10:10 pm Monday 29th November 1999

Ok, almost the end of November and what have we accomplished? Well, of special mention is that tonight I had probably the healthiest dish I've eaten in ages. Not-so-frozen vegetables and rice, and I have to admit, it tasted reasonably tolerable. I would have preferred some soy or oyster sauce with it, but I'll buy some tomorrow. I also rediscovered the concept of cooking more and saving it for tomorrow. Nothing new I admit, but it is straining the capacity of my little fridge at the moment.
Worked at the lab from 10:00 am to 6:30 pm. Was quite busy at first until I realized that I had collected virtually all the characterization data I could. I re-ran some of the IR samples, with mixed results. Then a few UV-Vis and that about wrapped it up. That was at about 1:00 pm and shortly after Nikki came to ask if we wanted to do lunch. She asked for Steph at the door and C***** said I was in the lab. If that hasn't dropped a big hint I don't know what will have. We went for walk and lunch and then later over to coffee at God's. Just talked about mainly generic stuff, she had been all doing the couple thing with Mia and that was why she had been hiding away. We nattered away until about 2:00 pm when I headed back to the lab.
With the sun becoming much more intense over the last few weeks, I was trying to make a special effort to walk in the shade, but I was glad to get back to the shade and relative comfort of the lab.
I was at a bit of a loose end with having collected all the data, so I just sat around for a bit feeling bored and then after a bit of self-motivation got up and put a few reactions on to make starting materials. My plan for over 20 compounds is still approximately on track, it will depend on how things go tomorrow.
I came home and did the dinner thing, it takes a lot more work and there is the onerous task of washing up, but I struggled gamely through. I had a nap 7:00 pm and 9:00 pm and then woke up did a few bit's and pieces, headed over to the lab to turn off some reactions and came home.
Ran into Lloyd, Anthony and Sonya outside Susan's old room and gave Lloyd his CD back. I'm not sure, but I think I'm way on the outer with Lloyd. I don't know why, and it seems it's been that way for a long time. I don't think that it's specifically my transgenderism and I can't specifically remember insulting him, so I'm still in the dark.
One incident of note took place this morning, I was trying to make up a concentrated solution of a sample which I didn't have much of, when I knocked over the vial with my arm and lost the sample. I just got really angry at myself, and in a moment of unspeakable apoplexy smashed the vial on the floor. Suffice to say C***** who was there was rather taken aback. So I calmed down quite quickly and swept the mess up and apologized. It wasn't anything too serious, I was just really furious at myself.
There is apparently a BBQ this Saturday with a few of the Canberra TV's/CD's. I think I'll probably end up going, simply because there won't be too much else happening. It's not really my scene, but company is company. I think I now know how Michelle felt all year, except my tolerance for being alone is much higher.
Also got an email from the coastal Peta who is going to be up in Canberra for a few days. Hopefully we can get together for coffee or something. I think inland Peta might be back by then, so perhaps we ca all get together for a coffee-fest. Okkie, going for a shower to try out my new humongous towels… ;)

Yes, they get an official thumbs up…
Mrs D***** will be coming to Canberra soon enough and seems to be looking forward to seeing me. She also asked if she could meet Steve too. ;) It's different these days I have to admit. I used to separate out the two major sides of my personality because (as I have said before) I hated seeing the female I wanted to be and yet also see the male I was at the same time. These days however, with the changes happening to my body and particularly to my face, the two have become more integrated. Naturally Steph (I hate talking about myself in the third-person) is now the dominant player, but the person who is/was Steve is still there as well. It will be like a role reversal of my earlier years when the male dominated (typical) and the female was suppressed. She can't meet Steve without meeting Steph, nor Steph without Steve. The way I present may give someone an idea as to how I wish to be perceived, but the two are entwined and inseparable.
Um, yeah… like whatever nevermind…
It's coming up on midnight, I'm feeling a bit tense in my shoulders, I should organize to get another massage now that it's quiet at Uni. I'll see. I have a big email backlog which I also have to clear.
I think I might upload these and go to bed.

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