Winter/Spring


Snow falls down in winter
A crisp, white blanket covering the land
Enveloping, protecting
Until spring comes again
When the plants will bloom and the animals will wake
Life begins again

And every spring when the sun starts to shine
Gradually the snow begins to thaw
So I find myself thawing as well
After being holed up alone, awaiting the rebirth of the world
I’m another day, another season closer to you
But just as far as ever

And I remember those first few seasons
How I used to miss you terribly
Each day my heart was breaking and I was so fragile
I thought I would break too
But the love we shared sustained me through those dark, harsh months
Anticipating the time when I’d see you again

I wanted to be able to live life unaffected
To not cry or long for you
And enough winters have passed by now
That I hardly think about missing you anymore
And I rarely cry
I don’t know any other life but this life of waiting
A constant circular merry-go-round
Of watching the seasons change

Another fall approaches
With winter right on its heels
So I prepare my heart for hibernation
To cover up with snow and weather the frigidness
Once again
Maybe when the spring comes, you’ll come too
Or maybe the cycle will begin anew
Only this time when the snow melts
I may remain frozen
Because I don’t know if I can still thaw with these seasons
Anymore


© Nicole Whaley 2004