Welcome to Crushed Roses

Learning to Feel Again
By Mary Serbian

This past week was about losses
Of course I didn't realize that
until last night
You see I couldn't figure out why I was feeling
so depressed
(first layer)
then angry
(second layer)
then anxious
(third layer)
then hungry
(the "always comes after anxious" layer)
then fearful
(fifth layer)
and then finally FINALLY down to the nitty gritty layer....
I felt abandoned.
Abandoned by anyone and everyone who has entered
and then left
my life
by choice or by default.
They who never really made me feel
like I mattered all that much
unless of course
I had something they wanted from me.
So I grieved some of those losses
last night and today
and I wondered why getting better has to be
always has to be
so very very hard.
Learning to feel again
when I never really felt much in the first place
besides of course the pain
and the tears
and the never-ending rage
definitely ranks right up there with
throwing up all night
migrane headaches
and root canals.

But for some reason
only God understands and I dare not ignore
right now I feel much better
really better!
Thank God tomorrow is never the same
as yesterday
eh?

According to the U.S. Department of Justice, a woman in America is raped every two minutes. Staggering facts. And every woman that is raped is going to have to learn how to feel again. Until that time she is a rose that has been crushed, ground beneath someone's heal, petals bruised and stem broken.

Our dream is that this page will help those crushed roses heal, and perhaps add an ounce of prevention and awareness

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