curiously.
 "Well, the way you've been ignoring me for the past three weeks since I got here..."
 Hyde's smile widened, and Sakura saw his teeth were pointed in a strange way, like a vampire's. It made him look so cute. He looked down at his food again quickly as he felt a weird sensation in his chest. Not quite pain, but....
 "I haven't been ignoring you." hyde continued. "I was just watching you, you know, observing, seeing if you were worth talking to..."
 "And I passed the test?"
 Hyde nodded. "Sorry, I don't really like strangers. But I've been watching you for so long, you're not really a stranger any more."
 Sakura didn't know how to react; he looked down at his food. The next second, hyde had taken his hand in his.
 "I'm saying, I want to be your friend...."

 Hyde lay stretched out on the grass beneath the tall trees. A few rows of trees away, the forest ended in a clearing near the edge of a high cliff. This was where hyde came for most of the time in the day.
 It was a beautiful place. Over the edge of the cliff, a vast expanse of uninterrupted forest was visible. In the space between the edge of the cliff and the forest was a small strip of land with a clearing at this particular area. At the edge of the forest was a swing hyde had made, hanging from one of the trees.
 It took about 10 minutes to walk through the forest behind tetsu's house in order to get to this place. Hyde, and now Sakura too, came here almost every day. It seemed to be hyde's "secret place" which only he knew about. Except Sakura.
 Without tetsu around, he and hyde were left alone most of the time.
Hyde must have been pretty lonely before I came, Sakura had thought, because these days hyde seemed to have nothing else to do but talk to him. Despite his initial doubts, hyde seemed happy enough to have Sakura around as a friend. So, he had taken him through the forest to this place. Whenever hyde was not in the house, he could always find him here. It was nice.
 On this day, Sakura was sitting down next to him, leaning against a tree.
 "What's wrong?" hyde asked, noticing his slightly annoyed expression.
 "I don't know.... You wanna go out somewhere?"
 "Where?"
 "I don't know, is there a town near here?"
 "Not too far away...I'll tell you how to get there."
 "Don't you want to come as well?"
 Hyde shook his head.
 "Why not? Why do you stay here all the time? You haven't left this place since I came."
 Hyde's face clouded over slightly. Sakura realised he'd been rude. But before he could speak, hyde said "I don't want to. I told you, I don't like strangers."
 "You're scared?"
 "No. I _don't like_ them, ok?"
 "Ok, ok. It's just....ne, it would be fun, you should come with me..."
 "Look, you're younger than me, _don't_ tell me what I should and shouldn't do. I've had heaps of people trying to tell me before..." He sighed.
 "I'm sorry."
 "I wouldn't take any advice from you....in fact, I could give you some advice..."
 "You want to give me advice on my life?"
 "Yes. For a start, you should stop taking all those drugs."
 "What?? I mean, how do you know...."
 "Cos someone who has just lost his wife isn't so relaxed and happy all the time... you shouldn't, it's bad for your health, you know..." Seeing Sakura's serious expression, he smiled at him, and stretched his arms far over his head
 "You really loved her, didn't you." he asked quietly.
 "Not really. It was an arranged marriage."
 "But still....I can tell..."
 "Mmm..." Sakura didn't want to look at his face. He noticed suddenly the top half of hyde's robes had pulled up when he stretched his arms up, revealing a small strip of white skin around his waist. It looked so beautiful....he pulled his eyes away sharply, feeling a strange increase in his blood pressure.
 It was just his _waist_ for god's sake, what was wrong with him? Nothing so insignificant had ever made him feel this way before, even on a woman...
 Ahh, what a pervert I am, he thought. I've been here too long.
 He looked back at hyde's face and saw he was looking at him. He couldn't have noticed, could he? Or was he doing it on purpose, flirting with him....
 Aargh, this is too confusing, he thought.
 Hyde was smiling at him. This was definitely no accident.
 "Er...." He needed to say something, to break this situation.  "I...I've gotta go." He stood up quickly, and walked off before hyde could ask him where to.
 "Dammit!" He stormed through the forest. What the hell was that? And what's more, now he'd separated from hyde with nowhere else to go.
I might not get to even talk to him until tomorrow, he thought, and was surprised at how much the thought disturbed him.
 It was the same pain he'd had before, in his chest. It was there all the time, refusing to let up. He couldn't even quite figure out what it was that attracted him to hyde - only that the pain would only go when hyde was by his side.

