I'm happy. So I should be I admit, it's just that sometimes happiness seems to involve so much more than what I have, until I realize that what I have now is reason to be joyous anyway. I have 1) a stable job, 2) a home, 3) food, and not least 4) a loving girlfriend. The truth is pure and simple in regards the last one, but no true road ever ran completely straight. We have had our arguments, the most recent of which was on Sunday and centered over... well, a fork. I won't go into the details, but despite the distance, this is pretty much a normal relationship, we fight, we see how silly we were and we make up. However in retrospect, I must remember not to take these things which bring me happiness for granted.
On a more off-beat note, I've always wanted to build a stone circle. No, I'm serious. I've always acutely felt the utter mortality and insignificance of people in the scheme of history, and have always wanted to make my mark. Look at Stonehenge, constructed over 6000 years ago, and still a marvel, and soto think that in some way, this similar acheivement of mine might be standing even a 100 years hence. The idea itself is simple enough, cast concrete blocks, lited with machinery, cemented into the ground to discourage the inevitable vandals, placed in some lonely locale where they might be safe for their long trip into eternity. Perhaps in some distant time, someone might pause to wonder "Who built this? And why?" and then through silent stones, my memory would live again.
Well, yesterday was Valentines Day, i didn't receive any flowers, or did I give any, and yet the day was still wonderful. *cue mushy noises* As I said before, I sit here alone in my little apartment, and yet I still feel the warm fires of happiness in my heart. Even the one and a half hours blow drying my hair didn't seem so bad. ;)
I'm still trying to figure out what I want to do in my spare time, I've been gettig books out of the library which has helped, but I still feel like I'm at a bit of a loose end... maybe there's a cryptozoology group out there or something? Or, perhaps I could join the gay and lesbian bowling league?