Hmmm… I'm bored, and since I have nothing better to do I guess I'll fire up the old word processor. Today was busy. I worked from 10 am to 7 pm, but had about three hours off in that time, so it was a reasonably normal day. I picked up more Roaccutane this morning and got into the lab about 10:00 am. I worked away until about 11:30 am when I cycled up University Avenue for the appointment with the Eye specialist. He was quite friendly and after having a look at them, prescribed me some steroidal eye-drops to kill the apparent problem. It seems the oil ducts in the eye are messed up (complicated by hay-fever) or something, but hopefully this should set them straight (or at least that's how it's supposed to be).
The consultation cost me $90 (!) and I got about $55 back from Medicare. I got back to the lab about 12:45 pm and did more work on the reaction I'm still fiddling with. Red gave a call for coffee so I chatted with her at God's for a while, she and Paul are still all lovey-dovey… ;)
Went back to the lab, worked up my reaction which took forever to filter, and chopped up some big lumps of sodium. Got the ether still dry again and then Nikki gave me a buzz. I hadn't heard from her in a while, so I finished up some stuff and went down for a coffee. It was nice to talk to her as always, and after that I headed back to the lab. I began another reaction using alane and so that will be interesting. I got out at about 7:00 pm and came home. To say I'm running out of food is a bit of an understatement. Dinner tonight was the remaining two or three spoonfulls of cereal, a banana, a cup of noodle soup and a very ordinary museli bar from the vending machine.
Chatted briefly to Krissy on ICQ, apparently her doctor had decided against prescribing her hormones as he didn't know enough about them. Hopefully she can find a more helpful doctor somewhere else soon.
No response to yesterdays email whirl-wind, but knowing my own response time, I can well understand. ;)
I think I may be over the damn flu which I've had since this time last week. This morning was all runny nose and then hacking dry cough this afternoon.
Peta has updated her diary for the first time in quite a while, so that proved to be an interesting read.
Michelle has also updated her page, probably the last time before she goes in for the operation… *insert dramatic music here* I really miss her. :(
Sad thing I read for the day was…
"Someone just come along to take me away from all this... please?"

I had an interesting encounter this morning as I got in early to work. I was walking down the corridor and one of the lecturer's called out my real name telling me I'd left an email on the printer. Thankfully not anything from my hot-mail account, but that lead into a discussion about my name. I said I was going to get it changed November 8th, and inserted as a remark that "it might cause as many problems as it solves". She asked why, and my brain quickly started to operate on over-time. I eventually explained that I was changing it to Steph, and after a bit more confusion that I was undergoing a lot of changes including physical ones and that it might cause a bit of friction in the department. I said I had tried to prepare people gradually for some big changes, and I think the penny eventually dropped without me having to use the T word. She said that she thought that it was not such a bad place and that most people were fairly liberal and understanding. So, that was a relief.
It seems these days that I find it a bit difficult to talk about anything without some sort of Transsexual influence being there. For example, anytime I go to the doctors, I have to mention my medication. That inevitably leads to why I'm on HRT, and that inevitably leads to talking about my Transgendered status.
Still, today although panic filled at the time was kind of a relief in that work is not so isolated from what is going to happen as it was before.
Mum is always going on about how I don't have to tell anyone at work, and other people say I need to get it out before someone beats me to the punch. I think in the end it's going to be a compromise situation. I'm not as drastically contemplating full-time as I was earlier, but there is going to be the gradual slide into androgyny and then up the other side of the garden path… this will undoubtedly raise some eye-brows, but will not (IMNO) cause any heart-attacks since they're already acclimatized to me already.
At a last straw, explaining the marks which the electrolysis will temporarily give me will hopefully solve any final questions. Demonstrating to the first years next year may be an interesting experience because of the name change and depending on how far the "developments" have come along. ;)
Ok, I totally shagged out… ta ta…

Ok, I admit it, a relationship would be really, really nice. Ok, there are you happy now?! I said it. Dammit I get lonely sometimes… *sigh* Yes, I guess I am human after all (dammit again). It's not a huge deal at the moment, but just now and then someone to hold and be with would be really great. Yeah I know I'm glamorizing relationships at the moment, cause I know that sometimes they can totally suck, but hey it has been an awfully long time between drinks as they say… Screw you guys, I'm going to bed.