 The room was almost pitch black, Sakura's cute figure lying in almost the same position hyde had found him a few weeks earlier. He hesitated for a moment, deciding whether or not to wake him, then flung open the door wider, moving towards the bed with his usual arrogant stride.
 "Sakura!"
 "Arrgh.........leave me alone....." He screwed up his eyes against the faint light let in from the hallway.
Hyde sat on the edge of the bed, and absently reached out to touch his hair.  "You look pale..."
 At the light touch, Sakura was jerked completely out of sleep. Without thinking, he batted hyde's hand away.
 He turned over and put his head under the pillow, wanting hyde to go away now before this got dangerous.
 Hyde's touch continued, moving lightly over the muscles on Sakura's forearm. "Where did you go last night? You got some stuff? Can I see?"
He's so childish, Sakura thought. There's no way I could feel anything for him. It's just friendship. What happened yesterday was just a freak occurrence.
 Hyde picked up the packet of cigarettes lying on the bedside table and extracted one. "Ne, Sakura..." He put one in his mouth and lit it, taking a deep breath.
 His throat muscles convulsed; he began to cough violently. Sakura, surprised, twisted around quickly and moved the pillow away.
 "What the hell are you - "
 Hyde, still coughing, took the cigarette out of his mouth and shoved it into Sakura's. "Fine, you have it then."
 "What the hell was that for?"
 "Don't be mad. I was just trying to get your attention. And it worked, didn't it? And, now we've shared a cigarette, it's like - " He paused with an evil smile. " - it's like I've kissed you."
 Now it was Sakura's turn to cough; it finally dawned in his sleep-heavy brain that the dampness of the cigarette was in fact hyde's saliva. He took it out of his mouth and sat up to look at hyde, their eyes meeting.
What is he _doing_ to me......
 Sakura opened his mouth, needing to say something, but not knowing what. "I - "
 "Hyde!!"
 "Ah, tet-chan!" Hyde stood up off the bed and hurried out of the room to the source of the voice, without so much as glancing at Sakura.
Friendship? Do friends kiss? he thought. Well, despite what hyde thinks......

 "What were you doing?" Tetsu asked hyde as he came to sit next to him.
 "Talking to Sakura.  Ne, where were _you_ last night? I was waiting...I wanted to talk to you."
 Tetsu shrugged. "Nowhere important." At hyde's sigh, he reached out to touch his face, his fingers sliding gently over the soft skin.
 "What's wrong?" he said. "Isn't Sakura being nice to you?"
 "Yes....yes but....." hyde just looked at him with troubled eyes, unable to say what was bothering him.
 Tetsu drew him closer. "There's something bothering you?"
 Hyde didn't speak, he knew if he complained tetsu would just get angry, as usual.
  "Are you lonely again?" He tilted hyde's face towards his, drawing it nearer to kiss the soft lips. "You have Sakura now, to keep you company." As he spoke, a small smirk played across his lips.
 "But tetsu - " The words were blocked by another kiss.
 "Ok." He whispered, breaking the kiss. "Come to my room tonight." As he bent down to once again claim hyde's lips, the door opened.
Tetsu pulled away with a jerk of surprise. He was not used to being interrupted. "Oh! Sakura. Good morning."
 Sakura eyed them suspiciously, but seemed to convince himself otherwise as his face went clear. "hi, tetsu. Are you going to be home today?"
 "No, I don't think I am." Tetsu caught sight of hyde's disappointed look and quickly stood up, disentangling himself from hyde's arms which were wrapped loosely around his waist. He took hold of Sakura's hand and led him to the kitchen. "Do you want to eat lunch now?"
 Sakura allowed himself to be led, feeling hyde's glare digging into his back.
 Tetsu turned, and gave hyde a look Sakura could not see. He looked back at Sakura, anger now evident on his pretty face.

 What the hell was he meant to think? Hyde and tetsu weren't together, he was sure of that. Especially with the way hyde had been flirting with him. Maybe he'd just walked in at a really bad time. But he swore he'd heard tetsu's words - "Come to my room tonight." It was probably something innocent, but he needed to know.
 He made the rare decision to avoid hyde, and went back into his room.
Whatever he thought about hyde right now, whether it was love or not, it didn't matter. He could sort that out later. Right now, he needed to just make sure of something. If he'd gotten it wrong, he didn't know what he'd do.
 There was only one way to be sure.

