Floating
i flit, i float i fleetly flee i fly --The Sound of Music
i still am floating.
i feel as though this day has been one long, wonderful dream after talking to Master this afternoon. i have felt, ever since that conversation, so utterly wrapped in His love, His tenderness.
there is nothing i would not give Him. there is nothing i hold back from Him. He is my everything.
of course, when He asked me to sing scat over the phone, i freaked out a little and tried to get out of it *blush* but that was mainly because i was afraid He wouldn't like it, that He would find me displeasing. i didn't do a very good job of it, i know, because i was panicky and had had no warm up at all, but He was amazing about it nevertheless. it is times like that i grow to appreciate Master all the more. His acceptance of me just blows me away at times.
and today, for the first time, Master ~heard~ His girl orgasm for Him. it was a striking moment for me, i felt very vulnerable and very open to Him, and very safe and loved all at the same time. i have been wondering since if this one pleased Him, if He found her pleasure to His liking, if ... well... if it was what He had expected or not.
it is a little embarrassing to ask Him about, and i know i wouldn't be able to just outright ask Him, but i do wonder if it was what He wanted/liked/expected/hoped for.
in another note, i received an odd email today. it was in my hotmail box, sent from my dicentra in bloom site through the geoguide, anonymously. the entire text of the message was "Prov 29:16". i have no idea if it is going to be a condemnation of me for having a D/s site or... well... or what it is. i am almost afraid to look it up. i think i will ask Master about it tonight, see what He thinks.
i can't wait to be with Master tonight. i feel so utterly filled with His love tonight; all warm and happy. i miss Him though, even though i talked to Him for such a long time this afternoon. i think, crazily enough, that it made me miss Him even more *giggles*.
be well and happy til next W/we meet --di.