6/16/98

not here for you


warm hands
wrapped around my neck
supressing my breath
smothering me to nothing

i'm not used to this
your love's too heavy
for me to lift
and hold up high

one time i yearned
for you every second
now my feelings
switch on and off

one day i'll lust for you
another i'll push away
i'll split you in half
i'm not good enough for you

your eyes land on me
warm brown on cold blue
i'll say it again
i'm not good enough for you

can't handle your love
i'm not ready for you
too young for all this
i'll push you away if i have to

i'm used to spoiling sugar
and i always tarnish gold
copper am i only fit for
sometimes nothing at all

i've been a jerk, i know
i can't fix my wrongs
fifteen and not ready for you
your smother drove me away

i find myself lying
and making up excuses
just to spend one single night
without you in my arms

together are we not
others dare differently
i'm too immature for you
maybe even the other way around

i'm still a little girl
a 2-year-old in this world
pink satin and lollipops
fingers too sticky for you

please don't be mad
i'm just not here for you

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