...the walk...

Random thoughts of mine about my Walk and little excerpts from my QT... Though I write almost everyday, they're usually too personal for me to post them here, so be patient, more will come soon(er or later)

Matthew 11:28
“Come to me, all of you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.”

Throughout my life, there have been numerous times when life has been rough. I have often laid my head down on my pillow at night, so exhausted from life’s tiring challenges. With tears in my eyes, I have several times laid in the darkness, wishing in my heart that I could sink through the sheets of my bed and just sleep to keep from waking up and facing yet another day of hardships. At times like those, I try to remember this verse. When I do, it comforts me so to know that God knows the hardships I am going through, and acknowledges how it is burdening me. Accordingly to this verse, I close my eyes and pray that God will take the burdens off my shoulders, and help me just leave things up to Him. It’s funny how often times, the problems that bother us the most are problems we can actually not do much about. They either resulted from our own mistakes, or from external factors, but either way end up as situations we have little control over to resolve. At times like this, endless pondering is useless, yet at the same time hard to refrain from. It is at times like this, that it feels so very comforting to leave my problems to God. The exhaustion is then replaced with a sense of relief and serenity, and I often find myself falling asleep with the vision of resting in God’s arms, with the knowledge that I have done all that can be done, and that the rest that was tiring me so very much is now left for God to take care of, and that He always works in my best interest.
The one big regret I have when it comes to this issue is that I was never able to successfully share this with my mother. It often hurts me to see her to tired and worn down from life and work. My mother is a very strong woman who is ambitious about changing the world for the better, and does so little by little through her work. Her life, however, has never been a smooth road and has been filled by hardships ranging from everyday obstacles to a few overwhelming challenges. Though I have seen but few women as strong as her, I can also see how the stress and workload she goes through each day tires her out, and she often comes home still having nothing but work on her mind. I watch her go to bed at night, so tired from everything, yet unable to fall asleep because of the many things on her mind. Those nights I wish deep down in my heart that she too, would know the Lord the way I do. It frustrates me to watch her so troubled by things she alone cannot change, yet unable to put them aside. At times like those I think to myself how I wish that she could leave some things to God because I know that if she knew how to do that, that then she would be able to rest peacefully and wake up less worn down the next morning. The Serenity Prayer that states, “God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference,” is perfect for her, and I only pray that one day she will take it to her heart and learn to live by it.