Feelings Remembered

by Padawan's Pet (padawan64@mindspring.com)



Category: Poetry, Angst, Romance

Rating: PG

Warnings: Angsty poetry from me while I am on this poetry kick!

Spoilers: definitely for TPM

Disclaimers: These two beautiful Jedi are not mine, unfortunately

Summary: Just a little bit o' angst that came to me while listening to sad, romantic music....blame it on my romantic streak!

Feedback: Yes, always, please!


Inspired by the words from 
"seireenien lumoama" by
Black Tape For A Blue Girl

(*lyrics*)

Remember me....
empty eyes 
never never
felt inside
so i lie
we lie alone
never known.

Remember me....
he loved you
our flesh as one
never never
knew you curl in tight
i would rather die
than lie alone.

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~~~~~~Feelings Remembered~~~~~~~~~~


I can still hear the sound...........
the agonizing sound of my scream, ripping through 
me in terror, my heart disbelieving what my eyes 
were seeing.

I can still see your face..........
that look of total shock and horror washing over
you, your body crumpling in agony, falling helplessly
to the floor.

I can still feel the anger............
the unbridled rage that flooded me, that threatened
to consume me, to pull me defenselessly down to 
the depths of Darkness, imprisoning me forever, 
as I turned that anger towards the one who took
you from my side.

I can still feel the pain.......
the anguish, the overwhelming feeling of helplessness
as you lay in my arms, your exquisite blue eyes looking
deeply into mine, then studying each and every line of my 
features, as if to take the memory of my face with you 
for all eternity.

I can still feel your touch.......
the gentle caress of your hand upon my cheek as
you wipe away my tears, trying to comfort me as you
always have, now even in the last moments of your life.

I can still hear the words.......
the final request you made of me; from Master
to Padawan, the promise you needed from me,
to train this one you so believed to be the Chosen
One, the one who would bring balance to the Force.

I can still feel the loneliness.......
the hollow emptiness I felt as you slipped away from
me, as you left this world to become one with the 
living Force.

Remember me, your eyes said to me, as they slowly
closed, shrouding the crystal blue light I so loved,
to remain only in my deepest memories.

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I can still feel you, my beloved Master........
holding me, loving me, claiming me,
possessing me......deepening our
lover's bond with every precious
act of love and desire, our flesh
becoming as one.

And as I lie here in this bed,
I can feel your touch, your love,
your warm caress, soothing my
weeping soul, easing the pain
in my aching heart.

Even now, as I lie in the bed we 
once shared night after night, 
bound forever as lovers, I know 
that you are with me.

And I would rather die
than lie alone.

 


~end~



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