11:20 pm - Saturday 5th May 2001

I'm kind of disappointed. The long information leaflet which used to give the molecular weight, structural diagram, side-effects and other quite interesting information about cyproterone acetate has been replaced by a silly little scrap of paper which says little else except "This is a prescription medication".

Obviously I'm bored, otherwise I would be writing this on a Saturday night. I'm not really sure when I last went out on a Saturday night, though Monday night has been quite popular recently. I did very little this morning, I wandered over to Café Cactus to talk to this young CD again. A TS friend said I was operating my own little outreach program which I found mildly amusing. The young CD related the unpleasantness about being found out again by his un-accepting parents which I couldn't help but wince at vicariously. In my own opinion, I am not certain he himself knows where he wishes to go, so I urged caution. My advice was try to get a stable public-service position and to then move out of his parents house, this I felt would at least provide a good safety net if he decided to transition and if his parents reacted badly (as expected). If in the end he decided not to transition (which can be a hard decision in it's own right), he would still have the job and independence.

He mentioned a young transsexual who was quite evangelical about getting him to come out and transition immediately, which I felt somewhat concerned by. I had my own short evangelical phase when I first started Androcur. For the first time in my life I felt so happy and at peace, that I was caught up in my own wave and wanted to "spread the good word" about hormones. I think that I matured and realized that what is good for me in my situation was not necessarily beneficial for anyone else. Only fundamentalists refuse to adopt solutions to fit people, they prefer to fit people to their unyielding ideology.

We walked about Civic and I tried to impart what little information I had picked up over my own time. We covered hormones, make-up, "tucking", clothing styles, reproductive options and much more before we had to part. It feels strange thinking of myself as a mentor, but I will try to do my best given my limited time and resources.

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