?????Infamous - Some things never change; still my favorite person to chat with. The only thing that changes is the depth of what I feel for this guy! He has captured my heart and I will never be the same. Even if I never see Nova Scotia or him, I will have a piece of him in my heart forever. He has become one of my best friends, which means everything to me. His laugh is remarkable; it warms my very soul. I don?t know why he came into my life?what force brought us together. I only know that he has given my life meaning again; has made my tomorrows so much more than I had ever imagined they could be. Definitely Canada's Finest!. And for faithful readers of my page, yes, he is still so hot.
UPDATE: March 12, 1999~March 24, 1999
?????Twelve days spent with Infamous that will live in my heart and in my soul for the rest of my life. We had a moment, just one moment, that will last beyond a dream?beyond a lifetime. Now and forever, I will remember what it was like to have the ?fairy tale? and those memories will remain for all time.
?????Cat Crazy - Another Canadian and my adopted big sister. We are so much alike that it?s eerie. If you want to know about courage and strength, you need to meet this lady. She is the bravest person I have ever known. My entire life I dreamed of having a sister that I could share everything with. She is everything I ever wanted in a big sister and I love her dearly! Her love and devotion as a sister has seen me through my saddest days. There is never a moment that I feel truly alone because I know she is just a phone call away. How very lucky I am to have her in my life!!! She will be in my heart forever.
?????Gerry - What a gentle and wonderful man that I have had the honor of meeting, thanks to my ?sis,? Cat. There are so few genuine people anymore?it is so hard to believe in people these days. I have had some wonderful chats with this man and I have such respect for him and I wish only the best for him in his life. I will never forget the hours spent talking on what had to be my darkest night on the internet. His words will stay with me forever and I will always know that tomorrow truly will be better if I just believe. *S*
?????~*~Sweetness~*~ - Another unlikely person to show up on my friends page but here she is! There are so many reasons why we shouldn?t be friends but something clicked between us that morning when you told me you would show me how to fight for the man I loved and I realized that I had found a new friend; not a chatroom aquaintance but a true friend. We have shared some incredible times in Lily Pad already, laughing, crying, and always caring that the other was alright. No matter what the future brings for us about the men in our lives, I know our bond will remain.
UPDATE
?????Was this written a lifetime ago? It is so hard to believe that it was a short two months ago. I didn?t find a ?friend? that night. That word can not begin to touch what she is to me. She is my ?push? when I have given up. She is my ?laughter? when all I feel are tears. She is my sharer of secrets, of dreams unfulfilled, of fears and hopes. I would trust her with my life. What a remarkable young woman she is, and how very lucky I am to have her in my life.
?????desperado - Who could have imagined that this man would enter my life after a ?striptease? in the Lily Pad one night. He threw his pants on my head and told me to keep them to remember him by. *S* Words really can?t describe how much I care about him or how wonderful I think he is!!! I have never needed someone to hold me and tell me that everything was going to be okay, that he wasn?t waiting with his arms outstretched wide. I have never run to him with tears streaming down my face that he hasn?t wiped them away and told me that I wasn?t alone; he is there for me always. He is one of the few people I have met online that I can?t imagine not meeting someday. Some woman is going to be very lucky someday to be the one he chooses to share his life with, but until that day, I will hold on to my spot as his ?spare soulmate.? *BAS*
?????THE FAM - Who could EVER believe that you would find this man here? *S* Well - he IS here and he IS my friend. I consider myself one of the lucky ones who has gotten to know this man in a different light than most of the Lily Pad crowd. What do I know? I know he is very intellegent, quick-witted, funny and fiercely loyal to his friends. I have had some wonderful conversations with him and have often been very touched by what a special person he really is. There will ALWAYS be an area that we will never agree upon but I know that our friendship goes far beyond this difference. I only wish more people knew the FAM that I have come to know and care about.
?????ICEMAN 3:16 - One of the first people I really got to know online?funny, sweet,and someone very special to me. He can break my heart when he is mad at me, because I know what a genuine person he really is?not like his ?icey? image. We seem to drift back and forth into each other?s life. I know he is there when I need someone to talk to and when I need a healthy dose of reality?like it or not. I really don?t understand why he hasn?t walked out of my life and never glanced back. He hasn?t, and for that I am so very thankful. The phone call that night that I couldn?t imagine another tomorrow and the days of 25 emails have touched me in a way that I will never forget. Gotta love those dang Canadians!!! *huge grin*
?????Michael Angel - What can I say about this man? From the moment I found his email in my mailbox, I knew he was going to be someone special in my life. From the first night we chatted, we were friends?good friends. He was never a stranger. My heart recognized him immediately. He has made me laugh; he has made me cry; he has filled a spot in my heart that had been closed off for a very long time. I love this man. I treasure every moment we share and I pray he will stay strong and well and be a part of my life for many years to come.
