Christy's Bio

I only started seriously cross-dressing in November 1995, after 20 years of such strong denial, that I was barely aware of my true desires. These feelings have only fully surfaced in the last few years, and now, having accepted my crossdressing, many of my introductory experiences to cross-dressing have come back to me. Each time I read some of the stories posted on CD/TV web pages, I recognize many of my own experiences and sentiments long suppressed; things such as trying on my mothers stockings, girdles, skirts, when I was a teen and earlier; regular, but passing thoughts of what it would be like to put on makeup, have long flowing hair, dress-up and just to truly look and feel like a woman. I must have rationalized that these things were just youthful experimentation, and absurd thoughts, for until recently, I had forgotten about most of them. I think one of the reasons that I had suppressed my desire to cross-dress, was that I had thought it was somehow abnormal. Luckily, about 8 years ago I went to a "Pimp and Prostitute" party. This is a party where the men dress as women and the women dress as men. Before the party, my three friends and I were helped to completely make-up and be dressed by our girlfriends. Then and there, I became aware of how exciting it was to be fully dressed as woman, and, the only reason I had the courage to do so, was because my best friends were doing so. The party was electric, the women (and men) seemed more turned-on than at any other party that I have ever been to. But for me, the real shocker came when, my best friend Scott freely admitted how much he liked putting on womens clothing, especially the lingerie and stockings. He even said that he wished he could do so all the time. Well for me this was like a dam breaking, I wasn't the only one that had these desires, desires so hidden, that, whenever I had them, I would force them from my mind. Unfortunately, a year or so after the party, my friends and I began to drift apart, as they married and went their separate ways. Thus the experience faded and once again my desires submerged, and were eventually denied. In October 95, for some unknown reason, it occurred to me to do an internet search on cross-dressing, and I came across TG-Forum. Over the course of several months I read all I could and gradually exposed my wife to some of the more poignant articles that I encountered. Ultimately my wife has been very supportive of my cross-dressing, to the point that she now encourages me to dress up each night, after the children are asleep. She is teaching me to put on make up and has bought all of my female clothing. I wish I had had the courage to respond to my feelings 20 years ago, when I was much slimmer and sureley would have been more passable. Now, I consider myself barely passable, and regret not dressing when I could have felt even more feminine. If it wasn't for my wife, I wouldn't even be where I am now, simply dressing-up at home, because I am still apprehensive about even buying a pair of stockings at a department store. I can certainly empathize with anyone who hesitates at going out enfemme, for, I have had a hard time imagining myself going out dressed ......... until recently. I did get up the courage this year to go out on Halloween, and I fooled my neighbors so well, that I now have the confidence to go anywhere. I even went to Pimblets (a local CD friendly, English style bar) one night on my own, for a quick guiness. And soon I intend to go shopping with my wife, when we get the right babysitter. Unfortunately I don't have my female voice yet, but, for now I'll let my wife do the talking.

christy-b@geocities.com
© 1997

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