Leaving Jevim at the airport this afternoon was the hardest it has ever been. I was crying as we hugged when they called my boarding group, managed to pull myself together to walk down the jetway and find a seat on the plane, broke down again as we pulled away from the gate and taxied for takeoff, and pulled myself together again for when the flight attendant came around for drinks. Fun, fun... I almost lost it again when Mom met me in Saint Louis.

Anyway, I held it together, and slept for a bit on the way home (I also slept a little bit on the very last part of the flight), then Mom took me to Wal-Mart to get some things, and out to dinner, then home, where I called Jevim. He wasn't in yet, but I caught him a while later, and he told me he'd gone exploring in Baltimore to help keep his mind off the separation.

We talked for a little while, then hopped online (I'd just hopped off and had tried calling him to see if he was home before I went to take a bath, and I'd caught him just as his modem tried to pick up and dial out). We chatted that way for a while, watched a new computer-animated Christmas cartoon on ABC, and then I took a quick bath, came back, and we played Acromania at Bezerk until he got tired. He called me and we talked a little while longer, and then he headed off to sleep.

I'm still too wound up to sleep, so I'm making this entry, and hanging out with some of my IRC friends, whom I've rather neglected while I was away. Had to grab a fresh copy of my HTML editor of choice, since the upgrade preview had expired while I was gone, and snatch some pages from my website, since I don't feel like messing with the Zip drive tonight, so if things don't look quite right, give me time, or drop a line.

I checked my counter stats today and was surprised to see the journal index had 7 more hits than it did the day before... looks like OP was a good idea after all. Now once I get settled, I can start reading some of the other journals, and see what's out there.

I miss Jevim an awful lot, but as long as I'm keeping my mind occupied, I seem to be doing okay. Hopefully I'll be tired enough when I go to bed that I'll sleep rather than lying awake half the night, like I did last night. I was tempted to get up and take a bath just to relax myself, but I didn't want to be away from Jevim, or have him wake up in bed alone.

The Christmas party was nice... fancy, and talk about door prizes!!! Jevim didn't win any, but it was the first time he'd attended. I bet he'll win something on down the line. The round-trip tickets to anywhere in the US would have been very nice though, I must confess.

Jevim introduced me to some of the people he works with and under. Most were nice; some talked tech way over my head, but I didn't mind; one just really struck me as a jerk. He completely ignored me, except when I laughed at his joke, and I assume it's because I'm female and don't understand much. Ah, well, they can't all be good guys, right?

Anyway, it's nearly midnight, and I need to link this page in and get it all uploaded.... I think I'm gonna miss HomeSite 3.0... but I can't see spending beaucoup bucks on it, when I've got version 2.5 registered. *sigh* G'night...