Lonliness

I am never alone, and I am always alone. That line may sound like some cheap writer’s attempt at poetry (which it is), but it’s true. I am never alone - God is always with me. He is always watching, taking part, and creating the world I live in. He knows me in the deapest pit of my heart. I am not, and cannot be, alone. But I am also always alone. While God knows me, I do not know Him. For that matter, I don’t trully know anybody. I sometimes think I do, and while I suppose that there may be people out there somewhere who actually know each other, I doubt it. I think that most people are like me, in that they have worlds inside them that no one has ever seen. Sometimes I think about that, and I wish there were a way to open up me and show myself to people. I wonder what people would think. I wonder if I would still have friends. But really, do I have friends now? I suppose I do, but so many of them only know the me that I show them - the safe me. The funny me. The me that fits in with thier world. And I suppose that they are showing me the same kind of decoy - so we miss each other. It’s like the real us is inside this huge movie theatre, wishing that it could yell out and actually talk to the actors on the screen. But the actors are just that - actors. So we are stuck, alone, in our box - with God.

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