Hey there! Bit of good news since last time. A few days after I wrote my last letter, I found an apartment! It's tiny, only 4 rooms, but I love it! It's the top floor of a house and it's in a really nice neighborhood. I can look out the window from my chair at the computer, you know how I adore just sitting and looking out the window. Too bad there isn't a window seat! LOL!! That's why it's been so long since I've written, I've been trying to move into the apartment in between shifts at work. Took awhile and HUGE thanks goes to my friends Joe and Bob for helping me move in. I couldn't have done it without them.

Anyways, talked to the Slug, he finally got a job. Unfortunately, he hates it. It's factory work. Requires no thought, so he thinks about other things he shouldn't, like trying to get back with me. But, the kids are fine, they love their new school and having their own rooms. Sounds like they're adjusting really well. They are sick at the moment. Precious has been diagnosed with asthma, poor thing, and Sweets has the flu right now, so at this moment, they're a bit miserable. Can't wait to see them during Spring Break next month! I'm going to have pictures done of the three of us together, they'll like that.

Having a great time being my own person! But, I know, this time of ecstatic happiness isn't gonna last very long, when the layoffs start and we all go our seperate ways, so I'm trying to enjoy each moment as it comes, and not think any further into the future than the next few days to a week. I'll try to write more regularly, but I'm just so busy, I can't promise anything. Take care and I'll talk to ya soon!!

I'm back! Sort of. Gods, it been an exhilarating and terrifying journey since my last entry here. I don't know if I can write it all down, there's been so much happening. I'll try to give you the basic rundown.

Let's see....He left me in Illinois, as we agreed, with some old friends of ours, on Thanksgiving day. Three days later, he was in bed with a woman he met online. Isn't that just peachy?? I moped and cried for a few days, then pulled myself up and went out and found a job. The first one didn't work out, so, ended up with the one I have now, which is really great. It's something I've never done before, a far cry from flipping burgers. It pays really well, too. Now, if I could only find my own place. I've had the kids down to visit a couple times. I won't be able to see them again until Spring Break though, they've already missed way too much school.

They live in Indiana now. I sure do miss them. But they now have their own rooms, and they are real happy about that. Just hope their dad can get a job soon, so he can pay the rent and feed them. I'll try to send them some money, since I don't have any rent to pay yet, but I really, really need to find my own apartment soon. I hate living with other people, even if they are friends I've known for a long time.

Gods, Lisa, I tell ya, it's been so strange. Emotional roller coaster is what it's like. I'll be absolutely thrilled to be alive one day, and horribly depressed the next. I love my new life, which is weird, and now, I can't imagine giving it up, even though I can't tell you where I'll be in six months. They're talking layoffs soon, and since I was the last to be hired on, I'll be the first to be laid off. That is scary, I expected to have this job for a long time. But, I'm planning on going to college when I've established 6 months residency. I have to figure out what I want to be when I grow up! LOL! And, I will also be filing the divorce papers. As of right now, I can't see any chances of reconciliation. Even though, at times, I'm so lonely, my heart aches with the pain of it. But, then I'll think to myself "three days", which will either anger me, or depress me more that he threw me away like yesterday's garbage.

But, I'll tell you this. No need to worry about me. I feel horrible sometimes, but, I'm okay, amazingly enough! It's amazed even me that I've done all right. And though, I have no idea what's next, I'm actually eager to find out. I haven't felt like that in many years, if ever. Talk to ya later!