?????Canadian Girl - Who would have ever thought I would be making this entry? *G* I knew of this girl long before I met her. And I just knew I was not going to like her. I considered her my competition and I admit I was very jealous of her. But from the first night we really talked I have adored her. What an unbelievably sweet, warm and loving person! Every conversation with her just makes me care more about her. We have shared tears and we have shared laughter and I think it has bonded us even more. I am so glad she is my friend and I look forward to seeing what the future brings for her. I think she?s about to become very happy. *G* And I really don?t know anyone who deserves that
?????~WHITE WOLF~ - I don?t know how I was lucky enough to have you come into my life when I needed so desperately for someone to care about me, but there you were in my saddest hours telling me you care and you wanted to help me not hurt anymore. How could I ask for more than that? Dana, you may never know how much you have given me in our short time together. I truly believe if you hadn?t been there with your arms outstretched that I would have left the world of internet and never looked back. The message on my answering machine touched me in a way that I can never fully explain. Your voice?your concern spoke volumes about the kind of man you are. Thank you my sweet Danabug for making me realize that I really do matter to someone. You?ve helped more than you can possibly know. I think we have only just begun something that will be very wonderful and lasting.
?????*max* - Well, what do I say here? My cyberman turned to real time man. My time with him was filled with so much emotion. I admit I was not fair with him; I was less than honest in all of my feelings, but I actually thought there was enough between us that eventually I could get past what was really holding me back. I am sorry for the way things turned out. I have to say that he was very good to me. I truly wish him all the best in the world. I hope he finds the right woman for him; it just wasn?t me.
?????postman - My stud muffin. A gentle and kind man that has made me reevaluate relationships. No matter how big or how small a problem I have, he?s always willing to listen. What a treasure I found in him!!
?????Odessa - My online daughter; a real sweetie that makes me smile alot. She is always there to cheer me up in the Lily Pad when I think my heart is breaking! She amazes me when I talk to her?so very wise for someone so young! I am so honored that she has put her trust in me. I love her and she can always come to me. I will always be there for her.
?????Karna - I remember the first time I went to her page. I went there only because I was curious about her because her brother is so important to me. In no time I was wanting to know more about her as a person, not as Infamous? baby sister. I was pleasantly surprised at the talent I saw in her poetry and other writing. I can?t say I was thrilled with our first encounters; *S* usually pertaining to computer time or phone time. *G* Finally I got to know her and I am so glad I did. I have enjoyed our talks so much and I can see why she is so special to her brother!! I hope I get to know her even better in the future and I wish her only the best things in life for her and her Will.
?????tennesseelee - How I got so lucky to meet this wonderful man I will never know. A definite keeper! This man is so incredibly sweet. Some woman will be lucky to land this guy. He will treat her like a queen?I have no doubt!
UPDATE: July 4th Weekend - 1999
Bob and his son, Ryan, stopped in Newark for 3 days while on vacation! It was great to spend time with them both and Bob was just as sweet as I knew he would be. *S* Even though the weather was unbearably hot that weekend, we had a terrific time going out to eat, watching fireworks at the mall and just getting to know each other better.
?????P T B - An instant friend so easy to talk to and unbelievably understanding. No matter what happens with me and the man I care so much about, I will always remember how wonderful you have been to be there for me to cry on your shoulder. Karen is a lucky woman. I can only pray that the two of you will have many many years together. Your love for her is an inspiration to me?it has shown me to never think anything is impossible?that true love has no limits. Be happy always!
?????Trisha Val - My beloved NetSister! Joiner that I am, I hooked up with the Net Sisters awhile back. I love that group. I have never met such supportive people in my life. It is truly like having hundreds of sisters!! But I have to say, the absolute best thing about Net Sisters is I found Trisha there. I can?t even put into words what this lady means to me. She is on the other side of the world and yet she is only a message away anytime I need her. She is so funny; she can make me laugh when no one can! She is warm, loving, and so incredibly giving of herself that I am constantly amazed. I am so blessed to have her as my friend. I just adore her!