9:00 pm Sunday 29th August 1999

Ok, I'm on ICQ with Red at the moment, so this entry may be rather fragmentary at first. What did I do today? I woke up after some very unusual dreams, unusual to the point that I took great care to write out fully the most important one. Went to brunch around 10:00 am, came back to have my pills and then went down again at noon for a bit more. This was quite a mistake as I was left feeling very bloated for quite a while. I chatted to Jules and around 1:00 pm I went for a cycle into Civic. I didn't buy anything, I just wanted to get out for some exercise and some air. I came back to Uni to get some moisturizer for my lips and headed over to the lab. I was not feeling enormously inspired, but I did some cleaning which was needed and some writing in which I was trying to outline my objectives for the next few years. On a broad front my objectives were to approach androgyny so as to be able to enjoy the benefits of both sexes. This should hopefully enable me to more easily live as a female should I decide that the time is appropriate. My next objective was to get a post-doctoral position somewhere in either the USA, Canada or Britain. This would provide me with a job in a stable English speaking country with a large tranny population. Thus there wouldn't be any huge hassles continuing my growth. The final objective was to come to some sort of resolution with my parents. I'm not sure exactly what I mean by this, but I guess with changes becoming more noticeable and with me having less inclination to make excuses about them. Therefore I will have to tackle that issue.
I did mention to Mum on Friday that I might come home between the 4th and 11th of September so maybe I can breach he subject with her then, or maybe she will raise it herself?
Good heavens, I've been running relay ICQ with Red and Nikki for the last hour or so and I think the old back is beginning to give out.
OK, so I was bored and then I left the lab and went for a cycle all over the place. I went over the back of the ANU, and around the lack, under Commonwealth Park Bridge and through Commonwealth Park itself. Wow! I've never seem Commonwealth Park before, but it really is quite beautiful. It was like some very special fairy land and would be a wonderful experience during when there would be few people there. I was really uplifted by seeing it for the first time, along with the beautiful blossoms of the cherry trees I felt reborn and alive… :) Spring in Canberra seems to be a truly wondrous thing for those willing to open themselves to the beauty which is all around.
I cam back via Civic to Johns (rather a let down) and chatted with Jules for a bit. Then I had dinner and Jules came down and installed Linux for me. That took a fair while but finally it was loaded up. I will have to take the time to utilize it when I can.

Okkie, after a nice shower and some gaming (naughty grrl) it's 11:45 pm. I think I might take this opportunity to crash. See y'all later. :)

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