11:45 pm - Wednesday 14th June 2006

Play it again Sam.

Well, I am back in Montana. Immigration was nerve-wracking as always, and I was able to show that all I wanted to do was to go back to my job. This weekend was perfectly lovely and I spent as much of it as possible with Kadie in San Francisco. I flew in on Friday morning about 10:30 am, and met her off the Mission about midday. I had really missed her, and the feeling was reciprocated. I changed into clothes more appropriate for the warm summer day, and we walked around the Castro and Mission Street areas revelling in the pride flags and atmosphere. After checking out "A Different Light" (a famous queer bookshop) we made it back to her truck, and negotiated our way to the hotel on Van Ness where we crashed out for a long while. Kadie snuck out on the fire escape to observe the "URE" building across the way, and we almost sat out there and had beers. Around 6 pm we got ready to go out and we walked up to Grace Cathedral on Nob Hill. There was a piano recital, and we were both very impressed by the stained glass and architecture. We walked around Nob Hill watching the sunset, and we almost got "splattered". Two guys were acting very suspiciously and we were thinking they might be robbing a house, in the end we happily escaped intact.

We walked up to Union Square, which was strangely empty. I took Kadie up in the glass elevator that Bonnie had showed me on my trip to Australia. She was impressed, and afterwards later we went to the "Starlight Room" and had cocktails. It was a beautiful view as the lights came on and the sun went down, and the cocktails were very strong. We walked slowly back to our hotel as I we were both very tipsy. We stopped in a Thai takeaway for a late dinner, and arrived back at our hotel without incident.

On Saturday we lay in bed for a long while, but had to meet Kadie's uncle Dan for brunch on Mission Street. I made a wrong turn and got a blister on my heel from my new shoes, we passed Mission Dolores Park and the Lexington Club and got to the restaurant only 10 minutes late. I met Micah, Omar and Dan, three lovely gay bois, and we had quite a nice time. I drank way too much coffee and so for the rest of the afternoon I was frantically looking for bathrooms. We checked out numerous bookstores, and Omar invited us to dinner that night.

We headed back to our hotel via bus to chill out for a while around 3 pm. We made love, which caused us to be running late but it was worthwhile. We drove over in Kadie's truck around 7 pm and had a very nice dinner with wine and wonderful conversation. I showed Kadie my digital photos from Australia, and she enjoyed seeing them. We left around 10 am as the guys prepared to go out on the town.

The next morning Kadie and I had a long conversation about sex. I had previously given her a poor explanation of how I felt about sex, and wanted to let her know that although I don't often orgasm, I still enjoy the attention, caresses, warmth and other things that go together with sex. That led to a wonderfully passionate morning of mutually satisfactory sex, which made us a rather late checking out. It led to Kadie dropping me off on Market Street near a Bart station and an ATM, but with less than two hours to get money and to get onto my plane. She had to negotiate the Sunday traffic and head out of town. We both successfully negotiated out own private hurdles, and later on let each other know that we were ok.

I flew back into Bozeman around 6 pm, and I have never seen the town so green. Good rain and lots of sunshine have really done wonders, I only wish Australia could be so verdant. Kadie's was storing her excess baggage in my apartment, so I negotiated that and made a successful homecoming.

I can't believe that it has only been three days since I left Kadie. I miss her so much, yet I was trying so hard not to fall for her. She's in a Californian mountain town doing an internship for the Summer, and although I will be there over the July 4th long weekend, it makes parting such sweet sorrow. I got upset when I talked with her the other night, she had been skinny dipping at a natural hot spring with her crew, and I was so jealous that other people got to see her naked when I was so far away from her. I felt like an idiot and apologized of course, but I suppose it is indicative of how deeply she has penetrated my defences.

I have been trying to keep busy in the laboratory since I returned, and the only way I can focus is by unplugging my internet connection. Tonight I was trying to do practice lectures, and I got very frustrated.

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