 Sakura froze as the door of tetsu's room opened and tetsu appeared. Through the thin crack of dim light where the door of the cupboard connected to the main frame, he could see tetsu clearly as he sat down on the edge of the bed and started taking off him shoes and socks. Then, slowly, he reached up and let his hair down, smoothing it into place.
 Now Sakura could look at him like this, uninterrupted, he could see that in reality he was very beautiful. In fact, he almost felt a slight physical attraction, but... it was nothing compared to the other.
 As if summoned by Sakura's thought, there was a soft knocking at the door.
 "Hyde? Come in." Sakura saw tetsu stand up to welcome hyde into the room. Hyde sat down on the bed. Tetsu sat down next to him, leaning close and saying a few words to him Sakura couldn't catch.
 Whatever it was, tetsu's face now looked slightly upset.
 "Why are you angry?" hyde asked.
 Tetsu didn't answer. He leant forward and kissed hyde on the lips.
 "!?" Sakura covered his mouth as he gasped in surprise. He felt his heart tear apart at the horrible realisation.
 Hyde's arms wrapped around tetsu's neck.
 Sakura felt like someone was squeezing his chest in a clamp. Never had he felt such pain, such anger. He wanted to burst out of the cupboard and tear tetsu away from hyde.
 But, he couldn't. He bit his lip.
 There was nothing he could do but watch.
 Tetsu, after breaking the kiss, had whispered something also to hyde, who nodded. Tetsu then lay backwards, so hyde fell too into a lying position on top of him. Then, he began to remove tetsu's clothing.
 Sakura could almost not control the surprise and hurt that tore through him. Of course, he'd almost known all along. He should have known, but actually _seeing_ it...and what hyde was doing...
 Hyde's lips moved slowly, gently over tetsu's skin, moving down from him face and neck, down to his chest. In the pale light Sakura could see his beautiful face was expressionless, like a doll's. Sakura felt his heart reaching out to hyde, he wanted to stop this, but he could do nothing. He clenched his fists.
 Tetsu gasped slightly as hyde's lips moved even lower. He leaned forward off the bed, clutching at hyde's hair.
 Hyde's face remained expressionless as his lips moved over tetsu's body, his hands circling around him, bringing him upwards. Tetsu seemed suddenly unable to bear it anymore. He sat up and grabbed hyde, kissing him on the lips again. Then, he pushed hyde down so he was finally on top of him. Pinning him down, tetsu began to remove hyde's clothing.
 Sakura watched as the last of it was removed. Holding each of hyde's wrists in his hands, tetsu kissed his neck. Hyde was groaning. He began to cry out, the cries gradually becoming louder in the silent room. "Ah...ah.... tet-chan... oh..."
 Tetsu's hands let go of the wrists and hyde's arms went to tetsu's shoulders, as if trying to resist him.
 Sakura looked away from the crack of light, squeezed his eyes shut. But hyde's cries still penetrated his ears. He heard a short, sudden cry of pain and looked up.
 Tetsu moved his fingers inside hyde, hearing the cries turn more into ones of pleasure as hyde's nails gripped into his back. He moved his mouth up from hyde's neck, biting his ear.
 "Aah.....tetsu..." Hyde moaned as tetsu pulled the fingers out, his face seeming hurt at the sudden emptiness. Tetsu kissed him on the lips, moving his tongue to force the mouth open. "Aaah... uh...."
 Sakura stared at the spectre on the bed, the illusion of what appeared to be two beautiful women. Although it was unbearable, he could not bring himself to tear his eyes away.
 Tetsu pulled away from hyde, a slight smile on his lips as he sat up slightly and lifted hyde's leg, pushing them wide apart. Hyde groaned.
 "You want it?"
 "Ahh....yes...tetsu....ah!!" Hyde cried out as tetsu pushed the legs wider, bringing one onto his shoulder.
 He waited for another second, smiling. Hyde's face was twisted in discomfort.
 "......please... tetsu, tetsu..." Hyde was close to tears.
 Tetsu's hand reached down, caressing hyde quite gently. Then, moving hyde's body slightly, he moved his hips forward.
 "Aa.......aaaaa!!" Hyde's screams were not completely those of pain.  Gradually, they quietened into uneven gasps which flooded the room.
 "Aa....tetsu, tetsu......"
 "haido......"
 Sakura covered his ears but the sounds echoed painfully inside his head, over and over.
 Tetsu moved his hips forward more. "Aah! Ah...please...." Hyde's voice, on the verge of tears. Even with his hands blocking his ears the cries penetrated as they gradually became louder and faster.
 My hyde, what's he doing to my hyde, Sakura thought crazily, wanting to die. Still he turned his head towards the view, still a relatively calm expression showing on his face. He saw it just as tetsu appeared to have finished; he pulled out of hyde. Hyde groaned slightly.
 Tetsu sat up, looking down at hyde until he opened his eyes. Hyde gave a small smile, and tetsu smiled back as he pulled him upwards into his arms, holding him close.
 The scene in front of Sakura was beautiful, horribly beautiful. Tetsu was beautiful. Hyde was beautiful. But hyde... Sakura still felt the stong hurt he'd never experienced before. He'd never really allowed himself to get that close to anyone, he'd always tried to be sort of a loner that had no obligations to anyone.... now he let up just once, and this was what he felt....if this was what love was, he never wanted to experience it again.
Once again he looked up. It appeared hyde had fallen asleep in tetsu's arms.
"Hyde?" Tetsu shook him slightly. "I'll take you back to your bed now, ok?"
Sakura wondered for a moment why they had separate rooms, before realising that this was his chance to get out. After tetsu had put their clothes on and carried hyde out of the room, he quickly burst out of the cupboard and hurried out. He managed to make it to his own room just before tetsu departed hyde's.
 Gasping from the sudden aldrenalin rush, he lay down on the bed. Hyde.......hyde......hyde......the images repeated through his head. The hurt he'd been feeling before was gradually changing into a sort of cold anger. In the morning, he'd confront hyde. Hyde, who had let his feelings advance to this point, without dispelling the vital piece of information that he was owned by someone else.

