Philosophies of Loves Poet7

    Welcome to the inner side of Loves Poet. On the pages herein I invite you to the innermost part of me. I hope that your time here is informative and reflective. My aim is to divulge those things that I hold dear, some of the events in my life that brought me to where I am today and my prospects for the future.

    Now then I can begin to explain why I created this site. Originally this site sprouted up during the time my marriage began to go sour. It was a very painful time for me so I created this site as a spring board to air my feeling of hurt. I don't hate my ex-wife I still love her in fact. I don't believe that anyone whom you truly loved you can stop loving. She was converted to Islam and I kind of fashioned her as my Khadija, but then things took a turn for the worst. I can only believe that selfishness was to blame for the demise of a truly beautiful relationship. Selfishness and petty envy and jealousy, don't forget pride. Many of you out there whom are married and those still looking will lose your marriages over the ultimate stupidity, fear. It will eat at you and you will find all kinds of justifications for it then you will end up a statistic like the rest of us. Single again after 8 years of marriage.

    Without a doubt I feel that we gave up too soon. I think that our pride really got into the way of a lot of progress. So on the relationship pages you will get my reflections on marriage and divorce. If anything comes out of this I would hope that you reading would not make some of the same mistakes I made. However as humans it always appears that we never learn, and hardly ever listen to free advice.

    Love is not all to my philosophical exploits. Islam my guiding force is the other. It holds me and keeps me out of a great deal of trouble. I don't profess to be the greatest Muslim. My days of soap box preaching are over. It is really humbling to see how weak you are in the face major adversity. I noticed this effect in my own life and because of it I have been much more patient with others, and more lenient in terms of my children. I have to be I am the only practicing Muslim in their lives.

    I finally found out how strong my Islam was when I decided to divorce my wife. During this period of emotional turmoil as one can expect my Deen took a dip for the worst. It is a testament of faith for those who endure severe tramatic hardships and emerge with the faith unwaivered. I can say Alhamdulillah that during this period I did not abandon my Salaat, however I did do somethings that I most definetely regret. The Prophet Muhammad (saaw) said that your faith will be like a rollercoaster with its ups and downs (sorry for paraphrasing). The advice that I give to all people of faith is that when your faith is down tie a knot and hold on for dear life because you never know when you are going to die. It was the prospect of dying at any time which caused me to focus back on my actions, which gave me the desire that I reclaim my faith. That and analyzing constantly on why my Deen was so low. In relationship the the heights that I felt that I once had. I came to the conclusion that the quest for knowledge, Islamic knowledge is indeed the cure for a lethargic Muslim. So Ikhwan (brothers) if you feel that you could be doing more than your share, I have but one thing to say study, preferably under a knowledgable Imam, but if not then study nonetheless. And be sincere in your study, then Allah (swt) will surely enrich you.

So Alhamdulillah I am slowly making a climb back up out of the pits of my misfortune, and focusing on my children and trying to put my Deen back together. I am reading Quran again I firmly believe that your level of faith is directly proportional to your quest for knowledge and introspection of your position on the Day of Judgement.

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