Stuff the Carbon NMR, I couldn't be bothered going back over to work to set it up. I don't have any new compounds to run anyway…
Hey all, today was pretty quiet, got to work at 9:30 am and was very good the whole day (kind of). I worked reasonably diligently until 12:30 pm when I cycled over to Civic to meet Szusza for lunch. But alas, no Szusza. I waited until 1:00 pm when I headed back to the lab and sent her a querying email, with no reply yet. We need to chat, since I have to find out where Julia's place is and what the organization is for the Ball.
So I got a bit lack-luster in the afternoon, and as the afternoon progressed I got really tired. I think this is because I am avoiding stuff with caffeine in it. I eventually fell asleep in the lab for about 20 minutes and only woke up when the phone rang at 4:00 pm. It was S** calling from Melbourne asking how the new baby was and asking for A*****. We chatted, then I gave the phone to N**** and after a bit, A***** walked in so that was good timing. After very little work, I cycled into Civic at 5:00 pm to pick up the dry cleaning. Carrying it home really sucked, but I got it home in mostly one piece. Had a bit of a snooze, had some toast and left over pasta for dinner, then chatted with Susan and Jules for a bit, and then I chatted with Soba on ICQ for a while. She's still feeling a bit blue…
Still haven't made my eyebrow wax appointment yet, that is something I MUST do tomorrow.
Tried on my outfit to make sure everything fitted still and didn't clash, and it looked quite nice. I like mirrors up to a point. I like to know that I look nice, but I dislike being reminded of the defects and deficiencies of my body. God, getting off the Roaccutane will be such a relief, after that getting rid of this beard will be such a relief, and after that who knows what will be a relief… I was feeling a bit angsty, but that was probably due to the atmosphere I had created… generally I am a creature of the sun, but the dark hides what cannot emerge and the dark only breeds gloom… some of my favourite music helped to give me more funk, but in reality I just need more sleep.

I was thinking today about the orchiectomy, not thinking of getting one, but wondering how I feel about it. I figured in the end that as a pathway to SRS and as a method of removing the Testosterone factories and making other things easier and given the low cost it is a reasonable operation to choose. I also came to the conclusion that I would not be particularly afraid… however, the possible reasons listed above are not necessarily what I want, and so any operation like that would be beyond my foreseeable horizon at the moment.
What else? Tomorrow is pay day thank heavens, all this expenditure was putting a dent in my bank balance, and I have to pay off my credit card also…
Tomorrow night is the John's science dinner, I don't think there will be too many people there, but not having to cook will be good…
Very tired, I probably won't even make it to midnight… wore my loop earrings to the lab again today, also some mascara. No comments as expected. Putting the loops in during the day is good practice because I have to put the studs back in at night. To survive this Ball I'm really going to have to start having late nights and late morning wake-ups. Alternatively, I may have to ask Bob to give me a hand...
Ok, it's coming up on midnight, so I'll hit the hay. Only a few more sleeps till the big night! :)