 "I saw you last night."
 "Eh?" Hyde turned around from the mirror where he'd been brushing his long hair. His face was full of confusion. He didn't understand.
 "With tetsu."
 Hyde's face was first filled with fear, then disbelief, and then anger. "What?... What do you mean?" Sakura could tell he was trying to tell himself that it was a misunderstanding.
 "I saw you two together. Why the hell didn't you tell me?"
 "You saw us? How did you.... I..."
 "I hid in the closet."
 "What?" Hyde stood up. His face was filled with disbelief and horror.  "How could you, spying on me like that..." He became more and more angry. "How dare you!"
 "That's not important!! Tell me why you didn't tell me of this earlier!" Sakura yelled, his feelings overflowing.
 "How dare you...spy on me....why the hell did you do that?!" Hyde yelled.
 Sakura paused. He didn't know why, exactly. He wasn't used to being asked why he did things. Usually he just did what he felt like.
 Hyde was becoming increasingly angry and upset by the second. He was beginning to cry. He seemed more angry about the fact Sakura had actually seen him and tetsu than the fact he'd found out about them.
 "Why didn't you tell me?!" Sakura repeated. "Why the hell did you let me..." He was going to say "fall in love with you", but stopped.
Hyde was remembering what had happened last night, he wanted to die when he thought of someone else seeing it. "Shut up! It's not important. It was perfectly obvious! Nothing gives you the right to spy on me!!" He picked up a metal ornament from the dressing table and threw it at Sakura's head. Sakura ducked, barely missing it.
 Hyde began to cry. "How could you do that..... I hate you... TETSU!!" he screamed suddenly, falling onto his knees holding his face, next to the dressing table. Sakura, surprised by this unexpected reaction, didn't know what to do. He heard tetsu hurry into the room. Tetsu saw hyde sitting on the floor and hurriedly went over and wrapped his arms around him. Hyde burst into loud sobbing and hugged tetsu back, clinging to him tight.
 "Shh...shh hyde it's ok, don't cry, I'm here...." tetsu whispered softly to him, gently stroking his hair. Hyde continued to sob, but seemed to be calming down. Over his head, tetsu looked over to Sakura, who stood looking shocked. Tetsu gave a sort of knowing, apologetic smile. Sakura smiled back, uneasily.
 When hyde finally appeared to have calmed down and just lay quietly in tetsu's arms, tetsu spoke, rocking hyde back and forth slightly. "Are you ok now, hyde?"
 Hyde nodded.
 "Ok, I have to go now, do you think you'll be ok by yourself?"
 "No, tetsu, please don't go..."
 "I have to." He pushed hyde away gently.
 Sakura couldn't believe it. Hyde had obviously just had some sort of breakdown, tetsu was just going to leave him? Standing awkwardly in the middle of the room, he cleared his throat.
 Tetsu looked up at him as he managed to peel hyde off him and lay him down on his bed. "You just lie down for a while there, ok?" Hyde nodded, his eyes still red from crying. Tetsu smiled at Sakura again.
 "I have to talk to you." Sakura said as tetsu went past him. Tetsu nodded and they left the room, tetsu calling good bye to hyde. Tetsu shut the door quietly after him.
 "I guess I should tell you about hyde. I'm really sorry about that. He gets upset by certain things sometimes, and he can panic like that. He was attacked by some guys when he was younger, you know, and since then he gets upset if I'm not around."
 Sakura nodded, in mild disbelief. Attacked? By who? He thought maybe hyde would tell him about it. He said "I think I might have provoked it. Because, I told hyde I saw him last night, with you."
 Tetsu looked around, surprised. "What?"
 "I saw you and him in bed together."
 Tetsu looked shocked, and then, to Sakura's surprise, gave a sneaky smile. "Oh, you were secretly watching?"
 Sakura, surprised at this very different response from tetsu, nodded. Tetsu laughed delightedly, as if it was all a big joke. "Why did you do that?"
 Sakura was angry. "Why the hell didn't you tell me you two were... together?"
 "What? I thought it was obvious." Tetsu, still smiling, held out his hand to show a ring. Sakura just stared at it.
 "You're...married?"
 Tetsu laughed again. "Not really. Cos hyde's not a girl, ne? But... we will spend our life together." But he looked sort of bored as he said it. He looked thoughtful for a second, and then to Sakura's surprise, reached out and touched his face softly. Sakura stepped back, but then there was a wall behind his back. Tetsu laughed again.
 "Why do you look so upset about it. It doesn't really.... mean anything.... you know, although hyde might think it does....he's always getting so jealous and upset at me." He sighed as he moved closer to Sakura. "But who knows....maybe you still have a chance......"
 As he spoke he moved his face even closer, so their lips were almost touching. Sakura said "But....you're with hyde...."
 "Hyde doesn't matter...." Tetsu's lips brushed his, so softly he barely noticed the faint touch.
 For one moment, which he later hated himself for, Sakura was tempted. After all, tetsu was very attractive, and he desperately needed someone.....
But he couldn't do that to hyde. He didn't want anyone but hyde. As tetsu's lips once again touched his, he pushed him away. "No! What about hyde?!"
Tetsu looked faintly surprised, and then laughed again. "Fine. Be that way. You won't be able to resist one day." Touching Sakura's face one more time, he turned and walked away.
 Sakura wanted to yell after him. "How dare you try to go behind hyde's back? Don't you appreciate anything? Hyde's the most beautiful person in the world, can't you be happy with him?" He stood silently. When tetsu had gone he started kicking the wall violently. "Dammit!"
 He was starting to like this tetsu person less and less. How could anyone have an angel like hyde, and still not be satisfied? Whereas he, who would do anything for him, could not get him.
 Sakura suddenly stopped his kicking, and something that was almost a smile formed on his lips. Or could he?

