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"One-sided Love"
by Shioru Sutherlands (aka. Kotoshin)
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ever since
I knew your existence
learning where my heart lay

ever since
meeting your eyes by chance
I could not look away

gentle eyes like violet dreams
light smile more than it seems 
why pull at my very being
awaken my longing?

I catch myself staring
language is forgotten
watching your leaving
words remain unspoken

for the first time
I find myself caring
it mattered what you think of me 

for the first time
I find myself wondering
what to do if you spoke to me

I don't know how to return the gaze
of eyes like violet dreams
don't know how to look into the face
with a smile more than it seems

I can't confess to you my fall
trapped inside my own walls
I'm afraid to answer if you call
admit I care at all

contradictory feelings
I avoid you ruthlessly
torn between pride and need

hypocritical yearning
to be alone but not lonely
I can't stand your distancing

won't give up loving
until you answer my longing
until you understand this craving

in your heart 
will be no room for
any other being

only I
can be your only

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Shin no Freetalk:

... like "defining equation: love = ?", this is also set in 
the storyline of "smiling tears."
Never quite realized how shy and possessively jealous ouji-sama
could be until shi wrote this ... ^_^;
There is also a chinese version which shi will put up on the 
chinese version of WWE - once the chinese version is up!

mail shi at kichin@doushi.org with any comments!
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Last Revised: September 17th, 2000 at 6:37 PM 
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