Life story part.

I'd say, when all of this started was when I was four years old.  At that age, I used to play with this girl that lived across the way from me.  She was a couple years older than me I think and I used to ask her to paint my nails and do the whole makeup bit.  We never did the dress up bit though because when we tried it once, her mother stopped it.  Oh well... heh heh.

When I was five, my parents moved out of that area and I know longer had her as a close friend anymore.  After that, I had not many friends at all... maybe two and they were both boys and didn't accept me as much of a friend.

At about age seven, I started having dreams about actually being a female.  By that time the interest in the female side was almost overwhelming, but I kept it under control.  From seven till about age 9 nothing really happened except for more dreams.

When I was 10, my parents got divorced and I started going back and forth between living with my mother and father.  Now I should tell you that I have one sister and she is about 3 1/2 years older than I am.  After my parents got divorced there was less time for them to be around so my sister and I would be alone alot.  At age 10 was when I started ditching and leaving school early just to get home so I could be alone for a while and pretty much play dress up with myself in my sister's clothes.  I'm surprised that to this day I never got caught.  I kept this up for quite a while.  I got kicked out of every elementary school I had been to previous to this for other problems and this just wasn't helping out.  Now I was hardly even showing up to school and if a teacher angered me I go into a rage and yell at them then run home as an excuse to leave school early.

I kept this up until about age 14 when I finally started getting my own clothes and hardly ever spent any time at home.  I had started stealing from womens clothing stores and when at home I stored them in the back of my closet or I'd keep them hidden wherever if I wasn't at home.  At that age I used to run away alot and lived with friends all over Marin County.

When I was 16, I stopped stealing all together and started paying for what it was that I wanted.  I had gotten to a point where I did not care what people thought of me and they most likely did not want to say anything to my face because I was pretty scary looking and obviously not the most sane person in the world.  I'd go into stores and buy what it is that I was looking for.  Never trying them on, just sizing them with my eyes and buying them.

After age 18, I got really bold and picked a few local stores where I figured it would be safe if they knew about me, that way I could try things on and get the right kind of assistance.

Now most of my friends and just about every clothes store that I shop at knows about me.  I still won't tell my family though and some friends I won't tell either.

So there's pretty much my life story for you.  Hope it didn't put you to sleep.