 He sat on the floor in the corner of his room, smoking and staring straight ahead. He was deep in thought.
 This is the most crazy situation I've ever been in, he thought. If I had any sense, I'd leave it right now.
 But the very thought - the thought of not seeing hyde again - filled him with horror and despair. He felt he would rather die than not see him again.
 He'd never felt anything this deep before. So this is love, he thought. And it was with hyde. He'd have to tell him, because he simply couldn't hold this inside him anymore.
 He debated in his mind how bad this would be. Of course, it was not good when hyde was meant to belong to tetsu, and he was a guest and everything.... but then again he thought tetsu didn't deserve hyde, and tetsu had insisted he wasn't a guest.
 When Sakura wanted something bad enough, he was used to getting it....
I at least should go to apologize to him, he thought as he stood up. It was kind of my fault about what happened this morning.
 Hyde wasn't in his room or anywhere in the house, so Sakura went down to the clearing, where hyde usually seemed to go when he was sulking. As he had thought, hyde was there, sitting on his swing. There was a white bird sitting on his hand, and he seemed to be talking to it.
 Sakura moved closer, passing the tree he'd been standing behind. He tried to approach hyde silently.
 Hyde's head snapped around suddenly. His hair, which was not tied back today, brushed against his face. The bird, despite the sudden movement, didn't fly away.
 Hyde watched him warily as he came to sit on the ground beside him.  "What's its name?"
 "A name? Oh, she doesn't have a name...."
 "Then what do you call it?"
 "She doesn't need a name you know, she's not human......and I don't need to call her, after all she never calls me." Hyde was speaking facing the bird, as if Sakura was not there.
 Sakura let out a long sigh. I'd better apologise, he thought. If there was one thing he hated, it was apologising......
 But before he could speak hyde's soft voice came out. "I guess I'd better explain, then..."
 "Eh? Explain what?"
 "Since you know about me and tetsu now.... I can tell you about it....." hyde is still speaking to the bird.
 "Ok....why don't you tell me......" Sakura was glad he didn't have to apologise for now.
 Hyde got down off the swing to sit down next to Sakura. "Ok.....this is a conversation between me and Sakura-chan....you have to go now....."
 As hyde raised his arm, the bird flew away obediently.  Hyde turned to face Sakura.
 "Ok, here goes...."

 His whole life, of course, hyde had known nothing but tetsu. From the day he was born, he was by hyde's side, in a treatment arranged especially by tetsu's mother. When she died when hyde was fourteen, although technically there was no obligation for them to be together anymore, it was already too late for either of them to separate from the other. Hyde had simply never experienced life without tetsu by his side, and the thought of him not being there had never occurred to him.
 After tetsu's mother died, hyde's family basically lost all interest in him. His one worth of marrying into tetsu's family is now unlikely with the woman who wanted it dead, he is no use to them now, and what's more he has been raised all wrong. Hyde's family decided to concentrate on their other sons, and basically kicked him out.
 Hyde moved in with tetsu. The house was far too big even with him in it, and tetsu's father is more than rich enough to worry about hyde being there.
 They went to school together. They were together a lot but both had many other friends. Hyde at this stage was still pretty independent, feeling that although tetsu should be there, he didn't need tetsu by him every second of the day to live his life. So although they are together, a lot of time is spent apart....

