Author's notes: This one’s weird,
I admit it, but it got stuck in my head and wouldn’t go away until I wrote
it. Sorry guys, this one is angsty. But it’s got a happy ending, I promise!
Scenes alternate between Buffy and Angel’s POV.
Disclaimers: Okay, obviously
anything you recognize, I don't own. Buffy: The Vampire Slayer and all
related characters, etc. doesn't belong to me. The song excerpts are from
"You Are the New Day." I sang it in chorus my sophomore year of high school.
The program (which was quite a trick to find in my box of old letters)
says it was arranged by Peter Knight. I had to listen to a recording to
get the words, so they may not be exact. It’s a really pretty song, by
the way.
It was several weeks before Willow managed to convince me to see a doctor. The news he gave me didn’t shock me as much as it should have. It made no sense, but I wasn’t exactly a shock. After all, the signs were there. I just never put it together because it made no sense. No really, it wasn’t a shock. Besides, I live on the Hellmouth.
No one knew quite what to make of the news. My mom was disappointed with me, especially when I refused to tell her everything. I think Giles was disappointed, too. He took me off patrol immediately. Necessary, of course, but he had this look in his eye that said I’d made a huge mistake. Riley wouldn’t even talk to me.
When I wouldn’t tell her everything either, Willow made a different assumption. She thought that maybe…well, maybe something terrible had happened that I didn’t want to talk about. But she didn’t know, none of them knew, because I hadn’t told them.
I couldn’t tell them, because I didn’t know.
Three months, the doctor had said. I may be bad at math, but not that bad. Three months…just doesn’t work. It doesn’t make sense. Not to me, not to anyone in Sunnydale.
You see, I did the math. I figured out when it could have been. Instead of getting answers, though, the date only brought more questions. Questions only one person might have the answers to.
But how do you tell your ex-boyfriend that you’re pregnant?
You are the new day
New day
You are the new day.