This section has been down more than up lately.  i've removed the entries from May and June for personal reasons, and have taken a deep breath and started again here in mid-July.  If it's a little hard to follow what happened, i am sorry, but some things are too painful to post, and others i simply have no desire to discuss here or anywhere.

i started keeping an online journal last year in the hopes that it might prove helpful to someone, anyone out there.  One reason i have kept it going is that i've received letters from so many people asking me to do so and telling me that finally, they found someone who feels the way they do, or finally they understand something they didn't, or finally they see what their slave/sub was talking about... it's because of you that i keep writing, that i keep opening my soul here.  It is you that i try to remember when it's hard to look back on past entries, or hard to write new ones.

Whoever you are, reading this right now, if you know me or you don't, if you are a Master, a slave, a Dom/me, a sub, a Top, a bottom, a person who has no experience in D/s or BDSM or a person who has been in the lifestyle for 20 years... i hope this helps you in some way, enriches you in some way, touches you in some way.  i hope that after reading here your heart is changed for the better.  all i ask is that you look on me with mercy.  i am only a person... just like you.