 One day, hyde was walking through the forest to tetsu's house on his way back from school. Tetsu, being two years older than him, was in a different grade and often had to stay later, so hyde often made the walk home alone.
 Although, this time he wasn't completely alone. Those two jerks from school, who never left hyde alone, were tagging along beside him.
"Come on haido, you just have to admit it, just once, that you're in love with me......" the first, Sugizo said, trying to put his arm around hyde's shoulder.
 Hyde was definitely not in love with him, although he wasn't bad looking he was terribly rude and not from a good background. Hyde found his advances disgusting. He shrank away, pulling the arm off his shoulder. "No, I said! I'd never love anyone as rude and disgusting as you!! Don't touch me!!"
 "Ooh, she's getting angry.." the second, J, piped.
 "Look, this is the third time you've followed me home, won't you give up already? I told you, I'm already taken!"
 "How could you prefer that tetsu over me? He's such a flirt, always looks at other girls, I have eyes only for you!!" Sugizo grabbed hyde's arm again.
 Hyde shook him off and began to walk faster. It was cloudy today, and the sky was getting dark earlier. The forest was covered in shadows. He wanted to get back home and get rid of these thugs.
 "Hyde, why won't you even look at me? Answer me, dammit!!" He pulled hyde to spin around to face him.
 Hyde, now angry, yelled at him. "I'm not kidding!! Let me go! I don't like you!!"
 Sugi's eyes narrowed and he pulled hyde closer. "But I know you do."
 "Hey, maybe you shouldn't touch her...tetsu's dad's pretty powerful...." J spoke up. As Sugi's hand brushed near hyde's chest he pulled away suddenly, falling back onto the path.
 "What on earth is wrong? Why did you pull back so sharply? You don't want me to touch you?" Sugi was moving closer. He reached for the front of hyde's dress, and as hyde pulled backwards sharply, yelling "No!!", the fabric tore.
 Hyde sat, trying to hold the bits of cloth together to hide the skin underneath. J had moved behind him, blocking his escape.
 "What's wrong? Why do you desperately not want me to touch your chest lah?"
 Hyde, now terrified, decided to tell them. "Fine!! So if I tell you, you'll leave me alone!"
 "Eh? Tell us what?" said J.
 "What? Tell us your little secret then." Sugi knelt down very close to hyde.
 Hyde slowly took his hand down from the front of the dress, letting it fall open.
 Sugi's eyes widened. He grabbed hyde and ran his hands over his chest, disbelieving. "She's.....she's...." He looked up at J, shocked, then stood up and took a step back. "She's not a girl!!"
 "What??"
 Hyde looked at the ground while above his head the two exchanged glances in disbelief. There was a long silence. Hyde looked up eventually. He expected to see them leaving. But instead, they just stood.
 Finally, J said "Well, if she's not a girl.....then.....we can't get into so much trouble, can we?"
 An idea was dawning on Sugi, he slowly nodded his head. "I mean, we're just...playing with another guy, aren't we?"
 J grinned.
 Hyde looked from one to the other in horror. "What...what are you saying..?" he asked timidly.
 Sugi lunged towards him suddenly and hyde got up to run. But before he could he was grabbed from behind by J, pinning his arms behind his back.
 "Ah! No, let me go!!" Hyde screamed. "....ah, no!! What are you...stop!!" Sugi's lips moved roughly down hyde's neck and onto his shoulder, as the hands slid into his dress, caressing the skin underneath.
Hyde tried to pull away, but it was useless. His arms were pinned.  "Ah...no..." Scared, he began to sob loudly.
 "Mm....still tastes like a girl......even better, I'd say...." Sugi's lips moved lower over hyde's chest, and his hand began to push up the front of hyde's skirt.
 J, tired of just holding hyde's arms, switched the arms to one hand and used the other to pull hyde's head right back so his face was visible to him. He began to kiss his face, which by now was covered in tears.
 "Mmm......no, I...please...." The roughness of Sugi's hand brushed against the smooth, sensitive skin of hyde's inner thigh, scratching it, as his hand moved even higher. As this happened J pulled his head back even more, forcing the mouth open, and forced his own lips down on it. Hyde tried to scream, but it was blocked by J's tongue which was trying to force its way down hyde's throat.
 Hyde, crying in fear and disgust, faintly tried to struggle but it was useless. Sugi's hands, his mouth, are moving roughly over his body as J's kiss grows deeper and more violent. Hyde tried to cry out in pain, tried to scream, but his mouth was blocked. He closed his eyes, convinced he was going to die.
 Suddenly Sugi's body was wrenched off of his with a great force; hyde heard a cry of pain. The next second someone had grabbed J's hair and tore him off hyde, then punched him in the stomach.
 Hyde, having lost his support, fell to the ground sobbing. Tetsu, who had finished beating up J, kneeled down and took him into his arms.
He turned to Sugi, who was standing up shakily. "What the fuck were you doing to her? You're going to _die_ for this!!"
 Sugi backed off a bit, looking scared. Beside him, J also pulled himself  to his feet.
 "I'm gunna tell my father and you're gunna be hanged for this!" tetsu yelled. Hyde, clinging to him, was still sobbing noisily. Tetsu couldn't control his anger. "Man, you're gunna _die_!"
 J looked terrified. But Sugi pointed to hyde with a shaking finger. "Eh, we can't get into trouble, because hyde's not a girl, right? We didn't attack a girl."
 "You can't prove that. No one will believe you." But tetsu looked less certain. "You're gunna be punished, bad. And if you ever tell anyone about hyde, I'll personally kill you."
 The two, deciding not to take any more of this, finally turned and ran away. Tetsu was left with the sobbing hyde.

