Well, everyone, I'm feeling much better now you will be all pleased to hear. I kicked myself out of the deep black hole I had fallen into on the weekend. It wasn't pleasant and I sent a group email which some people might have taken the wrong way. It was the poem I wrote, and it wasn't directed at anyone specifically, but I had to scream, I had to get it out. I had to let people know I was not in a good state…
Have I dealt with that issue properly? Probably not, but it is behind me and that I guess is one thing to be noted. It's so hard to let others know how that occasionally I feel so isolated here. But then unfortunately I often feel isolated even when my friends are around. I'm a few years older than them, I had the whole messed up boarding school experience, I am a post-grad and not an under-grad and I am transgendered. I try not to let these factors get in the way, but I guess regardless, their influence seeps through.
Tomorrow there is a meeting organized by Catherine. I'm not sure what it is about, but it is over at Tiffany's place so I will drive over. I have to admit, although I use it so rarely, the green car at times is very convenient.
I got a post-card from Marilyn today which was very nice. The spent some time for Jules's dad's birthday down at a glacier on the South Island (of New Zealand that is).
I got an email from Illara the other day which was really great. She mentioned she had just found my diary which caused me to go "Eeek" because looking back on the first years worth, it really is embarrassing just how bland I got at times. I also read the link she sent me which was entitled "Why web journals suck" and I realized that mine was pretty ordinary. Personally I don't give two tosses about what the writer said, because it's just me writing and I'm not looking for big crowds to flock to it, so bite me! ;)
What else? Today was bland, I worked on my poster and did a few experiments, not unlike Monday.
Tomorrow is Australia Day, so hurrah, hurrah! I have to admit being an Australian is pretty damn good, and I do like this country a lot. It certainly come a long way in terms of tolerance in the last 15 to 20 years. I may go into the lab, or if there is something interesting going on elsewhere in town, perhaps to that depending on my boredom level.
One good thing about tomorrow is that they will not be asphalting the carpark at ungodly hours of the morning like this morning… oh the pain, the pain…