Where I Am At Now
This is really just here as a reminder that there is life after abuse.
I am now 26 years old, married, a home-owner, and a college graduate. All things I never thought I would be back when I was 17 and on the verge of killing myself. I keep busy with home renovations (my house was built in 1965 and seems to have been owned by a string of idiots who couldn't fix a leaky faucet by themselves...) I am also taking classes in taekwondo. I just got my black belt which is super-cool and I am hoping to enter the instructor training program soon! It definatly helps me not to feel like a victim anymore. I also read alot of comic books. It helps me escape from reality a bit (a little escaping isn't a bad thing).
I do still have some problems. My marriage is impacted by my past, especially our sex life. And sometimes I escape reality too much, kinda like when I was younger. At least I recognize it though. I don't really have nightmares often any more maybe three or four a year. Sadly, I still have to deal with constant depression. I don't get suicidal (often) but at I have gotten to the point that I can realize when I am not thinking straight and that is enough to keep me from doing anything drastic.
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