COMING
OUT!
I have lived all of my life in denial Of who I really
am...what I really want out of life I lived in constant fear of the cruel
consequences. Fear of being found out Of being discriminated against Of
not being accepted by the people I loved So I just followed the easiest and
safest route. I have hidden my true self for so many years Living a life
that was shallow and based on lies Hiding behind a marriage that caused me
many tears Never a day passed without me asking the why's. I knew that
my ex-hubby would make my life pure hell He said that he would destroy me
and he finally got his wish Destroying me was not enough….he tried to
take my kids as well! He has caused us all a great deal of pain and anguish! That
man has told all of my friends... all of my family And to what gain??? What
purpose did it serve to tell them about me? I did my best and have wondered
many times if it was all in vain? It has been two long years since I came
out......... I had two wonderful years with a person who I absolutely adored She
said that her love for me was very strong But...alas...even that was not
meant to be! She discovered that she had been wrong! So even though I am
alone again I have only this to say..... Despite the anguish, the fear,
the threats and the pain... I finally have come out of hiding... I have
shed my past... and I am at long last ME!
composed by Mackie |