Phew, I'm a little tired at the moment, but I'll try and piece together a somewhat coherent picture of what I've been up to.
Tonight was the opening of the Canberra Spring-Out festival. It was on at the Med, and it turned out to be a pretty good time. I had the door for a while, and it was pretty good. I'd give a big hello and hand the person their drink and door-prize tickets. I also got to hold the pink ribbon when the organizers cut it on the stage to launch the event, and it was pretty cool. :)
Ok, the day. Woke up late and was busy at the lab, I did a bit of lunch with Red and then at about 2:15 pm headed off to catch the bus to Belconnen and then taxi to Weetangera. Got my hair done, and it came back very straight which I was really happy about. The taxi drivers did say "mate", so I guess I wasn't fully convincing (just yet). Came back to Uni the same way, but was feeling stuffed so went home and had a brief snooze. Woke up and had a brief chat with upstairs and then quickly put my stuff in my bag, went to Julia's house, got changed and to the Med by about 8:45 pm. As usual, my noise and people level was set pretty low, and since it had started to rain, I went out to enjoy it. I was sitting on a shop-front just being, when who should drive up and appear, but the familiar figure of Peta. :) I didn't think she'd make it, but lo and behold. We had a really good chat outside, just talking and really getting along. It was a really nice time, but she must have been freezing. After a while we headed indoors and Catherine was up on stage running the "Time-warp" competition, which Gloria ended up winning. First prize was a rather large vibrator and some gay porn videos. *s*
By about 11:30 pm however, I was feeling a bit tired and I knew that Szusza would probably kick on for a fair while and that I had no money for a taxi. Peta mentioned she was heading home soon, and she was kind enough to offer me a lift. I got a bit wet getting my bag and camera from Szusza's car, and after a bit of me getting my right and left hands confused (as usual) she dropped me off home.
So yes, tired as I am, I'm feeling quite good and have had a busy but enjoyable day. :) Tomorrow is the referendum which I'll have to get over to vote in, and after that there will be coffee at Tilley's at 4:00 pm and after that the B.B.Q. at A***** place which I don't think I'll make it to.
Self-love is what I have for myself at the moment. I see myself in the mirror, and I see someone who I really do love. This might sound self-adsorbed, but it's something I was never able to do previously. In a similar vein I don't mind seeing myself naked, because finally I am starting to like my body, and how can one love others fully if you loath yourself? I'm not claiming to be beautiful by a long shot, but what I see is what I like finally. Do all Tranny's have this kind of gradual epiphany? I don't know, but I hope so. :) It's so nice to be myself after so long.
Oh god, this Sydney trip is going to leave me so broke. Unless I can get the credit card to work… hang on… I just got an operational card and PIN number for my other account which I think has money in it (?). Phew, that's a bit of a load of my mind, that account hasn't worked for months till now.
Wow, it's now 1:30 am, I getting a bit stuffed. I'm sorry, I can't help myself I just have to keep looking in a mirror. I always used to loath them, but now it gives me a real positive uplift. Without all the other explanations, the joy I get from seeing myself looking this way is the best proof that this is where I want to be. It's kind of hard to argue with unadulterated happiness.