 That night, after tetsu had taken hyde home and put him in tetsu's bed, he sat beside him, stroking his hair.
 "Do you want me to take you back to your room now?" he asked gently.
Hyde shook his head. "Tetsu.....I don't want you to....leave me...please..." He pulled tetsu's arm. Tetsu nodded, and climbed into the bed beside him. After all, it wouldn't be the first time they'd shared a bed. He wrapped his arms around hyde. "Are you ok now?"
 Hyde shook his head. "What's wrong?" tetsu asked.
 Hyde closed his eyes. It was embarrassing to say. "Can still....feel it...." he whispered.
 "You can still feel them touching you?" tetsu whispered. Hyde didn't respond. "Well, my touch is better, right? Will that help it?" Hyde, who was only wearing one of tetsu's shirts to replace his torn dress, felt his hands slide up under it, across his back. He shivered, although tetsu's hands felt hot.
 "Mmm...." He moaned slightly and then felt tetsu's lips on his. As the kiss grew deeper, tetsu turned them so he was on top of hyde.
 He broke the kiss eventually. "Does that feel better?" Hyde nodded slightly. One of tetsu's hands shifted to around his waist, while the other reached out to begin unbuttoning his shirt. Soon hyde was completely naked.
Tetsu moved his lips down hyde's neck. "Don't be scared, ok? It will feel good."
 Hyde nodded. Tetsu's lips moved down and hyde felt the soft, short brown hair brush against his collarbone as tetsu's lips moved over his chest.
 Hyde began to concentrate more on the movements of tetsu's hand, which had moved to the place Sugi had touched before. It moved back and forth slowly. He was flooded with feelings he'd never felt before. In the past him and tetsu had only maybe hugged and kissed once in a while, they'd never come close to anything like this...
 The feelings became stronger and hyde couldn't control them. "........mm..." He heard the sounds slip out of his mouth. Were they really his?
 Tetsu's hand began to get faster. Hyde was scared. "Mn....no......." he mumbled, but even as he said it he was feeling how much he liked it. "te...tsu....." The breathing speeded up with the movements.
 "Tetsu.....ahh!" Hyde, gasping, could not control it anymore. The liquid came out into tetsu's hand.
 Hyde almost began to cry as tetsu pulled his hand away. "Tetsu, I'm sorry....I couldn't help it....."
 Tetsu came back up to kiss his face. "It's ok, it's what's meant to happen." He sat up on top of hyde, and began to lick it off his hand. "It's good..."
 Hyde's face was red. Because it was tetsu doing this, it was okay. But still he felt ashamed.
 Tetsu lay down again, this time bringing hyde's legs apart so they were on either side of him. Seeing hyde's troubled face, he stroked it gently. His expression was kind. His other hand, on hyde's leg, pulled it up even more.
 Using his hand to hold hyde's legs apart, tetsu moved his face down to hyde's neck, as if he didn't want to see hyde's face as he did it.
Hyde screamed. His face contorted in pain, he began to struggle, trying to get it out. Tetsu's grip increased in power; he couldn't move.  "Aaah...tetsu, it hurts!!"
 Tetsu's gasping voice. "Don't struggle! It won't hurt so much..."
 "Ah.....stop it...please...." Hyde began to cry. He'd never felt such a pain before. "Aah...tetsu......." His voice collapsed into uneven gasps, but were they from pain, or something else...
 The movement of tetsu's hips became more regular. "See...it will get better...."
 Hyde's arms, which had been trying to push him off, now began to grip around him tighter. Tears were still rolling down his face, however his expression had changed.
 "Is it good?"
 Hyde nodded. Before he could speak, tetsu kissed him again. Although hyde was still frightened, the amazing feelings overwhelmed him again. The pain was gradually overridden by the pleasure that flowed through his body.
 "Ah, tetsu, tetsu...." It was blocking his vision, he couldn't think of anything. His perception seemed to heighten even as he felt his consciousness fading.
 "I love you, hyde......"

