I was 14 when I was visting my sister in Sacramento for the summer. It was hot there so I would just walk around in my bathing suit and shorts. I was at the pool one day and met this really nice guy. We talked and hung out all day. When night came he asked me to come back to his place and he could make me dinner. Being 14 and very naive, I went. We were up there for awhile getting to know each other and I found out that he was 28, not the 19 he told me. Well then he started trying to kiss me and I was sort od pushing him away and telling him that I really needed to get back. He was telling me no that i couldn't leave. That's when I got scared. He pulled me into his room and began pulling off my clothes. I was so scared. I heard someone walk in the door and I thought, thank God i am saved. Turns out I wasn't. His friend walked in the door saw what was happening and left. I was panicked by then. I was a virgin and tried telling him that but he didnt care. He raped me! for about 2 hours after that. I was in soo much pain. After he acted like nothing had happened and I ran out of his house to my sisters and no one was home so I went and took a long shower and just cried. I was bleeding really bad and didnt know what to do so I stayed in the shower for like 2 hours. I came out and my sister was home, but I didn't tell her. i felt like I had deserved it somehow. A few months later, my period stil hadnt come and then all of the sudden I started bleeding really bad. I found out that I had had a miscarriage. I was so scared. I still didn't tell anyone. After that, I lost all respect for my body. It was really sad. I slept with about 12 guys in a 2 year span. I was raped once more by a close friend of mine. Then I ended up getting pregant again. That is when I wised up. I left the loser I was with and went on to find a better life for my baby and I. She is now a year old. I have a bf that she calls daddy and we plan on getting married in a few yea!rs. He is the only one that I have ever told about this and he is so supportive of me. I don't know what I would do without him!