August 23, 1998
Lisa,
Well, we had a bit of excitement here last night. After dinner, Riley goes out to play, promptly trips over a bike left on the sidewalk, and falls on the bike handlebars which splits his upper lip right open. Poor guy, all the blood gushing out scared him half to death, as he was screaming like a banshee. Satan and I fly out the door to see what's going on, blood is dripping everywhere. Satan's going, "He needs stitches" but I'm thinking nah, I'll just clean up the blood and everything will be just fine. WRONG!! Boy needed stitches. So off to the ER we went, took about an hour and a half from the time we walked in to the time we left, which really wasn't too bad. He ended up with four stitches in his lip. I felt so badly for him, dang thing was just wide open (blech!) and was painful to look at, let alone the pain he must've been in. But he was a trooper. After I had cleaned up the blood and gave him a washcloth to hold on his lip to stop the bleeding so that we could go to the hospital without him bleeding all over my car, he stopped crying, and didn't cry again, though he moaned a little every now and again. He insisted on Daddy going in with him while he got the stitches, which puffed Satan up nicely! =) Anyways, he's doing just fine now. Satan will take the stitches out on Friday, and he'll have a little scar I'm sure, but nothing major.

I'm totally psyched about Tuesday, when I can register the kids for school. Can't wait, can't wait! One step closer to having them back in school. I just wish it was all day kindegarten, and not this half-day, not going to learn anything in three hours, garbage. I had such dreams of getting a job, going to college maybe. But alas, not until next year if I'm lucky.

My mom went away for the weekend, so I haven't been doing much. No friends here, remember? Sure is pathetic when I look at it, so I try not to! Hehehehehe. Thursday night, Satan had a few of his friends from work over. I rather enjoyed it, they talked extensively about work, which Satan never does with me, and I found out alot about what goes on there. Wow, what a soap opera they got going on! LOL!!

Hmmm, and I guess that's about it. Remember how, when you first suggested the idea of putting a journal on my site, and I was like, what am I going to say, and you said talk about your feelings? I'm sitting here, thinking about that, and you know, I really don't have any at the moment, nor do I think I really have had any lately. Not happy, not sad, just kinda here. Isn't that weird? Huh. Well, talk to ya soon!

August 18, 1998
Lisa,
Gods, I've just been so tired lately! Been working on Mom's Elks stuff. We should be completely finished with it all tomorrow, when I go over to help her put everything together. This part was not fun, as I ended up having to retype the whole thing after someone changed their mind about a key part.

So anyways, not a whole bunch else going on around here. Not-so-patiently waiting for August 25 so I can register the man child for kindegarten. Tired of these two fighting constantly. It's been a long hot summer, lemme tell ya!

I hardly ever see Satan anymore. Think I may have already said this, but it sure is getting to me. Even on his days off, he keeps the same schedule, and I try to stay up as long as I can just to be with him, but, I can't stay up all night. Only 2 and a half months more of this. Sigh.

Not much of a journal entry this time. I'm rather sick of looking at the monitor after all this work I did for Mom. OH! I almost forgot! When she came over yesterday she had a surprise present for me. I couldn't believe it when she came waltzing in yesterday with a piece of my childhood in her hands. She had found the step stool my father made for me when I was oh, probably about 5 years old. Maybe even younger. Hehehe, yeah, funny I should get all excited about a stool that's probably at least 24 years old, but oh Lisa, I can't tell you how glad I am to have it. To me, it's the most valuable thing I own.

And that's it for this week. Talk to ya soon.

August 12, 1998
Lisa,
Sorry it took so long for me to update this. I've actually been busy, imagine that! LOL!!

For one, over the weekend, I was awarded the Outstanding Site Award from Scorpie, who is a Wellesley Community Leader. I am still so excited and honored by it!! After working on my site for a year and a half, to actually get an award! I'm just so pleased! Satan didn't really understand, as usual. He doesn't have a web page, so he has no idea what an accomplishment it is. Although, to give him credit, he tried his best to be happy for me. I don't think he really knows what he was happy for me about though!

I've also been helping my mom with more Elks stuff. This time, it's a "roster" which lists all the members, rules, calendar, history of their club, etc. Fifty-two pages worth of stuff, and of course, I flubbed it, and had to rearrange some pages, etc. Huge job, and has to be finished by Friday. Whew! I will be glad when it's over with!! I have to admit, though, I've really enjoyed doing it. Makes me feel like I'm, oh, I don't know, important, valuable, almost as if I'm working, just not getting paid! Too bad I can't find a job where I can do stuff like this full time and get paid for it. Wouldn't that just be a hoot!

Tomorrow, my mom and I are going to the used clothing store, see if I can pick up a few things for back to school. Riley's pretty much okay, I just got a bunch of stuff not too long ago that someone gave us. It's Ariel I need to get some things for. We'll see how that goes.

I'm becoming more accustomed to Satan's new work schedule, but I still don't like it! Things seem to be going all right. No signs of infidelity, and I'm trying to keep a watchful eye out around his attitude towards me, remembering how it was last time. So far, so good. Rest assured, if I find any evidence of it, he's out the door! Hope we can move soon, to at least get away from the bad memories here!

Well, that seems to be about it. Guess I'll talk to ya soon!

August 1, 1998
Lisa,
Well, I'm totally stressed about Satan's move to nights. You'll recall that he was on nights when The Incident occurred last year. I know it's irrational, that if he's going to do it again, it doesn't matter whether he's working nights or not. But, I just can't help it. I'm not going to sleep very well for the next three months, that's for sure. I was up until 3 am this morning.

We had a black cat come and visit us last night. Beautiful thing, and so friendly too. No collar, and he was extremely hungry, so we fed him the 2 cans of cat food I had bought for the ferrets way back and they didn't like it. He wolfed those down! I let him stay in the house until Satan came home this morning. He sat on my lap while I was on the computer, and he liked sitting on the window sill in the 'puter room. When I went to bed, he was very skittish around the ferrets, but was able to curl up on Satan's pillow and (this is so cute!) he watched me until I fell asleep. Is that not just the cutest thing?? Satan put him back outside this morning. I hope he found his home today. As much as I like him, we really can't keep him here.

Finally cooled down here, thank the gods for that. We're supposed to get up to the mid 90's, but that's a heck of a lot better than 102 and 103! Plus, we're going over to my mom's house for a birthday party, and she's got a/c!! Hehehehe. I can't believe it's August already! Taking the man-child to the doc on Tuesday so he can have his shots and physical for school! I'm so excited I can't stand it! Just wish it was all day kindegarten instead of half day!! Cause then I could get a job.

Gods, I wish I could get a job, make some money. We've been so strapped for money ever since we moved here, I hate it! Even if I could make like $75 a week, that would be good! It would be something anyways. I'm hoping to sign up with a temp agency when and if we move to Buffalo, and Satan is off nights. Or, I may have to wait til the children are going to school all day. Sigh. It's so irritating. I have a computer, I have typing and organizational skills, and yet, I can't get any work, unless I go back to McDonald's (shudder). I'm complaining again! LOL!! Well, guess I will end this before I put myself in a funk. Bye Lisa!!