Oh dear, another day gone and wept up into the dustbin of history. I had pizza for dinner tonight and feel a bit blagh now unfortunately. In theory I want to go for a run, but it's getting a bit late at night. Of course, that might be the best time to go these days…
So what happened? Bugger all. I woke up late and did very little. Eventually I went over to the lab and set up some reactions. Then I came back here, snoozed out of the sun and chatted to Mum on the phone. Then I headed back over to the lab and isolated compound #21 and set up compound #22 which in theory I should go back and work up at about 11:00 pm tonight. Compounds #23 and #24 should hopefully be ready by tomorrow morning. After that I came home about 8:00 pm, chatted on ICQ with Red and Soba and sent a quick email to Michelle. I've been reading descriptions of the actual SRS operation which make at first for some rather gruesome reading, but which are fortunately surrounded in medical terms to some extent. I still think the banana trick is the best way to demonstrate… *lol*
I still get the quiet times when part of my brain says "Why the hell are you doing this?" and I admit sometimes I can't enunciate the full answer. I don't believe I'd have SRS done in 5 years, but I would hope that I would be able to get it in less than 10. What I mean is that financially, emotionally and socially 5 years probably isn't enough time for me just yet. I wouldn't have any problem getting it done tomorrow if someone else was going to pay for it and I had the time I needed. But this is reality here and so it's going to take time and that's good.
I think about David/Dana a lot and realise that she has selected a path which I am quite grateful for having briefly met. In the sense that people can be on hormones and living as a male full-time for a long time. That there are examples for me to see of the shades of grey between full blown SRS and "normal life" is good to see. Unfortunately the presiding view is that to be genuine you must do hormones and then be on the fast-track to surgery regardless of the objectives of your life. What I see at the moment for me is that it is unlikely that I would be going full-time anytime before the end of my first post-doc position (presuming say 2 years for that). So that means 3 years or so for me to get my electro out of the way and voice training and just learning how to act like a woman. At the moment it's electro which is bugging me the most, I just want to get it started, but I don't want to throw my face away by doing it too soon after I finish the Roaccutane, or by using a bad technique or an inexperienced or bad operator. I only get one of these and I've got enough facial surgery planned that I don't want to have to factor in scar removal also.
Oh well, whatever nevermind…
Just chatting to Michelle on ICQ.

12:40 am - Phew… Just jogged back from the lab. Not very far I know, but I guess that goes to prove to me how rather unfit I am. Still, if I keep this up it will be good. I seem to have lost some of the flexibility in my legs, but that should hopefully come back also.
So yeah, I was chatting to a very bouncy and happy Michelle for a while earlier, she sounded quite pleased to be home and on the way to recovery. I am pleased to hear it as well. :)
I got over to the lab at about 11:30 pm and worked up the all fluorinated acetylide. It is the standard yellow of all the other acetylides, but I wasn't able to check that it was the real thing with no NMR time. I have 6 compounds which need to have their 13C NMR run. Since this takes an overnight run for each compound and my supervisor will be back in 7 days, this is going to be one area where I will probably run short. The main thing I am dreading is that I'm going to have 24 or more compounds requiring microanalysis… the is the most important analysis technique, and the one I hate most. Oh well, it can't be all fun and games…
Bugger… just realized I only have 4 days worth of Progynova left. Damn, I was hoping it would last till Friday. Like duh… I have another two week strip left in the box. Silly me… *blush* However, I definitely have only about a weeks worth of Androcur, so it looks like I'll be going to see the good Doctor…
Ok, almost 1:00 am, time to go to bed. See ya!