 Two years later it was the ceremony.
 It was held in a church quite far away from tetsu's father's house, and many of his friends attended. Not even hyde's parents attended - by this stage he didn't even know where they were, and didn't care.
 The girl in front of hyde smiled. "I'm meant to be putting on your makeup, but I can't find a way to improve your face at all..." She took out her bag. "I can try some light stuff, I guess..."
 "That's a beautiful white dress." commented the other. "Of course, such an innocent-looking girl like you is of course able to wear a white dress, ne?"
 "Don't smile like that, I'm trying to put your lipstick on." Hyde continued his secret smile. "Turn your head." the lady commanded as she was making up his face. Hyde turned, catching sight of himself in the mirror beside the table. He stared at his reflection expressionlessly. His long hair had been braided and decorated with little silk flowers and ribbons, and the flowing white dress gave the illusion of a feminine figure.
 "Like an angel." the other woman commented, standing next to hyde and putting her hand on his almost-bare shoulder. Hyde tried not to flinch away. It wish tetsu was here, he thought.
 A man came into the changing room. "Is she ready yet? The guests are all here, we're ready to start."
 "Just finishing with her." The makeup woman led hyde over to him. "But there wasn't much we could do to improve her, really.
 "I see what you mean." The man smiled down at hyde. He nervously smiled back, wishing again for tetsu. He hated so many strangers.
 Hyde was led into the chapel, and the ceremony began.
H yde, who until now had been nervous about it, began to overflow with happiness when the priest talked about the life-long vows they were making. Finally, he could be sure he and tetsu would be together, forever. He smiled as the ring was placed upon his finger.
 Then priest pronounced them married, and they kissed. Hyde felt it was the happiest moment of his life. He'd kissed tetsu many times before, but this time, with the knowledge of what it symbolised, was the happiest of all.
 After the ceremony many people commented on how beautiful the bride was, congratulating tetsu's father on the good job for his son. Hyde didn't like all the attention and clung to tetsu, but inside he still glowed with happiness. He felt his life had been fulfilled. From now on, he and tetsu were going to live happily ever after.

 And they had, basically, until about one year before Sakura came, when things had started to change.
 "Tet-chan, what's wrong?" Hyde touched his face gently with a concerned expression. Lately he looked distant about something.
Tetsu turned to him where hyde was lying next to him on the bed. He wrapped one arm around hyde's slim waist gently.
 "....?" Hyde's question has still not been answered.
Tetsu didn't seem to have heard what he said. Slowly, he reached down and placed one hand over hyde's stomach. "I was just thinking..."
 Hyde was confused. "What?"
 "You can't have children, can you. You can't give me children."
Hyde looked shocked. Then, all at once, he began to cry. "Tetsu....what are you saying? It's not my fault..."
 Hyde had fully expected tetsu to comfort him, as he had always done in the past. But instead, he just stared at him coldly for a few seconds, then got out of bed and headed for the bathroom.
 Tetsu's reaction made hyde cry even more. Up until now he'd always been so kind, so comforting like a mother, and the sudden coldness shocked him deeply. And what tetsu had said about the children hurt him even more. It was the one thing hyde couldn't give him.
 It was the first hint that tetsu might not be satisfied with hyde.
Over the next year, although too slow for hyde to notice all at once, things began to change. Tetsu went out more and more. Until now, he had had to go to work sometimes, he just had to manage his father's company, why in real life was not a very big job at all. But more and more, hyde was left alone. He knew of course tetsu could not be working all that time, and suspected tetsu was cheating on him, with one or even several people.
 But there was nothing hyde could do about it. When he asked tetsu, he simply denied it and changed the subject. Hyde became increasingly lonely, he was left alone most of the time, and only saw tetsu at night. And even then not some of the time; tetsu now made them have separate rooms. He became miserable and sulky towards tetsu when he was around, and this in turn made tetsu want to see him even less. Hyde spent most of his time at the clearing at the end of the forest, lonely and depressed without tetsu around.
 Until.... Sakura had come. As if hyde's prayers had been answered, someone to end his loneliness. Even though, since the day he had come, tetsu had been getting colder and colder. As if he was angry at him, for some reason. Which was ridiculous, because he was the one who'd invited Sakura in the first place.

Hyde had reached the present in his little story to Sakura. There was nothing more to say, really.
 They both sat in silence. Then hyde spoke again.
 "I just wanted to tell you that.... last night, wasn't the way it would usually be. Because...." He took a deep breath. "Because I'm not even sure he loves me anymore, at all." He was crying.
 Sakura, as there was nothing else to do, put his arms around him. "It doesn't matter." he said. "Don't worry."
 "It does matter, don't you see?" sobbed hyde. "Nobody loves me!"
 "You're wrong, I love you..." It was the easiest way to confess, straight out and casually.
 "Eh???" At the simple statement, hyde pulled away suddenly. At least he'd stopped crying, his face was now blank with surprise.
 "What....what do you mean?"
 

to be continued

I know this story sucks, but I was forced to write it -_-;;;;;;;;; don't blame me, I'm just too annoyed at hyde to write anything nice happening to him. So be prepared........
Thanx to pom for the extra character names, I know the personalities don't match but then, none of them do! If you wanna read a real personality, go read interviews in shoxx magazine. 'so, how did u record this song?' 'well, we always add the music in first, and then sometimes the singing.......'
It might get better, maybe........