basiclly, my life is just like every other person's life............ there's always the good and bad times.  i always try to take the good side out of the bad times, and learn from it.     my life started 17 years ago, on sunday.......febuary first,  nice day i guess........hehe. since then i started to grow, i grew into a small girl,  i attended kindergarten, bla bla bla...........   then my first year in primary school, in nehru memorial school, bandung. there i spent 7 years studying, quite nice, i was a good girl, hardly ever annoyed people, except one or two whom i really hate......hehe....., anyway,..............   i continue growing up, and reached my junior high years.  I studied in yahya junior high school, and started to realise that it's not a beautiful world after all..........     i got stressed out 'cause of my family, my self, my friends, etc, then i started to hang out with the gang.  but i left it soon, i'm not really happy with that...................so, i created my own world where i can absolutely do everything, but it's only in my imagination,  it's not real. so i became very introvert, very sensitive, i was easily dissapointed even by small things and after that i got depressed, and when i got depressed, i started to feel like killing myself............but i was afraid of god (i still am),  so i just hurt myself (i cut my wrist). it happened a lot. i felt very empty, like it's not worthy to live anymore, i continued to feel this huge pain inside me, and there was  absolutely nothing that i could do to changed it.  i almost gave up on my life. my family didn't know this, i was very smart at keeping secrets from them,  (even up to now). i think only some close friends knew that  i was a 'bit' sick by that time.       then, one day......a friend asked me to go to a fellowship with her,  at first i refused, but six months after that (i think),  i started to went to that fellowship. i have no idea why.  there, i was introduced to this really kewl guy name jc. i accepted 'n trust him and since then my life changed. he is always there for me, even in the toughest times, when i'm dealing with my self, my everyday life, etc.     now, when i looked back at my life, i could see how my life changed  from a complete hell to (hmm......how do u say that......) peace. and i know that i can still live today it's because of Him. and that's all what it takes to go on with my life.