Today was actually fairly productive, I diligently worked away and only had to duck out to get my zip drive from home (total time = 10 minutes) because the computer chewed the floppy disc which I was working off.
It's kind of sad in a way. I've only got 10 days left in my room, and this weekend will be the last full weekend I'll have. I've lived in this room for about 18 months, and an identical room (directly above) for the year before that. So, having to move out, sacrifice a lot of creature comforts like my couch, the big room itself, the beautiful sun-beam that comes in my window in the middle of winter but not summer, the easy access, the general isolation from the rest of college, no neighbors so no noise except what I create myself… *sigh*
I've never had one place this long (call it 2.5 years), school and undergraduate was a different room or bed at least every year, so a place has never really grown on me so much, a place of my own, a place to decorate to my tastes and likes.
Of course, on the other hand, everyone will hopefully know me as Steph, they won't know what I looked like before HRT started, who knows there's even a chance I may make some new friends. I guess I'm looking at things finishing and things beginning, I'm hopefully for the future, but nostalgic for the past… and that at least is proof that I must have some humanity in me somewhere…
9:00 pm - The other thing about moving someplace where I am unknown is the tiny but non-zero possibility that I may be seen (temporarily even) as a girl.
9:50 pm - 13C NMR is underway, Atomic batteries to power! Turbines to Speed!
Funny how my opinion of how I look can swing back and forth so quickly. Not that I'm having a winge or anything, I actually think I'm doing pretty well after not even 9 months on estrogen. Still, patience, patience, patience…
12:00 am - Great, not only do I spend a couple of hours at work staring back and forth between the computer screen and data sets, but now I get to do it at home too.
You know, there are only really two people who I can talk to about TS issues face to face and who really understand. The problem is that I don't want to appear to either of them like some one-dimensional character who thinks only of being TS.