As usual mom was in ignorant bliss of these upcoming holidays while I felt quite lost or uncomfortable. I am still quite uncomfortable apologising for sins against the Divine One while my mother is not able to take care of herself. I confess though I did feel holier than thou about my MIA brother.
The new rabbi at my synogogue refused to grant me rabbinical dispensation for any harm I might do while opening up his chest cavity to look for a heart, let alone a beating heart. My OLDER brother(age 50) still needs to be reminded about dates of Jewish holidays . He never seems to have a Jewish calendar and seems to be quite clueless. His manners are not bad, he just is incapable of arriving on time or being ready for anything. It is not beyond him to arrive 8hrs after the time he was told to arrive. He knows how important these holidays are to our parents yet he acts as if he were invited to a picnic or golf game. Despite years of training and education for his bar mitzvah, he still has no clue about Judaism, holidays or beliefs etc. I can expect something stupid from him for every visit. My father is beginning to suspect that there was a baby switch. I say bro was just dropped on his head as a baby.
My brother's passion is politics and in particular NRA issues and libertarian party. He claims to beleive in family values but he has yet to spend a weekend at our house to releive me from my duties to mom. He is against Medicaid, Medicare, Social Security and any other entitlement even if our parents use it. So of course that means that he is against the democratic bill for Medicare Drug Prescriptions. Where is his passion for eldercare?
As usual, the sun revolves around my brother, no matter how stupid or insensitive, my father still thinks he is the cat's meow. Mom knows better. Even though I didn't ask her, she left the male members of my family together and followed me to my bedroom or wherever I chose to sit. She told me she was more comfortable with me than with the men in our family.
I was afraid to bring mom to synogogue every day for 4-5 hour services. If my concentration is not that strong than imagine what hers might be? I bought a CD describing the holidays with the music of course. Mom liked it but kept asking if she was going to be with me. She kept reminding me that dad had said that in his shule she sits by herself in a corner and the women are snobs, never bother to try to talk to her. All their friends have moved to Florida or died. Mom is quite alone in her shule so when he said he didn't want to bring her anymore I said I would take her to my shule. she was quite excited and talked about it constanly in the weeks before the holidays began.