Secrets of Their Shame and Secrets from the Grave, This is a page to tell the secrets that I've heard in my head. Though I haven't told many people this, I am psychic and because of this a bit of a medium and I've channeled some of my abusers and found out what they did to me. Also, I've managed to garner some secrets from famous people as well. Here are a few:
Me:
I was satanically ritually abused at the age of 3-4 using rituals and hypnotic induction by a teenage boy named Jeffrey and by one of my fathers, Bill Newton. They used horrific rituals involving a baby and peeing on me and my father forced me to give him a blow job at the young age. Jeffrey did too, but he made a mistake and told me to think of it as a lollipop and so I inadvertently but gladly bit off half of his dick. Part of this abuse also involved a pedophile ring run by my father where he and his friends would hurt me if I did not sexually abuse other children. I took the hurt.
I don't know if this was part of the abuse by my father or something that was later on, but I remember two people, black, who put me in a hole with a freshly dead corpse for 13 days, My mother had a part in it too. Anyway they didn't give me any food or water and I had nothing to eat, sorry, but the dead guy that was there.
There were other forms of abuse, lasting till I was 6 when my mother left him but those were some of the worst. Then I met him again when I was 12 and he molested me for three months while taking me places and not letting me talk to my mother.
The bad part about this is that because I was dissociated and lost memory during the early years of my abuse, I didn't tell my mother. But she knew of the abuse of my sister and didn't tell me about it and then later sent me off with my father. It was horrible.
Later on in years, I was raped by a man named Curtis Ramsey. He had threatened to have me walk home if I didn't stay with him at his parents house. Once there, he sodomized me orally and anally, and the result is that I got pregnant, then later had an abortion.
Daniel Woodall, later raped me and my mother didn't believe me, which made me mad at her.
I had a suicide attempt at age 17, because of what my mother, Karon Fay Hobbie said to me. She said to me that I was going to end up like my brother and sister and that I was going to wind up having a bad life. I don't remember everything she said, but it hurt terribly and I took 30 pills of Melaril to finish it.
When I was about 17, my mother was psychotic and threatened me with a knife. At one point she slapped me around and told me I was not supposed to be born. That hurt a lot and I said in response, "I didn't ask to be born."
When I was a medical assistant and my mother was in the hospital with cancer, after all that my father had done to me, my mother told me to call his family and I said I would but I didn't understand why.
My husband, Todd Charles Keeney had raped me (marital rape) three times, once sodomy, anally. He still hasn't gotten help for his problems yet.
Now for the juicy stuff:
I have an alter named Yeshua who admits to raping 342 children before he was caught and then crucified.
He admits to saying that he thinks Jews are stupid and wanted to kill them off.
Hitler committed suicide in his underwear, and showed me visually the room he did it in.
He says he had a vision of Yeshua coming to him and telling him to kill off the Jews.
He and Eva Peron have a love child named Gunther Hindrum, who is an asshole. Two ghosts, named Rachel Sanderson, who had 4 children, whom she killed and sliced off their hands, and Jonathan Orlandiss Taylor, who raped 42 women before committing suicide supposedly because of Schizophrenia have talked to me. My secrets.
I admit to hurting my sons and daughter physically and once coming on to my oldest son. I've sought help for this through counseling and have told my husband.
More secrets will be forthcoming as time goes on.